Summary: "I'm not right for you Jared!" "Don't say that Kim, you're perfect for me and you know that!" "No Jared, you need someone who will be there for you, someone who you can marry and have kids and grow old with, and-and I just can't be that person" "No matter how much I want to" She whispered. Rated for language, other.
Disclaimer: I sadly don't own anything but the plot and any characters I have made up, Stephenie Meyer owns all. If I did I would probably make Twilight better as in more werewolf and Emmett goodness.
Anyways, sit back and enjoy the ride.
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"Sweetie, you sure you want to leave? You're not having any second thoughts at all? Because we'd be happy for you to come with us on our trip around Europe, we could all be together like a family" My mother asked, desperately trying to convince me out of going on the plane that was about to board in five minutes.
I shook my head at her. "No mom, I'm sure. You and Demetrius need to go by yourselves on your honeymoon, you guys deserve it. It makes me smile to see you so happy with him and it wouldn't be right if I came with you guys. I really want to go and visit dad, I haven't seen him in over seven years. It'd be a great experience, you know living with him"
The screen on the wall flashed that the plane was beginning to board, indicating that I only had a few more minutes with my mom. I wobbly walked over to her, ignoring the headache and pains in my arms and legs and hugged her tightly.
"I'll call you and text you everyday, don't worry. Plus I heard they have a great hospital in Forks which is right next to La Push and I talked to Dad and he said he's gotten all my medication for me. I want you to have fun with your new husband and tell Demetrius that I said hi" I reassured her.
"Okay Kimmy, just remember to take all your medication and to go to all your doctors appointments for your Chemotherapy and all that. Also don't be afraid to tell me what goes on at the appointments since you seem to be doing that a lot lately" She fussed, tears starting to slide down her cheeks. "And when you start school I want you to open up to more people, be yourself. I want you to make more friends and be happier, promise me you'll try"
"I promise mom"
She smiled weakly at me. "Okay, okay. Just-just know that I love so much, more than my own life. Don't forget that, I'll miss you so much Kimmie"
"I know mom and I love you too, you're my best friend. I'll miss you, so much" I murmured as tears of my own started falling.
"Sagapo Kimmy mou" My mom said in fluent Greek.
"Kai ego sagapo Mama mou" I answered back in equally fluent Greek. I gave my mom one last hug, picked up my bags and boarded the plane.
The flight attendants helped me my heavier bag under my seat since my arms and legs have weakened over the years and I sat down in my seat, finally able to relax a little.
As the flight attendants went through all of the procedures before the plane started taking off I zoned off, succumbing myself to my thoughts, my memories. The one memory that came up frequently was the when things changed for the worse, the year I was diagnosed with cancer.
I was diagnosed around the age of 9, almost two years after my parents divorced and I was having all these weird symptoms. I had these headaches all the time and it was hard for me to chew my food or to swallow it, swallow anything actually and I was vomiting for no reason.
Sometimes I had difficulty talking and it was hard for me to walk, I couldn't really lift anything since my arms were weakening, and I was also really tired most of the time When my mom saw what was happening to me she freaked out and brought me to my pediatrician, a lot of good that did us.
The doctor said I was perfectly fine, just a cold or something so we went home, but my symptoms continued and only got worse. They got so bad that my mom finally stopped ignoring them and drove us to every doctor in the state. We went to so many doctors that I had lost count until finally one of them sent me to get CAT scan, where they told us that I had Brain Stem Glioma.
"I'm sorry Ms. Zias but your daughter has been diagnosed with Brain Stem Glioma" The doctor told my mom gravely.
"Wha-what? I thought, I thought it was just something minor like the flu, she had some of the symptoms. It can't possibly be, she can't have cancer she's only a child!"
The doctor shook his head sadly. "Brain Stem Glioma occurs most commonly in children between the ages of five and ten, and your daughter is nine if I am correct"
"Well what do we, what do we do now?" My mother Natalia asked timidly.
"Our next course of action is treatment, the sooner she takes it the better. With this kind of cancer we can never be sure how long she'll live but the treatment will prolong her life"
"What type of treatment exactly" Natalia asked.
"Well it really depends on the size of the tumor, we'll try chemotherapy first to reduce the size of the tumor and possibly radiation therapy after that. There's also surgery to remove the tumor but we really only use that as a last resort if the tumor is able to be surgically removed without damaging the brain, but it is very risky and not recommended for children her age" The doctor explained.
"If all goes well after the treatment we'll be able to establish a follow-up care plan including regular physical examinations and medical tests to monitor her recovery and she might be cured of Brain Stem Glioma" The doctor told us kindly.
