I'm only human.

I don't know why, everyone think I'm the stronger. Or something like this. Yes I'm using my strength the wrong way. Yes I'm just a little punk in the other eyes.

But I'm.. I'm only human.

I know some people can't even looked at me because they are scared of me.. My parents don't even like me. They are always away from me, avoiding me because I'm such a disgrace from them. Being in the E-class is such a shame for them.

But I'm only human.

I can fake a lot of stuff. Not for them but for you. Only for you my sweet.. No I can't even say 'my' because you are not mine just yet. Please look at me. Notice my scars, my tears, my burnt.. I'm not THAT though. I can pretend. I can pretend a lot you know ? I'm always doing that. Always. I can hold my breath. Bite my tongue if you want me to be quiet. I can stay awake for days if it's what you want.. I just want to be your number one. I can fake a smile, I'm always doing that. Even forcing a laugh. I'm good at playing my part and dance with all my lies if that what you ask.. I'll give you all I am.

« I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.. »

But I'm only human.

I fell down and start to bleed. It was red like your blood. I'm not different ! I can crash and fell down too !

« Karma-kun is just my best friend. »

Your words in my head are like knife in my heart. You build me up and I'm falling apart. I'm allowed to to that too !

I'm only human..

I can turn it on and be a good machine if that what you want. I can pretend to not feel anything like a machine. I can even hold the weight of worlds if that what you need. I want to be your everything.

« -I can do it. I can do it. I'll get through it. »

But I'm only human. And my knees and hand are still bleeding that red stuff that's called blood ! I'm crashing and breaking down. But it's not like you care. Yours words are still in my head driving me crazy and it's like knife in my hearts. You build me up and now I'm falling apart.

I'm only human..

I'm only human..

Just a little human..

You look at me with your big blue eyes as I'm falling apart in front of you. We are inside my house, Christmas decoration everywhere.. And me, struggling to stay up as tears start to fill my hazel eyes. You are still talking but I can't hear you. My heart breaking into pieces are too loud. I can take so much. Until I've had enough..

« -Because I'm only human ! And I bleed when I fall down!I'm only human ! And I crash and I break down. Your words in my head, knife in my heart. You build me up and I fall apart. Because I'm only human ! »

I'm just crying out desperately to reach you.

« -I know Karma-kun. »

And I fell your harms around me.