Hello. This is a work in progress fanfiction, I'm writing it at the moment and would love as much input as possible. I'm hoping to make this fit to the canon as much as possible, other than the inclusion of the character you will be introduced to in chapter 2/3. But we may have some changes later on, which you can probably guess quite early on, so we will see how this plans out, no promises. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this first chapter, please comment/review I'd love to hear what you think. - Hope

-- 31st October 1981 --

Remus had woken up on the wrong side of the bed, her head was pounding and she felt sick. That was just another day at the moment, the stress was getting to them all and she felt her symptoms more physically than the others did. The full moon had been 18 days ago and she was usually back up to her old self by this point, this month wasn't a good one.

She rolled over to see Sirius lying on the bed next to her, his eyes closed, his mouth hanging open snoring loudly and she smiled softly. She leant forward and kissed his forehead softly and brushed some hair out of his face. He looked so peaceful and quiet when he slept. She moved her fingers down his face slowly, at this movement she felt an arm snake around her waist. "Good morning." She said softly with a smile that was only replied to by a grunt. "We have to be at the cottage by 10, Lily's making a halloween themed brunch." She said with a smile but didn't begin to move away from him, instead she moved closer. Sirius held her close resting his head on her chest and rubbing his fingers up and down her back.

The alarm clock went off on his side of the bed and he groaned rolling onto his back and smacking it with his hand. At this movement Remus moved slowly out of his grasp and sat up at the side of the bed. She slid her slippers on before standing up and making her way to the small chest of draws and started collecting her clothes for the day.

As she started to pull on her clothes for the day she felt a pair of arms snake around her waist, "If you want to deal with the wrath of Lily go ahead." She said without turning to look at him. He sighed and started kissing down her neck, she couldn't help feeling weak at this point leaning against him. "Pads, stop it." She said and moved her hand around to grab him making him run back and decide to get dressed himself.

At 9:56 they arrived at the Potter's cottage to the sounds of James and Lily squabbling. Remus smiled softly opening the door to see baby Harry playing on the floor, the voices of James and Lily in the kitchen. Remus picked up Harry when he did grabby arms towards the pair.

"You promised me you wouldn't leave the house James! You promised, under Dumbledore's orders…" Lily had stormed into the living room, her eyes landing on Sirius. "And you! This is your doing, your influence!" She shouted and Sirius looked at Remus begging for help with his eyes, Remus shrugged in response turning to see James enter the room and she smirked at him with a raised eyebrow before sitting into the plush armchair with Harry on her lap.

"Come on Lils, it was Moony's time of the month, we couldn't leave her to do it on her own." James said with a groan not looking at his wife."She didn't ask you to go!" Lily snapped, and Remus knew at this point not to get involved. "She has Sirius, we discussed this. We discussed that while we were under house arrest Peter and Sirius would be going with her and you would stay."

Sirius looked up at this, "To be honest Peter didn't come with us… He was busy apparently." He said a spiteful tone to his voice.

"I don't care about that, You're putting our safety on the line, Harry's safety." She snapped putting her foot literally down.

"It won't happen again Lily, I promise. I'll send them back if I have to." Remus said with a soft smile as she started doing silly faces for Harry. Lily sighed before making her way into the kitchen and you could hear the sizzle of the food.

"She'll forgive you soon." Remus said to James who smiled.

"She already has, it's the last of her rage." James said and slumped down onto the sofa with Sirius beside him. Sirius smiled and rested his head against James, closing his eyes. Remus look away from the pair as they chatted about everything they had been doing, she looked to Harry, the little toddler who was putting his little hands on her face following the scars with a look of wonder.

Lily walked in with a tray of food, piles of crumpets with bright orange jam and toast, black bacon and eggs with witches hats on. She had tried with the theme of Halloween, but seemed the argument put it to shame. She had a bowl of porridge for Harry and Remus smiled and took the bowl letting Lily have some peace and quiet. Remus summoned a bib with her wand and started to feed Harry, the boys started shoving food into their face and Lily munched on some toast. They offered food to Remus and she shook her head, Lily frowned in response and Remus just smiled with a look of 'we'll talk later'.

Remus finished feeding Harry before letting him crawl along the floor. "Nap time." James said with a smile picking him up and taking him upstairs. Sirius got up to follow muttering something about bedtime stories leaving Lily with Remus.

"Why aren't you eating?" Lily asked suddenly, she nibbled on her piece of toast.

"Been feeling off for a while." She replied closing her eyes resting her head against the side of the armchair.

"But it's been a few weeks since the transformation… I thought you got better with that." Lily replied moving and passing Remus a piece of chocolate out of her handbag.

"Yeah, I don't think it's to do with that, I'm just a bit sick…" She replied but took the chocolate. Lily watched Remus for a while, with a puzzled expression. "I know what you're thinking, I wont be. Werewolves can't… It's not easy for a werewolf to be, so I wont be." She said and stood up and took a plain piece of toast and raised an eyebrow at Lily who nodded without a word.