It's been almost eight years now and I'm still taking medication and Chemo to get rid of the tumor, I've already had radiation therapy but not a lot since I've also been reacting positively to the Chemo and too much radiation therapy can affect my brain developments. I hate my life with cancer, I hate how everything I do is limited because of all the side effects from everything. I can't go out to parties, I can't play soccer anymore, I can barely eat anymore because of my sensitive stomach. I can't do anything anymore, I barely have a social life anymore from all my frequent appointments.
I used to go with my mom to my appointments but when I turned thirteen I started going a lone since she had to work a lot to pay off the medical bills and needed some time to rest. Plus she had to make a little time for me and of course Demetrius. I didn't tell her much about the appointments, just the same ole' "They went fine mom" response. I didn't want her to get depressed over me since I wasn't getting any better or worse, I was just the same.
But my recent appointment didn't turn out so good, the doctors told me I had started getting worse and they said they didn't think I'd live that much longer, at least a year at the most. They offered to use radiation therapy again but I declined because I couldn't go through the side effects of radiation therapy and the painful side effects of the different medication they would giving me to try and make me better.
I couldn't put my mom through any of that. She's already been through a lot and I want her to enjoy her time with Demetrius, so I chose to go and live with my dad Billy in La Push.
I know it sounds kind of mean that I'm going to be putting my dad through this but I do really want to live with him and see him since I haven't actually seen him in over seven years, only the occasional phone call and maybe a surprise visit during the holidays.
-We are now starting to land in Seattle-Tacoma International Airport-
My head snapped up, startled by the announcement. Right then another painful headache decided to grace me with its presence so I started rummaging through my bags for some Advil or something but I couldn't find anything, great.
"Oh no" I groan, a nearby flight attendant heard me and started walking over to me.
"Is something wrong Ms. Connweller? Do you need anything?"
I looked up sheepishly. "Um yes, do you have any Advil or something. Anything to relieve my headache, I uh I kind of lost mine"
"Let me go check, I remember your mother asking our Air Line to specifically bring some Advil for you. Just a moment"
"Okay thanks" She then disappeared towards the back of the plane and I was left to occupy myself with the map on the little TV screen in front of me and a terrible headache. After a couple of minutes I heard the soft thuds of heels walking towards me.
"Here you go miss and a bottle of water" The attendant kindly said.
I took the bottle of water and two Advil pills from her with a small smile, "Thanks"
"Your welcome" and she walked away, to the front of the plane to chat with the other flight attendants. I opened the water bottle, put the two Advil pills in my mouth and easily swallowed them down with the water. About five minutes after I swallowed the pills I started to feel sleepy.
'I should try to get some sleep since this might be one of the few times I'll actually be able to sleep' Agreeing with my thought I lowered my sit and got as comfortable as possible. As my eyelids slowly closed I could faintly hear my cellphone ringing in the back round. 'Oh well'
"Miss, Miss? You need to wake up now"
"Hmmm" I groaned as I tried to block out any noise and get back to my peaceful sleep.
"Miss Connweller, I'm sorry but you need to wake up" I felt two hands gently shake me.
'Ughh they just ruined my only chance of a good sleep, I'm too awake to go back to sleep so I might as well get up'
I sat up groggily, stretching while yawning ignoring the pains in my arms. I opened my eyes, annoyance clearly shown on my face as I looked at the attendant in front of me.
"I'm sorry for waking you up Miss. Connweller but the plane has started landing and you need to put your seat back to how it was and put on your seat belt"
"Uh okay, thanks" I mumbled. I was still half-asleep so you couldn't really understand what I said but I think she got the gist of it and walked away.
"We have now landed in Seattle-Tacoma International Airport, it's Monday December 30th and 3 o' clock in the afternoon. The weather today is cloudy and it's 35 degrees outside. Thank you for flying with us today and have a great day" The pilot on the intercom said ten minutes later.
I got up, randomly stuffed my things into my bag, got the other bag from under the seat and quickly walked into the aisle.
When I got off the plane I walked quickly through the airport into a large room where there were several luggage conveyor belts for each flight. I walked over to the one for my flight, grabbed a luggage cart from the corner, brought it right to the conveyor belt and sat on it.
Once the conveyor belt started moving and the luggage started coming in it didn't take long for me to get my bags. I only two bags mainly filled with clothes, jackets, a few pairs of shoes, lingerie, and books.
When my bags were near me I sat up and tried to grab them but because of my illness and my arms weakening I could only pull one of my bags half-way off and it still hurt like a bitch.
"Fuck" I mumbled under my breath holding my injured arm, tears pricked my eyes and I desperately tried not to let them fall. A man next to me poked my shoulder lightly to get my attention.
