FORGIVE by Rebecca Lynn Howard not mine

I have never felt so much anger towards one person before, teddy is the perfect example of what you would call a hypocrite . Since day one of our marriage he has accused me of cheating on him with deacon but he was the one who ended up cheating on my with his ex then he has the gull to ask me to forgive him like everything was okay. I was never in love with teddy but we did have a life together and it broke my heart that he ruined everything I tired so hard to keep from breaking.

Tonight I had a performance for teddy that I had agreed to do before he revealed the truth of his indiscretions. For a minute I thought about not going but then I realized that this would be the perfect opportunity to sing the new song I had just finished. Through the entire night I avoided teddy like the plague every time he tried to come up and talk to me. Soon they announced my name to get up on stage and sing.
"Hello y'all, well tonight is a special night for my husband teddy Conrad and he asked me to perform a song for all y'all tonight. I was planning on performing my brand new hit but I decided that I would perform a new song I had just finished. This is for you DEAR." I had finished saying with so much distaste.

I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around
If it ever came to this
Here I am so confused
How am I supposed to leave
When I can't even move
In the time that it would've took to say
"Honey I'm home, how was your day"
You

dropped a bomb right where we live
And just expected me to forgive

Well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

I should ask but I won't
Was it love or just her touch
'Cause I don't think I want to know
So get you some things and get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out
Well you might as well've ripped the life
Right out of me, right here tonight
When through the fallen tears you said
Can you ever just forgive

Well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

Well you know what they say
Forgive and forget,
Relive and regret

Forgive, well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

It's too soon for me to say
Forgive

When I finished I got off stage went straight up to teddy took my rings off and told him that I don't forgive him and I wanted a divorce. When I did that I turned and left the building got in my car and drove. I didn't know where I was going until I pulled up out front of deacons house and realized my heart lead me to the place I wanted to be. So I got out of my car went up to the door and knocked.