Footsteps sounded as Sirius and James walked down the stairs, James dropped down on the sofa next to Lily. Sirius walked up behind Remus wrapping his arms around her and holding her close. "Feeling better?" He asked softly. Remus nodded resting her head against his, She moved them to sit down on the armchair and she curled up in his lap like she does after a full moon. He rubs her back softly and the other couple smile to themselves.

"Have you guys got snacks for Halloween?" James asked with a smirk at Remus, she rolled her eyes in return.

"Hopefully unless Moony here has eaten it all." Sirius said and Remus punched him. "Yeah, we are going to head back tonight, hand out chocolate to all the muggle kids in the neighbourhood. Going to dress up so scary, I'm a werewolf." Remus groaned at this again.

James was laughing, "Only you would be able to get away with that." He laughed and the doorbell rang, James got up to open to door and let in Peter, who was looking pale and thinner than usual. He sat down on the floor and James returned to the room.

"Dumbledore asked me to send you a message, Sirius you have to take over patrol tonight, Diggle got injured last night and you're the only one who's available." He said looking over at Remus and Sirius.

"Why can't you do it? You're not on duty." Sirius groaned throwing his head back, "I was meant to be trick or treating, scaring kiddies."

"I've just come off duty... not enough t-t-t-time." Peter stuttered and Sirius frowned.

"Don't need to sound so scared Wormtail, I was never going to make you do it." Sirius replied looking over at the other young man. At this point Harry started crying upstairs and Lily jumped up to go and take care of him.

The quartet sat together in silence for a few moment. Remus looked over them all, Peter looking down at his hands, James sitting listening out for his wife and son and Sirius his eyes closed resting his head against Remus shoulder. "We've changed."

James nodded to himself. "I'm sure for the better."

"I believe so…" Peter said still not looking up.

"I don't know what I'd do without you guys." Remus said and bit her lip.

"Those who love us never leave us." Sirius replied opening his eyes and looking over at Peter. Lily walked back down the stairs to sit beside James.

Peter let out a large yawn and stood up, "I need to sleep, sorry." Peter said and quickly left the house.

"What was that about? He's been getting really ill looking recently, I mean worse than Moony on the day after a full moon." Sirius said and frowned.

"War affects people differently. I think he's just worried about losing people. He keeps apologising as if this is all his own fault." Lily said with a sigh. "We're all struggling, I think he struggled because he doesn't have one of us. He doesn't have someone he's with all the time or can go home to. It's hard being alone."

"It's hard having someone…" Remus said quietly. "It's hard watching people go out for a mission and thinking they'll never come back." She shivered. At this point Harry started crying upstairs and Lily jumped up to go and take care of him.

Remus and Sirius stayed till just before lunch time, announcing that for Sirius to be on duty tonight he should probably do some stuff before he went. They hugged each other closely before they left, making a habit of it after they lost Marlene Mckinnon. Lily held Remus for a while, "I would still check." She said softly and Remus nodded reluctantly. Remus held James for longer than they ever have before, James kissed her on the cheek.

"I'm not going anywhere Moons." James said softly and kissed the top of her head.

Remus and Sirius found themselves back in the flat, the bowl of chocolate that had been full was now dwindling in stock. "Seriously Moony."

"It wasn't just me. For Merlin's sake Padfoot." Remus groaned walking into the living room starting to clean up some stuff.

"You promised me you would leave the stuff in there." He replied folding his arms across his chest.

"I've felt shit for the past two weeks, I needed to try and make myself feel better! I'm craving chocolate and if that's what makes my brain feel better than I'll eat it. The children don't need it!" She said tears in her eyes.

"Moons, I didn't mean… Don't go getting upset on me!" He stepped forward to grab her arm and she moved away.

"Just leave it." She snapped and carried on cleaning. She didn't look at him and wiped away the tears from her face. Sirius looked afraid that he had made her cry, he quickly went about sorting the rest of the house out.

"I'll be back early enough, we could still watch a scary movie with popcorn in bed, like our first halloween together." Sirius said and Remus nodded and looked back at him.

"Stay safe…" Remus said quickly and Sirius was already walking away. He turned back and pulled her into a hug.

"I'm sorry our night is ruined, but once this is over, once we've won. Then it'll be me and you. Then we can be who we want to be. I can… I can make you mine." Sirius said his forehead against hers.

"What are you saying?" She asked softly moving her hand to his face.

"You know what I'm saying." He smiled kissed her softly and left.

Remus smiled, the prospect of the future was always a difficult one to comprehend, but the idea of a future will always cheer the group up because they could see a life after this. After a while the doorbell rang and Remus stood to give the trick or treaters the chocolate from her bowl, she opened the door to find no one there, she frowned and looked around before a patronus moved past her into the house.

There's been an attack on Godrics Hollow, come quick.

The deep voice of Kinglsey Shacklebolt echoed around the room and Remus froze. No, it couldn't be, they can't be. She dropped the bowl of sweets, slammed the door closed and apperated to Godrics Hollow.

There were people everywhere, the dark mark lighting up the street with it's gaunt glow. Remus pushed past the crowds, she could barely see anything, tears were streaming down her face. "James! Lily!" She was screaming, she could see someone holding a limp body. There was a police tape barrier around the area, and Remus felt someone catch her around her waist.

