Title: It's Yes, No or Maybe.
Rated: K
Summary: 5x01 spoilers. What if Kurt had said no? As he makes his decision, he finds that his friends will be there, no matter what. Surprise friendship near the end. Slight Klaine. Slight AU.
Warnings: Extremely minor character death (Pav)
Disclaimer: No, I do not own anything Glee. Fox and Ryan Murphy own it. I am just expressing my Klaine feels/opinions.
-just did some spelling edits-
It's Yes, No or Maybe
"We met right here. I took this man's hand and ran down that hallway. For those of you who know me, I don't have a habit of taking peoples' hands I've never met before but I think that my soul knew something that my body and my mind didn't know yet. It knew that our hands were meant to hold each other. Fearlessly. And forever. Which is why it's never really felt like I've been getting to know you. It always felt like I was remembering you, from something."
Kurt sucked in a deep breath, overwhelmed.
"As if in every lifetime, that you and I have ever lived, we've chosen to come back and find each other and fall in love, all over again. Over and over. For all eternity. And I feel so lucky, that I found you so soon in this lifetime, because all I want to do, all I've ever wanted to do, is spend my life loving you."
He took another breath, waiting. Sam handed Blaine a small bag. He knew what was in that bag. It was so obvious.
"So, Kurt Hummel," Blaine got down on one knee, "my amazing friend, my one true love…"
Kurt couldn't help but shake, this was the moment he had dreadfully anticipated all week.
"Will you marry me?"
He felt as though he was underwater, the pressure and expectations of that question weighing heavily on his chest. He couldn't believe that Blaine had just asked that. Well, he could actually. He had known for a couple days. But, wasn't this a bit fast, considering they had only gotten together as boyfriends earlier that week. Surely Blaine couldn't believe that he'd say 'yes'!
As he stared down at the man before him, all his apprehensions and misgivings before this week giving weight. Yes, he loved the boy in front of him so much, but that's what he was. A boy. A boy who was still in high school, still planning his future, still preparing himself for the 'real world'. A boy who wasn't ready for the commitment he was asking for. Kurt knew, even though they had gotten past the cheating, there was still a lot of rightly-earned hesitation in him.
Kurt bit his lip as his eyes flicked up and around the hall, everyone was awaiting his answer, some with obvious nervousness. He realised how long he had stalled. Blaine looked on the edge of nervousness and dread. Kurt could feel the tears pricking his eyes. He couldn't do this. Not to Blaine. Not to himself. The rational part of him knew how humiliated Blaine would feel if he said no in front of all their friends, the people who had shaped how they were today.
And so, he thought back to his dad's words earlier, "It's yes, no, or maybe", and couldn't help but want a 4th option.
Taking a deep breath, he locked eyes with Blaine, could read the devastation already building, and said, "Can I think about it?"
The devastation in Blaine's eyes almost reached breaking point, but Kurt needed to get away from everything, everyone, the stares burning through him. He moved the tiniest bit closer to Blaine, taking in his tense posture, the white knuckles clenching the ring box, and shook his head. Imperceptibly. Visible only to Blaine. No-one else. He saw the glassiness in his eyes, the shock, confirmation of his obvious fears, and finally the acceptance. That he wasn't going to say yes. He couldn't. Not then, when their relationship was weak and tentative at best.
Blaine nodded, not for him, but for everyone around them, in answer to his question. Kurt steeled himself and looked to his father, the man who knew him far beyond everyone else. He shone with acceptance. Kurt knew that his father was happy either way, as long as he himself was happy.
Everyone around them was obviously in shock, having anticipated him saying yes. The only person, besides his dad, was standing at the top of the stairs, leaning forward, face full of understanding and comfort. He locked eyes with that person, getting a message across, before turning to Blaine and his friends.
"Can I go for a walk? I need to think." The words were weak at best, shaky and resigned. The crowd of friends, foes and loved ones parted, leading him to Dalton's prized gardens, which, at the current time, would usually be a place for students to do homework or talk quietly. When Kurt had attended Dalton, he spent many of his days here, contemplating all that had led him to the safe haven, his new friends and what had become of his life.
His eyes flitted around the plants and benches, finally resting on the grave of his beloved friend. Pavarotti. At times, Pav had been a better friend than even Blaine. He had been a constant. Kurt had always found it ironic how it was the day that he lost his dear bird that Blaine finally realised he loved Kurt.
He felt a presence standing next to him, slightly taller.
"Hunter told me to say Hi for him." The statement should've caught him off guard, or seemed entirely inappropriate for the moment, but it felt natural. Somehow. It was normal, even. Right now, feeling overwhelmed with thoughts and decisions, a little bit of routine was welcomed. Kurt turned towards the voice, leaning into his friend's side. He had always loved the height difference between them, something startling different to his relationship with Blaine. This friendship gave Kurt the opportunity to physically rely on others, reminding him slightly of his step-brother, Finn and many of his friends, including Sam, Puck and the majority of the Warblers.
Welcoming the warmth beside him, Kurt said, "Really? Huh, we only spoke two days ago."
"Yeah, well, apparently he's used to seeing you everyday or something." His tone was amused, finding it funny how much their mutual friend relied on Kurt.
They both sighed.
"So…" His friend paused. "Do you already know your answer?"
For one glorious moment, Kurt completely forgot what he was supposed to be answering. The reality of the situation slammed into him, leaving him breathless.
"I- I ca- Sebastian, help me…" His feelings that had building up for the past hour bubbled over. "I don't know what to do!" A shaky breath. "I'm not gonna say yes, but I don't want to say no! He looked so defeated, and heartbroken, when I didn't immediately say yes in there." He flicked his head towards the building they had vacated.
Sebastian collected Kurt in his arms, resting his chin atop the shorter brunette's styled hair. He bit his lip, searching for the right words.
"If you don't want to say yes to him, then don't," he felt Kurt ready an answer, "but if you do say no, then don't do it in front of all your friends, and I commend you for not doing it in there, because I could see how much you wanted to shake your head and say it. All I can say is, whatever you decide, make sure you won't regret it later, in a few hours or days."
There was a silence then, as Kurt weighed his choices. They could both hear the faint buzz of noise from Dalton, but resolutely ignored that.
"I'm…I'm going to say no, but I'll take him away from everyone else, tell him my reasons. I wouldn't be able to bear it if I said yes, because right now, I don't think that's fair…to either of us."
"Hmm, okay, just remember, after all this, Hunt and I are here for you, as well as Rachel, and Satan. We'll always be by your side, no matter what."
"I know Bas."
"Right then, now come on, we better get back in there, before everyone dies of anticipation and tension."
A small kiss to his forehead.
"When you get back to New York, I'm going to get Hunter to take you to Bennie's and have a day off."
Kurt laughed, "I'd like that."
As they walked side by side, back to the building, Kurt thought that, no matter the final outcome of today, he would always have his friends. And that's what counted.
He smiled.
A/N: Yes, I did just make that a Kurt/Sebastian/Hunter friendship fic. Before 5x01, I had been secretly hoping that Kurt would say no, cause they're just getting back together and should rebuild their relationship before doing anything drastic (coughgettingmarriedcough). So, done :)
A/N2: ALSO, I'm thinking of making a much longer fic that will include how Hunter+Kurt became friends, and then how H+K+S became friends and all the drama that goes along with that. Will include NY, TBU, Steroid!Warblers and much more! So, should I start that? Need opinions. If I do decide to, I'll post an AN to this fic to tell you guys!
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