"Excuse me Miss, are these two bags yours? I got this two knowing that one of them was one of yours and I checked the name on the other one"
I looked up at the man thankfully. "Oh my god, thank you so much. You didn't have to do that for me but you did and thanks"
"Your welcome Miss" He smiled warmly at me then turned to get his own luggage.
I put my luggage on the cart and wheeled to cart to the security check ups. Once we were done with that I walked through the doors where are the familes and friends were waiting for everyone.
I spotted my dad with what looked like a cardboard sign that read 'Welcome Home Kim'. Next to him was a petite brunette woman and...two kids?
What the fuck??
I wheeled the cart towards my dad and the three other strangers, immediately he walked over to me with his arms opened wide, a smile adorning is handsome features.
"Good to see you Kim Kins" My dad said warmly.
"Hey daddy. I've missed you" I replied burying myself in the warmth of his hug, my eyes closed with a smile on my face. I missed my dad so much, now who are those other people?
"Um dad who are they?" I asked, puzzled.
MY dad released me from the hug and smiled, "Well sweetie this woman here is your new Step mother, Michelle and your new step-brother Embry and step-sister Cynthia" I looked over to them and they looked nice enough, the woman Michelle was smiling.
Michelle walked over to me and hugged, not as tightly though and after a few moments I awkwardly hugged her back.
"Oh Kim, your father has told me so much about you! You seem like a really nice girl and I hope you'll come to accept up into your family"
"Um yea, well I'm sure once we get to know each other it won't be so awkward" I told her, then I stepped out of the hug and walked over to the two kids. The boy was obviously older, about my age and the girl looked at least five years old.
"Hi" I said shyly. I'm kind of shy around people I don't know but I'm really pretty outgoing and spontaneous once I open up. The guy who's name is Embry I believe stepped up and wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug, and started to gently swing me around.
"Kim! I finally get to meet you, you seem like a pretty cool person from what Billy has told us. It so cool to have another sister, and one that's my age! I can't wait until you meet the rest of the gang, I'm sure we're gonna be such great friends" He practically shouted.
"Hey Embry, nice to meet you. I'm sure we'll be great friends too, um can you maybe put me down?" I don't think he heard the last part since he kept hugging me and swinging me around. Oh god, I'm feeling nauseous.
"Embry Cal, You Put Her Down This Instant!" Michelle yelled.
Embry stopped spinning me and looked at sheepishley looked at his mom as he slowly lowered me down. When I got back on my feet I was kind of woozy and walked like how a drunk man would.
"Now look what you did to the poor girl. Apologize Embry " Michelle scolded.
"Sorry Kim. I get really excited sometimes and hyper. Me and Quil are the big goofballs in the gang" He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.
"It's okay and Quil?"
"You'll meet him soon with the others" He explained. okay??
I nodded, politely excused myself and walked over to the little girl Cynthia. She had a stuffed bunny in one hand and her thumb in her mouth.
I kneeled down so I was about her height and stuck out my hand. "Hi Cynthia, my name's Kim. It's nice to meet you"
"Hi Kim! Guess what?" She said as she shook my hand.
"What?"
"I turned five years olds yesterday and mommy threw a big party with all my friends. It was princesses! Jasmine is my favorite princess what's yours?" She asked me enthusiastically.
"Well mine is Sleeping Beauty, and happy birthday! Did you get any presents on your big day" I asked sincerely.
She nodded her head excitingly. "Uh huh! I got two more barbies, and Mr. Billy give me a tea party set! You wanna play barbies and tea party with me one day?"
"Sure I'd love to" I smiled at her, she was so cute with her brown curls and big hazel eyes. Someone coughed from behind us, I stood up and turned to see who it was.
"Hey we've got to go, there's going to be a lot of traffic and you and Embry have to go to school tomorrow. Let's get the bags in the car and go home" My dad said.
We brought the suitcases to the parking lot, and put them into the car. I took my backpack and jacket with me and climbed into the back of the car. When everyone got in dad started the car and we started driving to La Push, to my new home.
A/N:Sorry if there are any grammar and spelling errors, Writing/English is not my strongest subject and I've never gotten then hang of grammar. I don't have a Beta since it'd take even longer to put everything up and I go over my chapters a lot when writing them. So again sorry about any errors.
Sorry if this chapter sucked, I myself hated it but please review! Reviews make me happy and give me inspiration thus helping me write more:D
Translations: Sagapo Kimmy mou - I love you my Kimmy
Kai ego Sagapo Mama mou - And I love you my mom
Have a great summer!
~Anna
