She sighed as she watched the couple at the desk, from where she was sat at the nurse's station. They were at the edge of the ward flirting, Jonny's face was now dangerously close to Bonnie's. How she wished that she could have a relationship like that. She was jogged out of her thoughts by Adele arriving with yet another transfer from AAU.
"Uhh, bed four please." She said absentmindedly and turned to walk away.
"Wow." She said sarcastically.
"Sorry?" She said turning back to face her.
"Is it me or did you just say please?" Adele quizzed her sarcastically.
"Hmmm." Jac mused before turning and leaving. Adele shrugged her shoulders before taking the man in the wheelchair to bed four.
Jac walked over to the 'happy couple', a frown fixed on her features.
"Sorry to interrupt, but unless I am going blind, Nurse Wallis, it seems that Mr Saunder, bed six is not prepped for theatre and it seems, Nurse Maconie that Mrs Davies, bed two's bloods haven't been done. So if it isn't too much trouble do you think that you could prize yourselves apart for 5 seconds and do your jobs!" She shouted the last bit, losing her temper.
"Uh, what is your problem?" Bonnie asked rudely getting up in Jac's face.
"Yes, Jac, oh I know your jealous! You couldn't have a normal functioning relationship if you tried your absolute hardest!" Jonny shouted nastily.
"My problem, is that you two have not done a single days work in weeks, your attitude to both your work and superiors has dipped dramatically, now please get on with your jobs!" She growled back before turning one her heel and marching to her office.
"Well, that was rude!" Bonnie shouted at her partner.
"Hmm." He replied.
"She's just jealous that I have you, my rugged celt, and she does not!"
Jonny smiled and leaned in for another kiss.
Jac flopped down into her office chair and sighed once more.
'Don't cry. Don't cry Naylor, come on don't be such a baby!' She thought out-loud.
But alas she could not stop the tears from falling. Jonny was right she could not have a functioning relationship ever. Something always went wrong no matter how much she loved them something always went wrong; her endometriosis being the most prominent, but still by a miracle she and Jonny had conceived Emma. And she thanked her lucky stars every day for granting her the single best thing that has ever happened to her.
But still even with Emma she still felt that little niggle, that need to feel real love. To experience that moment that you get home late from work really tired, walk in and find your partner has made dinner and put the kid or kids to bed. To have someone to go on dates with. But mostly just to have someone else to love.
She glanced over to the clock on the wall and realized that she had to get a move on if she wanted to go home and see her baby girl anytime soon. Jac stood up and straitened out her scrubs, before heading over to the mirror and sorting out her make-up.
Naylor swallowed before exiting the ward and heading over to the nurses station. She grabbed some notes that she had brought over and began to update that large pile. She heard a giggle behind her and turned round to see Jonny and Bonnie at the bed of a patient obviously flirting and the patient didn't look too impressed. In fact Mrs Davies had a large scowl on her face and she widened her eyes as they kissed by the bed. That's it. She marched over to the bed.
"Oi you too!" The couple immediately broke apart like a pair of guilty teenagers. "Go to my office and wait for me!" She shouted pointing to the office door. Bonnie glared at her for a long second before being pulled away by Jonny.
"I'm so sorry for their actions Mrs Davies, I appreciate how greatly unprofessional their actions just were, be assured that I will be dealing them accordingly."
"I would like to make a formal complaint." Tabitha Davies said sternly.
"As I have said I will discipline them personally and this was a one off occasion and I assure you I will do everything to ensure that staff do not flaunt their private lives on the ward in front of patients again."
"Yes, Ms Naylor, I understand that, but it is not just that. I have been having problems with them all day and I feel that I have tried to ignore it But I cannot. They practically ignored me when I said I had some questions about my op, they did not even attempt to explain what was happening when they were taking blood and well really they have been distracted and ignorant all day."
Jac nodded before apologizing again and heading to her office. This was going to be a long conversation.
Naylor opened the door letting it slam against the wall before closing it loudly.
"What the hell are you two idiots playing at?" She shouted.
"Are you serious?" Jonny replied.
"Too bloody right I am. I am the consultant. You two are the nurses and you will do as I say! I asked you several times to stop gallivanting around and do your jobs but did you listen? No." Answering her own question.
"Get over yourself Jac!" God this was turning out to be much like their argument outside of theatre that time!
"No I will not, and I have had it!" She screamed moving towards her desk. She reached down and picked up the phone before dialing a number. She was so mad with them!
