Blanket Disclaimer for entire story... I do not own Twilight, its counterparts, or its characters.
A/N: After reading all of the books again, watching the last installment of the Twilight franchise in the theatre and reading some of the fanfic here, I decided to try my hand at my own Twilight story. This will be my first since my other stories have been anime based. Let me know what you think. Thanks everyone. :)
Chapter 1 - The First Break
Bella was lying in her bed waiting for Edward to come through her window. She had been doing a lot of thinking and she had realized something, she was through. She was tired of the ups and downs of being with Edward. She still loved him, but realized something important she wasn't in love with him any longer. That part of her died when he left her in the woods. She thought that it was still there. She thought that they could pick up where they left off (with some added butt kissing), but she found out that she couldn't. The longer she stayed with him, the more agitated she got and the more she didn't want to be around him. It needed to end before it turned ugly.
They had been back from Italy for less than a month and as much as Edward loved Bella, he knew that things had changed. He didn't want to admit them at first, but things were getting worse between them and they were fighting more and more. He wondered what he could do to fix it all, but kept coming up empty handed. He didn't know what to do. He loved Bella so much and didn't want to lose her, but he didn't want to keep fighting with her either.
Edward jumped through Bella's open window and found her sitting at her desk. He walked over to her to give her a kiss, but she turned her head and he settled for a small kiss on her cheek. When he pulled back he saw that she had a very serious look on her face and he knew that this wasn't going to be a fun conversation. He sat down on her bed and waited for what she had to say.
"Please sit down Edward. I think we need to talk," Bella said quietly. She was anxious and nervous, but knew she needed to get everything off her chest. She watched her boyfriend sit down on the end of her bed and face her. He didn't say anything; he seemed to know that she needed to talk. "I love you more than I have ever loved anybody, but since we have been back together I feel like it has been nothing but an emotional roller coaster with you. I don't know if I was expecting things to be the same after Italy, but I was expecting us to be able to work through things and be together. The problem is that, I am tired of the yo-yo and I realized that as much as I love you, I am not in love with you anymore. I can't be with you right now. Every time we are together we fight and I feel like you don't want me any longer."
She looked up at him, straight into his eyes and he realized how much her words hurt. He loved her, didn't that count for something, but as he sat there staring at her, he realized that wasn't enough. She deserved more that he has been giving her lately, but how could he let her go. "Bella, I…" He stopped. He didn't know what he was going to say or what he should say. She was right and it hurt.
"Edward, I love you but I can't keep doing this to myself. If we don't stop now, we will hate each other later and I don't want to hate you. I love you too much to do that," she cried. Tears were flowing freely down her face.
Edward quickly went to her and pulled her into his arms. He tried to comfort her and sooth her, but his heart was breaking too, "It's alright Bella. I understand." If he could cry, he would. As much as he knew it was for the best, it didn't mean that it was easy to accept. He set her down on the bed and covered her up. After kissing her forehead, he stood up and walked to the window and turned when he heard her whisper for him to not run away again. He gave a sad smile to the the beautiful woman on the bed and said, "I'll try not to. Good-bye Bella. I love you." With those parting words, he jumped out of the window and ran into the woods. The woman he thought he would be spending the rest of her life with, was no longer the woman in his life.
Bella cried for the loss that she felt in breaking up with Edward, but it wasn't the all-consuming grief she felt when he abandoned her in the woods after her birthday several months ago. She knew this would hurt, but she knew this she could get past and move on with her life. Edward was her first love and she would always love him, but things happen and people change and sometimes your first love was not meant to be your last love.
