iLove You, Not

Chapter 1: The Break Up

Disclaimer: i don't own iCarly :(

Summary: After midnight, Sam & Freddie have officially broken up and Sam is totally devastated when she sees Freddie & Carly kissing right after her break up with Freddie, and she thinks Freddie used her to get to Carly and that he never loved her. Post-iLove You. kinda dramatic

Sam's POV:

So, me and Freddie over heard Carly talking to Spencer and Jenna (his babysitter, and still is by the way!) about rushing a relationship and I felt like it was the same with me and Freddie, so we mutually decided to break up, and I just wished me and Freddie clicked so we didn't have to break up, ugh, why does it have to end this way, I mean I probably knew this would happen one day, but not now!, it seems so fast… so incase your wondering why I'm so upset, well because I'm freakin in love with him!, not just a little crush, like I said I had on Spencer, which by the way is gone!, but real love! Like when you want two horses to "date" and put them in the same barn together. So, this is how we broke up…

*flashback*

"So" I say

"She wasn't talking about us" Freddie says sadly

"I know, but, do you think maybe, you and I are taking some connection we have and…" I was cut off by Freddie

"Trying to force it into a boyfriend-girlfriend thing?" trying to finish what I was going to say

"Yeah" I say sadly

"Well, I don't know (he chuckles), its like after all the years of us being at each other's throats, and you kissing me, that night at school, it was pretty, intense"

"Hey you put me in a mental hospital" I say stating the obvious

"So, the kiss was just, intense?" I really want to know, it took me a lot of guts to put my feelings out there

"And fun" he says while smiling

I smile too

"Yeah I just, I just don't know if you and me really click, that way"

"Yeah, but maybe one day if you get a little more normal" he joked

"Or maybe you get a little more abnormal" I say

"So did we just break up?"

"Feels like it" My heart dropped into a million pieces

"But, it was, mutual, right?" he asks

"Yeah" I say with a chuckle

"But im still gonna tell everyone that I dumped your sorry butt and broke your nerdy lil heart" I joked

"Fair enough" Wow, he doesn't even mind?

(sigh) "Oh well" I click the elevator button to get us down to the main floor

I start walking away until I heard Freddie say something that was totally unexpected

"I love you" he says walking towards me

I think for a moment, should I say it? Does he really mean it? I finally spoke

"I love you too" I say with a cracked voice and smile

Then I leaned in and kissed him, this would probably be the last time I get to feel his lips on mine, for now

He takes his phone out of his pocket

"Its only 10:30"

I had an awesome idea

"Wanna break up at midnight?"

"That works"

We came back to the elevator and made out til midnight

*End of Flashback*

It's like 3 in morning and I couldn't sleep, I was still thinking about Freddie, why did we break up? It was like the most stupid-est thing we ever did! Other than me licking the swing set, but anyways I toss and turn but it was no use so I got out of bed and wanted some ham, ham always calms my nerves, when I got downstairs, I saw no ham in my fridge

"Ugh, I'll just get the ham at Carly's"

I rushed out of my house to Bushwell Plaza and I saw Lewbert sleeping with a hamburger in his hand, I decided to snatch it out of his hand but I didn't feel like it. When I got to apartment 8C I turned the knob and it was locked, but lucky for me I know how to pick locks, so I got a hair pin out of my hair and stuck it in the knob and heard a *click*, mama's done good, I saw a whole plate of ham and I chewed it in less than 5 minutes.

"Hmm, oh this is so good!"

While I was enjoying my delicious ham snack at 3 in the morning, I heard music coming from the iCarly studio

I wonder what that could be…

Cliffhanger!

A/N: Haha, you guys will just have to wait for chapter 2! But I hope you guys liked it, and I will try to update chapter 2 soon!

~SeddieCupcake