AN: Hey guys! Just a one-shot I wrote in between the huge tests I had today. It is supposed to be Sam writing in her "diary." Enjoy and Review!
Dear Diary,
" I can never do anything right. No matter how hard I try, I always seem to screw it up. The boy I love think I see him as a friend, and the one woman who has ever really treated me like her daughter gave up what might be her only chance to be with her love, for me. It is official: the Fates hate me."
"With Jack, it was always so simple. He was funny, sweet, and of course we had the same childhood. But one day I realized it was more than that. One day I fell in love with him. I have heard some people say that we would be a good couple, but it just won't seem real until he says something. The thing that scares me the most is that he never will."
"Brooke is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Sure I thought she was a bitch at first, but they do say not to judge a book by its cover. I guess that's what we both did. Sometimes I feel bad, because I know her history, and she never seems to be able to keep a good thing in her life for very long. That is one thing we had in common. We were both the seemingly permanent happiness that the other needed. Until Julian came."
"When Brooke and Julian got together, I was genuinely happy. Not angry, or jealous, or afraid she would send me back. I was glad she finally found a man to love. But even as I saw her falling for him, I knew she was scared. So I wasn't too surprised when she didn't go to L.A. with him. Disappointed, yes, but not surprised. It broke my heart knowing that I was part of the reason they might not be together. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do. I think Brooke is hiding behind me a little bit. But I love her so much now, I would do anything for her, give up anything for her, just so she is happy."
"So when I think about it, my life isn't so bad. I have a great guy who is at least willing to be my friend, and I finally have a family. It's all I've ever wished for. I guess my silver lining is pretty damn shiny."