"Hello, Guy? Yeh I am down here with Bonn-"
She was interrupted as the door opened. She was so shocked by who entered that she dropped the phone on to her desk. It clattered loudly as it hit the glass surface.
Her face would have made a great photo.
"Hi." The man said moving closer towards her. Her faced still fixed into the shape of an 'o'.
"W-what are you doing here, Joseph?" She questioned slowly. Surprised at the man that she saw before her.
"I got a divorce." He shrugged simply. Guy was still on the end of the line, shouting wildly down the phone. And to make things worse Bonnie and her ex were still stood baffled in the corner of the room watching everything.
"I got your letter, the one where you told me that you still loved me, but you have moved on. To a Scottish nurse was it? Or was it Irish? Either way I got your letter and well really. I ... I .. I don't know actually. I just missed you Jac."
Jac still stood baffled not saying anything at the corner of the room.
Does he really have to do this here, go through everything blow by blow. In front of ... them. She thought to herself angrily. The last thing that I want is people gossping behind my back about my personal business.
"Well, you need not have worried, because I'm a single pringle now!" She joked uncharacteristically. Mock cheering. Joseph cocked his head confused at this.
"Well, that man is a fool whatever nationality he is. Your so beautiful Jac and any man that cannot see that is a complete and utter fool."
Jac breathed deeply attempting to slow her beating heart. Even after all these years he still completely turned her on. With his toned physique and a handsome face, he still made her go weak at the knees when he came in to her eye-line.
"Is it me or has it suddenly got quite hot in here?" She asked, flustered and fanning herself with a patient file. She suddenly felt very nauseous, so opened the window and stuck her head out, taking big deep breaths.
"I came back for you." Joseph encouraged her stepping closer and rubbing her back, completely blanking the two confused nurses who stood in the corner of the room. "Are you ok? You look very pale!"
"I .. I'm fine." She said turning away from the window and shaking his hand off of her. "I just feel a bit ... a bit." Then everything went black.
She was running, running so fast. She had to get away from HIM. All that she could hear was the beating of her heart and the sound of her trainers hitting the wet tarmac. She ran through countless alleys before she could not run anymore. She must have lost him by now, they were in the heart of the rough end of Holby the alleys were twisting and turning like a maze and she knew her way around like the back of her hand. She breathed a sigh of relief as she looked about her and saw nothing but filthy alleys.
It was then suddenly that she felt a cold hand cover her mouth and nose.
"And where do you think your off to sweet heart?" He said, an evil smile fixed on his features. "No-where, that's where your going. Because while you are living in my house under my loving foster care you are my property and I need to protect you. And I can do what ever I like to you."
Tears fell down her cheeks as he heard a zip slacken and felt her trousers and underwear being pulled down. Here we go again she thought.
She sat up quickly forcing her mind away from the bad dream, well bad flashback. She looked around her confused. She was i her office on the black sofa that sat against the cream wall.
"Hey, hey go easy." She heard a soothing voice next to her, calming her instantly. She looked over to see that it was Joseph.
"What happened?"She asked rubbing her head, trying to combat the dizziness.
"You got a bit worked up just know, when .. when I suggested that we .. get back together." He said slowly as if she might take a while to register what he was saying. But Jac didn't react, she just said simply "Nothing serious then."
She stood herself up and moved over to her desk looking out the window. Joseph sat for a moment before following behind her. He stood behind her and slipped his arms around her waist, she immediately shook him off moving away from him once more.
"Joseph don't okay just don't. You turn up here after three years and expect me to what? Welcome you back in with open arms!" She shouted at him.
"I now, I'm sorry that I left but I had to do it for Harry!" He defended himself.
"Yes I know and I understand that and I let you go, I let you be there for your son. But just when I thought that I may finally be moving on from you, here you are back once more!" She exclaimed flailing her arms about.
Joseph's heart softened, he moved closer to her. "I came back though Jac, I came back because I need you Jac. I love you and I know that you love me!" He reasoned, he was desperate to get her back.
"Even if I still held love for you, Joseph I have to put Emma first. Just like you put Harry first. How do I know that you won't just leave me again when it all gets too much?" When Joseph did nothing to answer that was enough of an answer for Jac. She put her hand on his chest and pushed him away, before sweeping out of the room. Joseph sighed taking his head in his hands.
He looked up at the door whist fully before whispering to himself "but I love you."
Thanks for reading, I know it's OOC but I just needed something to raise my spirits after Holby at the moment. Don't know whether I will carry it on. Please review :)
