I knew I was wrong. I knew this would hurt her if she found out, I knew Nicky would be pissed at me, I knew all of this but… none of that seemed to matter in that moment.

I was fucking her in my bed. She was moaning and groaning, scratching my shoulders and slamming her hand against the headboard.

I wanted her to cum so she would leave. I turned my head to the clock on the bedside table and sighed in relief, I still had time. Thank God I didn't give her a key to my place yet.

I then focused my attention on finishing Michelle? Danielle? Whatever.

I starting lapping at her clit as my fingers picked up speed. Just as she climaxed she slammed her legs shut and grabbed my hair holding me in place. When she finally came down from her high she was looking at the ceiling chuckling, "Fuck babe, that was fucking amazing."

She then went to look at me but her attention seemed to be behind me. She opened her mouth to say something but she just slowly sat up and pulled a pillow up to cover herself.

I was confused so I looked at her for a second before turning my head. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck….

I could hear Michelle.. Danielle. whatever moving around gathering her clothes. I quickly grabbed the sheets off the bed and wrapped them around my naked body. I wanted her to say something, yell, do something, anything; but she just looked at me with hurt eyes, shaking her head.

Before the girl behind me could bolt someone else came into the room. Nicky looked between me and the girl and growled.

I went to try and explain but she just coldly said, "Shut the fuck up. Don't say a goddamn word."

Nicky then turned to Piper and wiped away her tears, "Hey, Chapman. Piper, hey come on lets go."

Piper blinked and looked at the girl behind me standing awkwardly. Piper then sobbed, turned around, and walked out of the room.

I took a step to follow her but Nicky pushed me backwards, almost hard enough to make me fall backwards.

Nicky shook her head and said, "Stay away Vause."

Nicky then took her keys out and took the emergency key I had given her and threw it onto the ground where is slid and stopped right at my feet.

I could hear her steps quieting and then the door slam closed. The girl behind me put her hand on my arm and asked, "Hey, Alex you ok?"

My head was still down looking at the key on the ground. I mumbled, "Get out."

She leaned closer and said, "What. I couldn't hear you."

I looked up at her and sternly said, "Get Out…" She paused for a second and went to say something but I just took a step into her personal space and yelled, "Get the fuck Out, Now! Get Out!"

She jumped and damn near sprinted to the door, slamming it closed behind her.

I looked around my empty loft and screamed, "FUCK!" I looked down at the sheet that I was wrapped in and threw it to the ground, almost like it burned. I then looked at my bed and grabbed the sheets and the pillowcases off the bed. I felt disgusting.

I ran to the bathroom and turned the hot water on in the shower. When the mirror started to fog up I got in. The water was burning my skin but I barely felt it. I took a quick shower and thew on some clothes.

When I exited the bathroom I saw by sheets on the ground, they made me sick. I grabbed them and threw them into a garbage bag, and threw them into the hallway.

I looked around the loft and felt my heart constrict, Piper wasn't here. She left. She left in tears. I did that. I looked around and my eyes fell to my bookshelf where a picture of Piper and I stood. I grabbed the picture and looked at it.

As I was looking a water droplet hit the glass and rolled down the picture to the edge of the frame.

Before I knew it I was sobbing, crying, hunched over, unable to breathe. I then scrambled up to grab my phone off the coffee table.

I grabbed my phone and scrolled through the text messages that were there. 2 texts from Fahri letting me know that the latest delivery was delayed. 3 texts from Piper and Nicky and 2 phone calls. I unlocked my phone and listened to the voicemail. "Hey baby, sorry I missed your calls. I was in a meeting with the sales department. Oh and I ran into Nicky this afternoon, she and I are going to dinner and to that new bar on 50th street, if you wanna come. Are you home? I left my boots at yours, the black ones. Ok. I'll talk to you later. Bye."

"Hey babe, Nicky is going to let me into your place since you don't seem to be home. She says she has a key. Promise to be in and out. Talk soon. By Al."

I sobbed and clutched my phone. I opened my messages and sent Piper a text, "I am so so so sorry. Baby please, I'm sorry. I swear never again. Please! Please come back."

The response was almost instant, "I already told you Vause, stay the fuck away from her. Don't call.. I mean it."

I knew it was Nicky responding. I knew how protective Nicky was over Piper. I understood Piper is Nicky best friend, basically her sister.

I started at a number and finally pushed dial. The phone rang and rang, just before I was about to hang up the voice I needed to hear answered, "Hello? Alex? That you?"

I tried to answer but only a sob was released, "Ma…"

Diane shuffled around, I could hear her sit on our old couch, "Al. Alex? What's wrong? What happened?"

I tried to get my tears under control but my voice came out croaky and dry, "I.. I fucked.. I fucked up.. and now she's gone. Ma, she's gone."

I heard my mom move around again, "Alex what happened? Is Piper ok?"

Just hearing her name brought tears and a stinging to the back of my throat.

I shook my head and croaked out, "I hurt her Ma.. She saw. And Nicky saw. And they left."

I heard my mom pause and gasp, "You.. Alexandra… What did you do?"

I sobbed and just said it, "I cheated. Fuck, Ma, I cheated on Piper."

She sighed and said, "Alex.. what happened? I thought you two were good? You told me just last week that you loved her."

I groaned and rubbed my face, "I know.. I just… I was at the diner after a meeting and I was upset. Piper wasn't answering and she was there. I just vented, it felt good. I was going to leave but I didn't think… I just I wanted to feel good. So I took her home. I didn't think Piper would show up. I never meant to hurt her. I swear."

I waited for my mom's reply, "Alex. That is some bullshit. You knew it would hurt her. You knew damn well. Now tell me the truth, why? why do it?"

I knew she was right, "I was scared. Mom, I have never felt this way about anyone… ever. Ma what if she doesn't love me back?"

"So hurt her before she hurts you? That your logic Alex? That girl might not have said it yet but she loves you. A blind person could tell you that. Listen to me and listen to me good. You do whatever you have to to get her back. You don't always find a love like that Al. You hear me?!"

I nodded knowing she was right, "Yeah, Ma. I hear you. But what if she doesn't give me another chance. What if I have lost her?"

Diane sighed and said, "Then sadly Al, you're gonna have to live with the fact that you let this one go."

Hearing that made it set in that I could actually lose Piper for good. I then quickly stood up and said, "I gotta go Ma. I'll talk to you soon" and hung up.

I rushed out of the loft and down to the garage to get my car. I needed to see Piper.