Disclaimer - I don't own Grey's Anatomy so please don't sue me!

Author's Notes - I'm not 100 percent satisfied with this but i wanted to post it before i change my mind and delete it. I've started about 5 fics and then given up on them because they weren't great, and that's just in the last week. Reviews would be very encouraging so please leave me one.


"Dr. Karev." Addison called out as she quickened her steps to catch up with him.

"Dr. Montgomery? What are you still doing here? I heard you were leaving." Alex said curtly. He kept his face blank so she couldn't see how much her leaving bothered him.

He glanced at her briefly before looking away. It could have been his imagination but he thought she looked hurt at his casual attitude, and for a moment he felt guilty about deceiving her. Because the truth was he had been hurt and disappointed when he heard she was leaving, but he wasn't ready to let her know that yet.

"I am. Leaving, I mean, today's my last day," Addison stammered. She mentally berated herself for allowing him to get to her. Whatever she had been expecting him to say to her though, it wasn't 'What are you still doing here'.

"Yeah, well uh, have a safe trip." Alex said. He backed away from her quickly, clenching his teeth to stop himself from saying anything else. He gripped the chart in his hand so tight his knuckles turned white.

Was it too late to ask her to stay? What the hell was he thinking; of course it was too late. He had his chance, more than one actually, but he blew it every time. There was nothing to do now but let her go.

"Dr.Karev!" Addison said forcefully as she hurried to catch up to him, her former hurt turning to anger even as she watched him walk away from her.

Alex jumped at the sound of her voice, he hadn't realised she had been following him.

"Have a safe trip. Is that all you have to say to me?" She snapped; she couldn't believe that after everything they had been through together he didn't even care enough to say goodbye.

"What else is there to say?" Alex stared at a mark on the wall just above her shoulder. His mind screamed at him that there was so much more he should tell her but his lips remained tightly pressed together.

"Oh I don't know. You could start with I'm sorry!" Addison realised she was yelling at him, she realised people were stopping in the corridor and staring at them, but at that moment she didn't care.

"Fine. I'm sorry, are you - " Alex started to say.

"Oh that was very sincere, everything's forgiven now." She said sarcastically.

"Well thanks, but I never asked for your forgiveness," Alex hissed at her. God why couldn't she just leave him alone? Didn't she realise that every moment she stood close to him it became just that little bit harder to let her go?

"You know what - just - go to hell," Addison stuttered in anger. She turned around and stormed off down the corridor, leaving Alex staring after her with a sad look on his face.

The rest of the day didn't improve at all for Addison and by the end of her shift she was exhausted.

She changed in the locker room and then headed over the road to meet Callie at Joes.

Joes bar was busy but she managed to spot Callie through the throng of people. She made her way over to the table and sat down wearily, letting out a deep sigh.

"Dramatic much?" Callie said, smiling at her friend. "I got you a drink."

"Thanks, I need alcohol tonight." Addison took a gulp from the glass Callie pushed her way.

"Bad day?"

"You have no idea. I can't believe my last day in Seattle was so - " she waved her hands around trying to think of a word, " - crappy" she finished finally.

"That sucks but just try to forget about it and enjoy your last night," Callie said comfortingly.

"Tonight will be good, I get to have drinks with you, then sleep at the hotel for the last time and look forward to leaving the rain behind tomorrow. I'm starting fresh, this will be good for me…I think. Cal, do you think I'm doing the right thing?"

"I don't know if running away is the right thing to do, I mean you could be the person who stays behind and fights to make things better. But to be honest I'd rather my best friend was cowardly but happy in a new place, than brave but miserable here." She raised her glass and clinked it together with Addison's.

A few drinks later Callie had disappeared in to the bathroom leaving Addison alone to guard their table. She was staring absently in to space when Alex came over and slid in to Callie's empty seat.

"Hey," He whispered.

Addison just sat there in silence. She turned her head away from him, making it clear that she hadn't forgotten their argument and she didn't want to talk to him.

"You're mad at me, ok I suppose I deserve that, I was an ass." He sighed.

"What do you want?" Addison said sharply.

"I don't know, to talk you I guess."

"Funny, because I tried to talk to you earlier today but you weren't exactly willing to participate," She said frostily. She gave the impression of not wanting to be anywhere near him, but her brain still noted the fact that he looked good tonight. Very good actually.

"I was an idiot. Add it to the growing list of times I've been a bastard to you. Look Dr. Montg – Addison, I just wanted to say…" Alex stopped suddenly.

"Am I interrupting something?" Callie came back over to the table and raised an eyebrow at Addison.

"No, no. Uh I was just leaving." Alex stood up and walked away a few steps before spinning round and coming back to the table. "See you, Addison. I hope LA is everything you're looking for and for what it's worth I'll miss working with you."

Addison's mouth dropped open in shock at his admission. Fair enough it wasn't an I love you, but Alex Karev admitting he'd miss working with her on the vagina squad was bigger than that.

"What was that?" Callie asked.

"He was just saying goodbye. Look Cal, I'm exhausted, I think I'm going to head back to the hotel."

How stupid was it that she was actually a bit mad at Callie for interrupting her conversation with Alex? The rational part of her knew it wasn't her fault, but she was still disappointed. What had Alex been going to say?

"I guess it's getting late," Callie said smiling at her sadly.

"Thanks Callie, for everything." Addison stood up and embraced her friend in a hug.

"Thank you. Be careful Addie, and don't just disappear, keep in touch, ok?"

"I promise," Addison whispered in to Callie's shoulder. "I'll miss you."

"I'll miss you too."

Addison pulled back from Callie and gathered up her coat and purse.

"I'll call you as soon as I get there. Bye, Cal." She took one last look at her friend before making her way back to her hotel room.

It wasn't until Alex arrived at the hospital the next day that it finally hit home, Addison was really gone. He was introduced to her replacement and though she seemed nice enough, she just wasn't Addison.

It was at that moment as he stood on the bridge, looking out of the glass fronted building towards the city beyond, that he realised just what he had let slip away from him.

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb, I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now


Thanks so much for reading. Please, please leave a review. I am undecided whether to continue this fic or not. I think I could keep going with it if you people think it is worth it, so let me know. Oh and the song lyrics are About you now by the Sugababes (I've read other fics that use song lyrics at the beginning or the end and i thought i might try it).