Draco

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Warnings: Slash. Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter. Now go kill me. Spoilers for those who haven't read book three, but I mean, who hasn't? Dark.

Rating: PG13

Reviews: Constructive criticism? PLEASE.

A/N: Deliberately bad spelling. As if you didn't know!

Replies to I'll Wake Up Soon

Molly-chan the Anime/game fan: *pause* Nice to know you liked it. Thanks for the ego-booster.

UTMI: I hope someone with a much better slash story will come along and convert you. Nice to know you liked the POV…

Dragons aren't meant to be scared of fire.

when he pushed me back and said "draco i don't want to do this" and i said "do your worst" and he did the crucio curse i shrieked and he listened and laughed

And I cried. I'm scared of fire because it's the jet that comes out of Voldemort's wand and marks him as one of his. It's the fire I see in Potter's eyes when he thinks I'm not looking.

he'd always laugh at pain but lucius was so frightened of hurting me his face was pale and strained and i saw my own in it and he said "i'm sorry draco please don't make me kill you please draco please don't make me kill you"

It was an addiction in many ways. The addiction of life, the painful need to take another breath and another and another…

We all have it.

i'm such a coward

I let Voldemort own me. There were two paths I could have taken in life but one of them has been lost in me. One led to death and the other to life. I'm a fool.

when i came back to school potter pushed me aside and said "are you alright" i nearly told him i nearly kissed him but i couldn't

Because I can't bear him to hate me any more.

i looked at him and said "fine" but he looked worried i guess he suspects me i want to be found out i want to be given the dementor's kiss but I can't

Because I love living almost as much as I love him.

he owled me this morning

I tore it up in front of him.

but he wouldn't stop

I can't stop loving him.

and i never spoke to him again never never never

"What are you writing, Malfoy?"

don't say a word don't speak don't tell him don't don't don't

I stand up and leave him there.

he'll never give up why can't he just let me alone to be me and not some evil voldemort supporter

I go to a deserted dungeon and sit there for a long time. I know he's outside the door, know he's waiting.

i call him in and point my wand at him begin to say the killing curse just to stop him just to let me be alone

But my wand wobbles and I'm crying, screaming sobbing, pounding on his chest with my fists.

"just die just die just die just die" why is he holding me get off potter

"What the hell is wrong with you, Malfoy?"

his hand is on my sleeve and pulling it up i'm screaming "stop stop stop stop" but he won't he won't let me be will you stop

"You're a Death Eater."

oh god.

"Please say you're not."

"no no no i'm not it wasn't my fault i was coerced ha it sounds like a lawyers claim oh god help me harry"

"You're not right in the head, Draco."

i called him harry idiot why the hell did i

"Look, please stop crying."

he called me draco

"Please stop crying, Draco?"

draco.

"Draco?"