"Not here." The same voice of Kingsley Shacklebolt was behind her.

"What happened?" Remus asked unable to hold herself up.

"We had a traitor in our midst, Voldemort came and killed them, killed James, Lily tried to protect Harry, he killed her as well." With each word Remus lost more and more strength. "Harry lived, with nothing but a lightning bolt scar on his forehead, he destroyed Voldemort, he's gone." Kinglsey said trying to look Remus in the face.

"I can't… Where's Sirius? Where's Peter?" Remus begged looking around.

A loud crack sounded in front of her and Albus Dumbledore stood a sad look on his face. "Miss Lupin, we need to talk." Kingsley's hands let go of Remus and she stepped forward. "Peter Pettigrew has just been murdered, Sirius Black the secret keeper of the Potter's cottage, gave away the location of the Potter's, Pettigrew tried to stop him and he murdered him and 12 muggles. He's currently being held at the Ministry to be transported to Azkaban tomorrow." He sounded calm but watched Remus through tear filled eyes.

"No." Remus said her heart aching. She moved past Dumbledore, their bodies were now laid out in front of the house. She walked forward, no one tried to stop her as she sat in between the couple. She took Lily's hand in her own, stroked a piece of hair out of her face. Remus leant forward and kissed the top of Lily's head, "I will do everything I can to keep your son safe." She said softly before turning to the body on her left. A sob escaped her lips, this was James Potter, the 11 year old boy that took in a werewolf, a abandoned child and a reject all those years ago. James' hair lay flat on his head, she ran her fingers through it messing it up in the way he always did, she straightened his collar of his shirt. "You lied to me James Potter, you said you were going to be fine." She said, she moved forward and kissed his head as well. She sat there for a few moments holding the hands of her dead friends, she looked up at the house, it was destroyed, and Sirius had caused this, no, no she didn't believe that.

"No!" She shouted taking her wand and apperating to the entrance of the Ministry, people were everywhere, people were celebrating. She pushed past making her way in, she stormed up to the desk. "Where is Sirius Black being held?" She demanded, the woman was terrified and said something about the dungeon.

Remus ran from there, moving to the elevator racing down to find where he was taken. She saw a few Aurors she knew and demanded they take her to him. As they were friends they took her down to where they were meant to be keeping him, she could feel the cold air from the dementors surrounding this room.

"Where is he, I have to see him, this is a mistake, he didn't hurt anyone." She said slamming her hands down on the desk.

"Are you family?" The man asked calmly.

"I'm his… I'm his girlfriend." Remus said getting more and more impatient.

"Only close family would even be allowed to say goodbye, and we know the Black family will be proud of what their son did, they won't want to bid him farewell." The man said with a scowl. "He is going to Azkaban, no trial, all the physical proof points to him. There is nothing you can do. He killed those people, why would you want to see him anyway, unless to punish him, and I'm sure the dementors are doing that anyway." A slight smile curled at his lips.

Remus growled through her teeth, she stepped forward past the desk and started to walk towards the cells. The first flash of red hit her back, she wipped her wand out sending a spell back at the guard.

"Remus don't do this." One of the Aurors called behind her, she sent another spell back. Remus broke into a run,

"Sirius! Sirius!" She screamed out before another bolt of red light hit her and she fell to the ground.

Remus awoke in hospital the next day, her whole body ached, she could feel the bruises of where her face hit the stone floor. She awoke and for a split second everything was okay, but slowly the warm blood turned cold. She was alone, she would always be alone, he was gone, a murderer. They were gone, murdered by him, or might as well have been.

She sat up looking down at the IV drip sticking out of her arm. What was the point, what was the point of staying around when everything she had ever loved was gone. She ripped out the IV throwing it to the ground and pulled off the vital detectors.

Swinging her legs off the side of the bed she started to see the damage, the spells had caused the ache, but the whole of her body was bruised, her usual scars red and raw. She lowered herself off the bed, and walked over to where a pile of her clothes was, she pulled the worn jumper over her head and slowly moved herself into a pair of jeans, She needed to get out of there.

She walked to the door and opened it looking out onto the busy ward. There were patients and nurses everywhere, so she tried to blend in move with a crowd of people. She managed to make it to the door before a sharp pain in her abdomen caused her to buckle over with a groan, if only she made it out of the doors. A nurse swept over to help, realising that she was a patient and forcing her into a wheelchair to take her back to the room.

"No." Remus tried to fight back but couldn't. "I don't want this, let me go. Let me leave. I'm a waste on resources." She groaned trying to get out of the chair. The nurse pushed her back into the room. "People like you don't care about people like me." She said with shaking hands. "I'm a werewolf, an abomination, a monster. Just get rid of me." Remus was crying now, sobbing into her hands.

"We're not all like that, you have friends in high up places." She said softly and tried to move Remus back onto the bed.

"I'm… I dont want friends I dont want help." She pushed the nurse away."I don't care if you dont want help, I need to check on the baby." The nurse said sternly.

"The baby…" Remus' eyes went wide as she stared at the woman in front of her.