"I want to keep protecting you." The pain in his eyes were real, although I still cared for Edward. And maybe In the deepest part of my heart I even still love him. But. . . . I think I love Jacob now. Being with Edward feels a little wrong, like I'm out of place where there is no Sun.
I Sighed " I don't need protecting."
"Bella, I'm so sorry I left you. It was all a lie." He pleaded. " I love you."
I love you, Why is it that after hearing that I wanted to get mad. I wanted to yell, YOU LEFT ME! I WAS SO HURT! MY HEART CONSTANTLY FELT AS IF IT WHERE BRING RIPPED OUT! In fact it would have probably been better if it had.
I looked up into Edwards beautiful face. "I was so scared, when Alice told me you wanted to die. How could you ever think of something like that? You should really value your life."
What am I saying I thought, I shouldn't be the one to talk, when he left I completely shut down.
" I'm so sorry, but at the time I thought you had died, I wanted to die too. Because with out you in the world I have absolutely no reason for living."
I wanted to slap him, I would have if it had been any other person. But this was Edward, there is no telling how hurt I would be if I did that. " What about your parents, your brothers your sisters, don't you think that they would miss you! Alice was just as freaked as I was when she had that vision."
He pulled me into his arms embracing me gently. "I know I'm sorry."
"You said that already." I said putting my head on his shoulders. It was nice to hear his voice again, to inhale is sent. It felt nice to have him near again. But I couldn't help but feel nervous. How would this turn out. Will I be able to love him like I used to? I turn to look at him, and he was looking down at me. Then he asked " What are you thinking?"
What am I thinking?
