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Warning: Shonnen Ai and course language

Naruto and its characters belong to Masashi Kishimo

Iruka's journal

It has been another long and grueling day. It started raining this morning and has yet to let up. My beloved students kept falling asleep in the middle of my lectures; And as if that wasn't enough I was once again referred to as ' just a chunnin'. By a certain copy nin whom shall remain nameless.

Damn freak...some days I really hate him and TODAY is one of those days !!

I can feel myself falling deeper into the depths anger and resentment . I realize how inane it all really is after all I chose to take this undercover mission.

I had to save Naruto I couldn't just sit back and idly watch as teacher after teacher failed him and treated him lower than a piece of dirt ...I gave up my hidden identity and solitude to become 'Iruka-sensei' a man both loved and feared by children and adults alike.

I also realize that yes I do sometimes tend to prattle on about the importance of safety and teamwork. I only do it for the benefit of my students.

Because, I do care enough to NOT want them taking a C-rank mission and have it become an A- rank or worst yet an S-rank mission. Then have their heads full of illusions and fantasy's believing that they are strong enough to take down an S- rank nuke nin.

I really do not expect anyone to stand up and applaud the fact that I am a teacher, or that I run the mission room and also take missions ...is a little appreciation to much to ask for ?

Maybe so.

Anyways I am sitting in the mission room now and once again The Great Copy Nin has graced with his presence and LATE mission report. Not to mention a few smart ass remarks about my rank.

Makes me wonder what he would think if he knew that I am also a jounin and hold rank over him?

I swear I am ready to end this damn facade and go back where I belong and bring Naruto with me. I know he would a lot happier and could finally drop his mask as well.

Hmmm that is something to think about...I have completed my mission so why in the hell am I still sitting here ?

Why not do it ?

Why not indeed?

What else is there to stay here for?

What would there be to miss?

"Ruka-senei whatcha writing so furiously about?" Genma asks trying to peek in to my journal.

" Nothing of any importance." I tell him as I shut my book and put it in my bag.

"Mmmmm" He replies eyeing me and twirling that damn senbon of his. " Wanna go out later and have a drink and talk about it ?" He asks.

"As much as I would like to say yes; I am afraid that I have a lot to do tonight." I tell him as I stretch out and hear my bones start popping and cracking.

" You know I find it really strange as much time as we spend together I don't know a damn thing about you. Other than you are a chunnin, a school teacher and are unofficially the adopted father/brother of Naruto. I want to know you and be your friend ." Genma says as he once again begins eyeing me.

Since when did any of them give a fiddlers fuck about me?

" Well, from what you have listed you already know me.. There really isn't much more to tell...Ahh good the third shift has arrived have a nice night Shiranui-san." I say quickly as I grab my bag .

I catch a good look at Genma as I all but run from the room almost knocking down Raidou.

"CALL ME GENMA DAMMIT!!!" I hear Genma yell as I am running down the hall I can feel Genma and Raidou giving chase and I begin snickering. Knowing I can very easily lose them.

I take to the roof tops and run as fast as I can to get home. The only one that is close to me and knows the real me is Naruto and he found out accidently.

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Flash back

Six years ago

Naruto's apartment had been severely damaged by a hurricane and I let him stay with me until it got fixed.

All had been going well until he had wanted to play a game of hide and go seek.

Of course it is such an innocent game how could I deny him ?

So I began counting and he hid.

I counted to thirty and took my time searching my apartment. I searched all of the rooms I even made sure to look under the bed. Behind the couch, in the pantry, as well as under all the sinks and checked in the bath tub as well.

In short I looked all OVER the apartment and couldn't find him any where. The only place I hadn't looked was the secret compartment in my closet.

I shake my head no way could he have found it. But, that is the only place I haven't checked and he does know better than to sneak outside after dark.

I make my way back to my bedroom and walk straight to my closet and open the compartment.

I look inside and find him asleep on top of my hunter uniform snuggling with my mask. If the sight wasn't so adorable I may have yelled at him.

I shake my head again and gently scoop him up and carry him to his bed. I pull the blankets back and gently lay him down. I give him a small kiss on his forehead and cover him up.

As I walk back to my bedroom my mind is in turmoil. No one is to know my true identity. If someone were to find out they are to be immediately terminated and the body disposed of.. To do otherwise is to compromise yourself and any future missions.

