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"Edward..."

All though this is a dream, I can't help but reach out. When my eyes are telling me lies, what can I do but touch?

When my ears are betraying me, telling me I hear that voice I've been longing for, what can I do but grab onto that frail body? What can I do but love this dream?

Even with my waking eyes. I see this dream. Am I condemned to it? Is it my fate?

"Edward... closer, please..."

Even if I am by myself. Just me the moon and the stars, I see his face. That beautiful face, those agile hands. I try to graps them, to take them for myself. But I am left empty handed.

When I am sure he's here again, that I've caught him, that for once...this time...this time is not a dream! I wake up, alone. My brain can't quite understand it. Why do I see him so clearly? Feel him so vividly?

I call his name, ask him where he's been, why he's left me alone. Why he won't even answer me. Why I'm left in tears.

Would I be happier asleep? Dying? Awake? Do I even know the difference?

"Edward... why aren't you saying anything?"

If he's calling to me now, I hear him. Or is it my dreams again? I'm trying to reach out, I'm trying to grab that, but he's flying away.

Please, won't you come back?

If I could hold on. Just a little longer, hold him, just a little longer. Please, let it last just a little longer. If I could, I would ask him. Why is he doing this to me? Why does he keep leaving me all alone when all I want is to have him by my side. Was he doing this to me on purpose?

Even if this is a useless dream. I reach out with these hands that are inadequate. I try to find him, though he's left me all alone. What can I do but search? What can I do but love him and try to hang on?

When this dream I am seeing, is all I can remember him by, what do I do? Try to forget? Try to hold back those tears of want because I need him so bad?

"Edward, aren't you there?"

Although this dream is leading me astray, far away from anything I could have been, I tried. If I am going to go down, then what can I do?

When my eyes are telling me 'he's here, I have him, he's mine now and I won't let him go.' when all my senses are filled with him, and I'm suffocating with the loneliness, and I can't get him out of my sight.

What can I do but reach for him? I want him. What can I do?

"Edward...please, say something. Prove that you're real for me, Edward."

"I'm sorry, but I can't. You're just dreaming."

OWARI

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