A bad car accident + Charlie's deflated lung might equal the end to her singing career?
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Bright lights buzzed all around me. It took time for me to realize they were the fluorescent lights of a hospital room. I felt extremely disoriented, and I couldn't help but to try and look around for some type of familiarity. I closed my eyes and slowly lifted my head up off my pillow. The blood rush was overwhelming.
"Oww.." I whispered, groaning in pain.
"Guys, she's up, come over here," someone was whispering from the side of my bed.
I slowly turned my head to the side. The sight of Logan's angelic face was just inches away from mine. I blinked the grogginess out of my eyes. The more I looked at my handsome boyfriend, the more I registered how his face actually looked. The events from the night before came rushing back...
Flashback.
"Logan, we really need to slow down, we'll get there in time," I said shakily as I saw the speedometer crawl past 90.
"I'm only going 15 miles over the speed limit, we're too close to being late for me to worry about mundane things such as speeding," Logan said confidently, staring intently at the road.
The bright flash of a train was up ahead.
"Logan!" I screamed," You need to stop!"
"I'm trying! The brakes aren't working!" he yelled as he slammed down on the brakes with both of his feet.
I looked to the side to see the blazing lights of the train as it collided with the side of our car. All I could see was blackness as I felt my bones crush against my skin...
my eyelids felt heavy as I blinked away the sleep from my eyes. All around me people were rushing around, yelling things I couldn't understand. The lights of an ambulance were spinning. I registered the pain in the entire right side of my body. The next thing I knew Logan was above me, sobbing incomprehensible words.
"Oh my gosh... I... Charlie... I am so sorry..." Logan was sobbing violently now.
I tried to say it was okay, but all I could feel was the darkness as I watched him get in the back of an ambulance.
Flashback end.
I was incredibly taken back by what I remembered. I could tell by the way tears were falling endlessly from Logan's eyes that I was probably a lot closer to death then I had originally assumed.
"Char? Can you hear me baby?" Logan choked, almost inaudible as he tried to speak around the lump in his throat.
"I.. ow," I croaked.
I must have sounded worse than I felt. Immediately after I spoke Logan broke out in sobs and ran out of the room. Kendall came up to the side of my bed, he looked extremely worried and even more tired.
"Hey Char, do you remember what happened?" Kendall asked softly.
"Yes I do.." I croaked, " Logan's brakes wouldn't work.. and a train was coming at my side of the car... and the next thing I knew everything was black..." I started shaking, feeling distraught with the memory.
"That's what happened.. Logan's brakes gave out. Your side of the car got all the impact.. Logan has some burns and bruises on his face from the airbag, but other then that he's fine..." Kendall stopped talking, he looked like he wasn't willing to say anymore.
"Kendall.. why was Logan crying? What's wrong with me?" I whispered inaudibly.
Kendall took a deep breath. "Charlie, your right leg is completely crushed, along with your arm. Your lung had deflated completely. You were on a machine for your first 48 hours here to fix that." Kendall said quietly.
"Is that all?" I asked soundlessly. It seemed like everything had just happened yesterday, but in reality it had been much longer. "How long have I been out?"
"A week and a half.." Kendall whispered. "You were in a coma, and according to the doctors there wasn't much of a chance of you waking up.. Logan's been a wreck. He feels responsible for everything, even though there was nothing he could have done to stop it."
"O-ohh.." I stuttered.
Everything began to register in small bits. I finally understood how people feel when they have a near death experience. I could have lost the love of my life. I could have lost the group of boys that have become my brothers. I could have lost my singing career and everything I had worked so hard to achieve...
"Kendall, please get Logan for me, we need to talk," I said quietly.
"Sure Char, we'll be in the lobby," all 3 of the boys came by and kissed my forehead before they left.
I had about a minute to process my emotions before Logan came in. His eyes were incredibly red and puffy. He wouldn't even look at me as he moved inside the doorway and shut the door.
"Babe, come here," I said as strongly as I could manage.
Logan broke down and collapsed by the side of my bed. "Charlie, I am so..."
"Stop," I said loudly, cutting him off, "Don't blame yourself for this, I love you too much to let you torture yourself over something that isn't even remotely your fault."
"Charlie, I love you, and if I could I would do anything to be in your position right now. I realize this isn't my fault, but you don't deserve the pain you're in right now," he said quietly, looking me straight in the eyes.
"Everything happens for a reason Logie, and I know I will make it out of this okay. Aren't they releasing me tomorrow morning?" I asked.
Yes, but Char.." Logan started another irrational rambling.
"No, you are going to take me home and I am going to heal and things are going to go back to the way they were before," I sighed,"I wonder when I'll be able to get back to the studio. Is Gustavo upset about the acc..."
Logan cut me off. "Charlie, my love, there is really no easy way to say this..." he took a deep breath,"Babe, when your lung deflated it became very weak, with the tube that was down your throat and the deflation the doctors don't think you're going to be able to sing anymore..."
"I'm... not... you're joking," I said softly, stunned beyond words.
"Shhh, we all think you're going to be able to get past this, don't let this obstacle get in your way. Come on, let's go home and get you healthy," Logan said with a small smile.
All I could do was nod. That next morning we packed our bags and headed for the airport. My mind was racing as we headed back to the PalmWoods. We were all going to see Gustavo that next morning, and I could only imagine the hell we were going to experience...
Well that's all for this chapter. :) I don't know whether or not to continue so please give me feedback!
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