Chapter 1
"Behind every beautiful thing, there's some kind of pain."
Bob Dylan
Have you ever lost something precious? Something that was worth nothing to you, until you deliberately lost it? And saddened because you know you will never get it back?
Some people may say it's their house or car. And some may say its their charm bracelet. All those inanimate objects connects to something more important. Because you can buy a new bracelet or car.
But you will never buy back a family.
You would have never thought your family would be taken away from you. It was just to early for them. I should've enjoyed my six years of life with them. The accident was so unexpected. You wouldn't have thought that it was your family that would've of been taken away from you.
Yes. I have many other family members who loves and cares for me, but their love was never the same as my family's. Not the love of a parent. Or brother. Or sister.
I feel like I lost everything. And now that I think about it. I did lose everything. I don't care about my clothes or toys or anything of the sort.
I lost love.
I lost everything.
They will never come back. Never will be replaced. They will never be there when I get married or have children. They wont be there for my graduation. They wont be there.
I was naïve and innocent to the cruel reality they call life. I didn't notice dangers that lurked behind the corner, or the suffering from the lost people. I only cared about me and all my belongings delivered by money.
But now, life opened my eyes and welcomed me to a hazardous world.
I have never felt so vulnerable in my entire life. I have never been alone and abandoned.
Abandoned.
They abandoned me. My family left without a choice. And left me to fend reality by myself.
I don't know what to feel. Should I feel sad. Angry.? Lonely?
Or nothing at all?
Day by day, I'm becoming a shell without them. My armor is getting stronger by the second I am alone.
I vow to my family's honor, to never make anybody upset. I vow to my life.
