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He and I had something beautiful. I loved him unconditionally; he was the one for me. Everything he did was perfect, his every move sent chills down my spine. We could sit in silence and say nothing yet say so much. It was something absolutely beautiful.
Yet it was so dysfunctional. So dysfunctional it couldn't ever last. Between the beauty, in the widening cracks, there was ugly. There were those never-ending fights, never-ending tears, those things that could never be fixed. I tried to see past that, I tried so hard.
I loved him so much. I loved him with everything I had. I loved him so much but I let him go. I let him go because the reality set in. I knew he'd never love me back.
I didn't know this pain existed. Such a pain like this shouldn't have to be experienced by any living or dead thing. I didn't know anyone could cry so much they ran out of tears. I didn't like the feeling of my tear ducts almost ready to close up forever and prevent tears from falling ever again. I felt a little bit delirious.
You and I have something different. You're more like my friend than my lover. I like the feeling of having a friend who loves me. I don't feel the need to be anything but myself around you. You love me for the bruised and broken girl I am.
I'm enjoying this, enjoying you with caution. Piece by piece, you're recovering the puzzle pieces to my soul. The one I partially ripped apart myself. I'm working so hard to get back to who I used to be. You've never known me like a normal human being.
He's disappearing in my heart. I swear he's fading, he's fading quite steadily. I'm almost healed. I see you're getting tired of waiting for the real me. I'm so close to being yours. I need you to stay with me… please?
Near to you, I'm healing slowly. You make me smile when I can't get him out of my head. Your touch sends electric shocks through me, twenty times more electrified than his. You're patiently waiting for me to recover. But it's taking so long.
Although he's gone, and you're the most wonderful thing in my life, it's so hard to move on. My heart is attached to his tree, but my heart needs to fall into your pile of leaves. It's refusing to fall for you, my dear. I need you so bad. I'm better near to you.
I only know that I'm better where you are. I'm distraught when I am not. You relight the fire in my soul and when you leave, the blizzard of him returns. The warmth you leave me with is nothing like the coldness of his rejection.
I need to be with you.
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A/N: previous relationship: niley; current relationship: miam