I lay back on my bed and close my eyes... I know that the Hokage does NOT want me to kill Naruto. That leaves only two options and I will decide on those in the morning.

I allow myself to drift off .

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Next morning

"Iruka-sensei... Did you know that your closet has a secret passage in it and that there is a uniform and mask in there??" Naruto announces to me his blue eyes bright with pride in finding a secret to tell me as he sits down to eat his breakfast.

I actually contemplate telling a bald face lie and using a memory jutsu on him.

" I know they belong to me.. I am a hunter and I am also trusting you to keep my secret. Do NOT disappoint me." As I say this I can see his eyes light up with excitement and hope.

"That is so awesome... can you teach me some really cool jutsus? ... please?" He asks as he extends his hands towards me in a pleading manner.

"Only if you promise to do what I say, and how I say then will I teach you" I tell him .

"I promise" He immediately answers me as he begins eating his breakfast.

End flash back

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All that happened six years ago and now he is a member of cell 7 and a hunter himself. Of course, the rest of his cell has no idea and would be terrified of him if they knew he is the most respected and feared hunter of this village.

Four years ago he had been assigned the mission to protect Sasuke.

Thus he began his double life as well. During the day he is loud, clueless and rash.

During the night he is as deadly as the demon imprisoned within him and is as just as sadistic if not more so.

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As I duck behind a chimney I can feel Genma and Raidou closing in on me... I swear those two can be such a pain in the ass at times.

I transport myself home.

Sometimes I wonder what part of no they don't understand the N or the O.

Once I am inside the safety of my home I drop my bags and close all the curtains inside my home. All I want is some peace and quiet..no visitors, no 'hanging out'.

Just me, myself and I.

That is more than enough company.

Once that task is done I cast a silence barrier and begin making myself some tea. While the water is heating I take a fast shower and put on my 'comfy clothes' worn out sweat pants and a baggy t-shirt that has seen much better days.

I make my way back to the kitchen relishing the peace and quiet that I love so much. Once inside the kitchen I turn off the stove and get my cup from the dish drainer.

I reach in to the cupboard over the counter and get my oolong tea bags. I open the box and drop a bag in to my cup and pour the water in over it. As I put the box of tea bags down on the counter I hear some people at my door ...that sounds just like the two that I left a little under 15 minutes ago. Knocking on my door and telling me that they know I am home and they aren't going to leave until I talk to them.

I close my eyes and open them again shaking my head I pick up my cup of tea and walk inside the living room. I set the cup down on the coffee table. I then reach inside my bag and pull out my journal. I sit down on the couch and IGNORE them.

I get my pen from the coffee table and begin writing again.

Those two have followed me home and REFUSE to leave until I go out and have fun with them and become their 'friend'.

I really do not know how to say this without hurting their feelings but here I go..I DON'T WANT TO BE THEIR FRIEND ALL I WANT IS TO BE LEFT THE HELL ALONE DAMMIT!!!

Yes the real me does NOT like 'hanging out' or making all nice and polite conversations. To be honest I am a loner and prefer my own company as opposed to other peoples.

I enjoy Narutos company from time to time but he is a lot like me.. A loner.

What can we say the village has made us this way. Shunning us constantly and going out of their ways to make us feel like bastards at a family reunion.

And they wonder WHY we are so seldom seen in public...Gee I wonder?

Even the shinobi of the village has treated us coldly. I remember all to well all the tricks and insults Anko and the others have done and said to me. They are the reason WHY I became a hunter to get the hell away from them.

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After 45 minutes the contest of wills is going strong.

"Damn them both to hell!!" I snarl as I make a bunshin and tell it to go out with Genma and Raidou.

And under no circumstances is it to reveal ANY information on my personal life. Let them assume what ever the hell they want to.

I slip in to the bedroom as my clone puts on its sandals, disperses the barrier and opens the door glaring at the two who has made me stoop to this level just to get some peace and quiet.

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Five hours later

My clone has returned to tell me that they were doing their level best to become my 'friend'.

And if that wasn't enough Saturday night I supposedly have a date with Kakashi. I arch my eyebrow and shake my head.No way in HELL will I go anywhere with him unless it is ordered by the Hokage himself.

In three days time Iruka-sensei will die and Black wolf will return.

A/N so what do you think I will be updating my other fics soon.