Blue Cashmere

Gillian sits in her living room early Christmas morning, nursing a cup of warmed apple cider. The lights of her tree illuminate the red and gold baubles hung on the branches and she breathes in the scent of pine. She loves Christmas, the lights and the spirit and the love she can feel all around her, even when she's not the recipient. She puts down her mug and smoothes her fingers over the silver snowflake wrapped gift that sits beside her on the couch.

She decides to open this one first because it's from secret Santa at the Lightman Group, where very few people really know anything real about her. She expects it to be impersonal and detached and to leave her without the warm feeling that the season allows to swell in her chest.

She pulls at the blue satin ribbon, surprised it's not just cheap and scratchy fabric stretched over aluminum wire. She sticks her finger under the flap on the side of the box and pulls where the paper was folded over and taped. She peels back wrapping paper to expose a plain cardboard garment box. Is it a colourful scarf? A pair of mittens?

She bites back a gasp as she lifts the lid, finding all her preconceptions to be false. It's not a scarf, not mittens, not impersonal and detached. It's a cardigan, royal blue and lined with pearly buttons. She runs her fingers over the fabric and places a guess of the material at some kind of wool, probably merino. It's not the lush cashmere of the sweater Ria Torres had tipped coffee over, but it's still nice and definitely over budget (probably a lot nearer to half of Torres' biweekly paycheque than the twenty dollar limit Emily had tried to enforce).

Gillian can't help but smile at the kind gesture of replacing the ruined garment. They both knew cashmere wasn't meant to be spot cleaned and the texture had gone off, though the coffee didn't stain. Gillian had mustered a smile over her upset and told Torres it was okay, but Ria sees everything. Gillian should know that by now. Feeling warm and more than a little touched, Gillian switches the box out for her drink, taking down a swallow. Her Christmas is already turning out better than expected, even though it's the first she is spending alone.


Merely two days after Christmas, Gillian walks into the Lightman Group, cardboard coffee cup in one hand and laptop bag in the other. She stops in at the reception desk to check for any mail, but finds none, so she continues on her way to her office. The halls are deserted and the Group has that Sunday morning feel, making Gillian feel she should be at home relaxing instead. Only, home is lonely over the Christmas holiday and she has no family members nearby to spend time with if she chooses not to come into work. It'd be better to get a start on the paperwork, right? At least that could serve as a distraction.

Gillian toes open the door to her office, resting her things on her desk. She peels off her coat and scarf, hanging them on the hook just to the side of her desk. She settles in for a long morning, sitting in her desk chair and pulling out a stack of her finished paperwork that still requires signatures. She takes a quick look over the completed budget statements already bearing her signature and sets them aside to take to Cal's office when she's finished with her coffee so he can read and sign them, too. She boots up her laptop, sipping at her creamed coffee as the warmth exuding from the cups takes the chill from her hands.

When the coffee is finished along with a few pages of their latest case report, Gillian rises from her seat. She stretches out tired limbs, then sets out on her way to Cal's office with the documents stacked neatly. She sets all of the papers on the edge of Cal's desk, stooping to lift one of his pens from the holder. On a sticky note, she writes out a note for him to sign as soon as possible, so they can go off to the bank.

On her way back to her office, she turns to cut through the break room, her heart near to stopping when she realises she's not alone. She drops the hand that instinctively clutches at her chest as she meets the curious eyes of Ria Torres, who is sitting at the round table holding in her hands a sandwich dripping with mustard.

"I didn't know anyone else was here," Gillian explains, fighting the embarrassed flush that creeps up her neck.

"Lightman gave me a key," Ria replies, gesturing single-handedly.

"That's an interesting Christmas gift," Gillian jokes. She doesn't ask what Ria is doing here, she knows. And she knows that the key is more than just an offer to let Ria into the building at her whim. It's means more (it hurts more).

"Yeah," Ria agrees with a smirk. "More work is exactly what I'd wanted."

"Right," Gillian's reply is quick and lacking in her usual wit and she's so obviously distracted. Ria watches carefully and is about to speak, about to tell Foster not to worry about her, as it seems like it's concern etched between her brows, when Gillian speaks up.

"Thank you, Ria, for your gift. It's gorgeous," she says, hardly able to hear her own words over the thudding of her heartbeat in her ears.

"You like it? I thought maybe... Well, it's not cashmere," Ria shrugs, suddenly a bit self-conscious.

"Wool, though. Merino?"

Ria nods, turning away.

"It's great, Ria, really. Thank you again."

Ria nods again in response, watching the genuineness of Gillian's gratitude. Gillian offers a bright smile, wide enough to show the pink of her gums. Gillian has to forcibly stop her hand from reaching up to tuck her hair behind her ear as the butterflies that had settled in her stomach rouse at Ria's insistent gaze.

"Well, I'll be in my office if you need me," she says, tucking the folder she'd been holding under her arm.

"Aright," Ria replies. "If I need you."


Gillian startles at the knock on her office door, having forgotten that she wasn't alone in the building. She lifts her gaze to find Ria leaned up against the doorframe, matching hat and scarf already on and her dark winter coat draped over her arm.

"I'm heading out now. Just thought I'd come in and say goodbye," Ria says, poking her head further into the room.

"Oh," Gillian says, taking a glance at her watch.

The winter sun had already set, but with the sun setting around four in the afternoon, Gillian hadn't thought it was much past five. But, her wristwatch read seven thirty and Gillian realised she had had lunch ages ago and was particularly starving.

"Goodnight," Gillian offers as she drops her glance to her computer screen and clicks a few keys to shut it down for the night.

Ria walks further into the room, trying to understand what's going on in Gillian's head. She sits heavily in the chair across form Gillian's desk, her lip tugging up at one corner.

"You're afraid," Ria points out the set of Gillian's mouth.

"I'm not," she insists, her lips turning into a small pout to cover the mouth shrug she knows her muscles will make against her will.

Ria just watches, arms crossed over her chest. She makes a breathy noise of acknowledgement and uncrosses her legs to straighten to standing.

"Well, you shouldn't be," Ria says with an amused smile.

She turns and begins to go out the way she'd come, but stops in the doorway and looks back at Gillian. Gillian remembers it clearly, finding Ria incidentally as she took a trip with Alec; she had noticed a fear expression and watched as Ria immediately spotted it and walked over with a smirk. Ria had done so well and added so much to the Lightman Group. It twists something inside her that she still wishes for more.

"Goodnight, Foster," Ria offers, a smile curling up on her mouth despite the not-so-pleasant feeling in her gut.

"Drive safe," Gillian replies.

It takes her everything not to smile back. Or worse yet, get up and follow the younger woman out of the building. Gillian lets loose a sigh when Ria gets out of earshot, realising at once just how much trouble she's in.

A/N: I've been exploring some non-Callian ships in the last few months. Snagged onto Gill/Ria. I know this is very open ended, but the idea was to write two chapters. I think eventually I will, but I hope you like this anyway.