Oh god, what have I done? I-I didn't mean to do it, he was leaving and I-I had the knife in my hand, I wanted him to stay with me, like we always talked about... But I wasn't thinking, Before I could register what was happening the knife was in his back and my hand was empty.

I rushed to his side as soon as I had realised what had happened, he was hunched over groaning in pain, "I'm so sorry" I repeated over and over, trying to forget what I had done, but I couldn't, not when it was literally staring me in the face.

"Get away from me!" He moaned in pain pushing my hands away from him "You're crazy! I should of ended it long ago!" He shouted, standing up, still hunched over in pain, something inside me snapped again, I tightly gripped the knife in my right hand and forcibly pushed his neck down with my left, moving his body down and removing the knife from his back, he cried out in pain, falling to his knees. I raised the knife above my head as I loomed over his body. He turned over and looked up into my eyes, fear consuming them. "What are yo-" He tried to ask but I quickly interrupted him.

"I love you! And I can't have you love anyone else!"

"Please don't do this!"

"It's the only way!" I cried borderline hysterics.

"Tali-" before he could finish I plunged the knife down into his chest, blood splattering on me, he cried out again, begging me to stop but I couldn't, I continued stabbing him, again and again, more blood going all over me, all over him, over everything, I continued stabbing him until I saw the life fade from his brown eyes, tears stained my cheeks as I pulled the knife from his chest for the last time.

"I'm sorry, I am so sorry" I continued saying in whimpers as I collapsed to my knees near him. "It was the only way...the only way..."