Notes:
Card Captor Sakura and its characters are property of CLAMP and
other affiliates. The lyrics of 'All the Love in the World' are
copyrighted by The Corrs. No infringement intended for any of the above
parties.
This fic has spoilers for the end of the series, particularly
volume 12 of the manga. This fic is also absolutely fluffy, feel-good
and bordering (if not already) sappy. If you choose to read it, then
please pass on comments and feedback to me to tarotwatery@yahoo.com.
More notes after the fic.
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'All the Love in the World'
A Card Captor Sakura Fanfic
By Mia Marci
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'I'm not looking for someone to talk to,
I've got my friends; they're more than okay.
I've got more than a girl could wish for,
I live my dreams, but it's not all they say.
Still I believe,
I'm missing something real,
I need someone who really sees me...'
It's the school holidays, but I'd like to keep myself busy.
Besides the obligatory housework, I've also worked even harder on my
gymnastics and cheerleading routines, I've even read a bit for the next
semester. I don't recall a previous occasion when I've intensely studied
and practiced - most especially during vacation. I know Daddy and
Oniichan notice; they just don't say anything about it. They know why,
they don't have to ask me. They go along with their work as usual, and
for a while...even Oniichan didn't make fun of me. I thank them for
that.
I have to work. I have to keep busy, if not, I start to think too
much. When I start to think too much, even my happiest memories start to
make me cry. Painful, sorrowful tears overshadowing the lightness in my
heart, making it grow heavy with pain and regret. If I had nothing else
to aspire for, I have it in me to just lock myself away, and cry. As I
cry, I would wait for him. I would only stop crying when he comes
back...
No, I'm not that kind of girl. I could not lock myself away
because I know that it would not make the situation any better or worse.
A single tear would not change the events that made Syaoran depart, nor
would it suddenly make him appear before me and declare that he would be
my side forever and forever. Those things only happen in stories, or to
older people who could just drop everything and flit off to his or her
loved one's side.
Oh come on, he will come back soon. When he'll come back, I'm not
sure of.
'If', he'll come back?
If I start thinking that way, then he'll probably never return.
Oh, he WILL come back. Yes he will. I can actually believe that, no
matter how obscure the future is. I can't tell how we'll meet again, how
he'll look like, but I just know that we'd meet again, and we'd be
together. There are times when I do doubt this, when some time passes
without a note or call from him. Yet when he does write, and apologizes
for his irregularity, suddenly my faith in his return reaffirms itself
as I read or as I listen to him...and a voice inside reminds me "He
promised."
I am sure that Syaoran would never break a promise like that to
me. I cannot imagine being that sure of anyone else.
Until he does keep that promise and return, I still keep myself
busy.
Till then, I can only think of him and remember him.
When I remember him, I wonder what would've happened if things
between us were different, if at some point, I realized his feelings for
me, and my feelings for him. When he was still here, how would it be
between us if we were more than close friends? If we were together till
the time of his leave, how would we say goodbye? Would I be this
wistful, or less? Would I be more patient for his return?
Syaoran, I haven't heard from you for the last several weeks. What
happened? Are you somewhere else now?
Syaoran?
Are you still there? Are you still going to come back? Not even
your promise is keeping me from having doubts now. Why haven't you
written?
Why haven't you called?
If he's forgotten me, someone please give me a sign.
Now, I guess, I can only wait for a sign, or for him.
I don't know if he'll ever come back, or if we'll ever meet again.
Now I'm as unsure as ever, and his promise is just barely an affirmation
to me now.
'Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,
Still believing you'll walk through my door,'
"I'm going!" I called out hurriedly, slipping on my shoes. "Oh I'm
so late...Oniichan will be saying that even when I'm a junior high
school student, I still oversleep!" I grabbed my bag and ran outside,
heading down the street.
What greeted me, minutes after I walk out my front door - stops me
in my tracks. What first caught my stare was the teddy bear with
wings...just like the one I gave Syaoran.
My gaze slowly moved from the teddy bear, to him. Syaoran.
Wearing a school uniform with the same badge as mine.
He smiled kindly. His gaze, bright and optimistic, never left
mine.
"My business in Hong Kong is finally over. I can stay in Tomoeda
from now on." He says, his eyes bright.
"Really?" I asked, my breath catching, still looking slightly
stunned.
I somehow manage to take a few steps closer to him, unconsciously
studying him closely. My thoughts were shouting in joy, I was
overwhelmed with the excitement and utmost happiness inside. Happiness I
have only ever imagined, as with the reunion that's finally unfolding
before me. "We don't have to wait any longer? With nothing but letters
and telephone calls?"
"Yes." Syaoran answered.
'You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure,'
Tears started to spill from my eyes, as I flung myself into his
arms and embraced him as tightly as I could. I never, ever want to let
go.
"From now on, we'll always be together."
I felt him nod, and hold me closer. At last, I could
wholeheartedly believe him, without a doubt.
'And I'll give...all the love in the world'
~owari~
With the song in my head, thus random bit of inspiration lead to
the short, fluffy, fanfic you see here. I'm quite satisfied with it, and
I really hope the readers enjoy it.
Syaoran and Sakura's reunion is straight off from the volume 12
manga. The dialogue's been changed slightly for the sake of
dramatization, though I hope such changes remain as accurate as possible
to the original. As guides for that scene, I used English translations
of the original Japanese from 'Sekai Sefuku'
(http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Fountain/4000/) while translating the
same scene from my Indonesian manga.
Anyway, feedback and comments can be sent to
tarotwatery@yahoo.com. Thank you very much. :)
