A/N: For ones who don't really know the characters Chris Lorenzo and Rita Lance Lorenzo from the show Silk Stalkings, each of them called each other Sam as a pet name. They got this name from Slamming Sammy Snead a golfer they felt was the best there was.
This story was inspired by the episodes "The Last Kiss Goodnight" and "Dead Asleep" as well as by a fan video paying tribute to Chris(Rob Estes) and Rita(Mitzi Kapture) that I found.
Disclaimer: I make no profit off of any of the characters of Silk Stalkings. They are the creation of Stephen J. Cannell, I am just borrowing these much loved characters.
November Rain
I can't go on without him. That thought kept screaming in my head. I don't remember such pain before not even when my father died. Chris was my world, he was my life. I sat tears pouring as they worked on him trying to bring him back, but I knew my Chris was gone.
Before I knew it Harry and Frannie were there pulling me into their arms both holding me. I didn't know how Harry got back here so quick, the last time I saw him he was going with Holly to find Montoya and the one that killed Chris.
"He loved you more than life itself, Rita. I know this is probably one of the hardest things you have ever had to deal with but Chris is still with you. He will never leave you it is really you and him forever. Part of him will always be with each and every person he ever knew." Harry spoke with tears in his voice.
"I don't think I can go on Harry, I honestly don't even want to. Chris was everything to me, Cap. I want the ones that killed him to pay." Rita exclaimed in a grief stricken tone.
"Rita, you have the baby to think of you have a part of Chris in his baby. Chris would want you to try to go on and live the best you can. I know it is going to be so hard without him, but you won't be totally alone." Frannie tried comforting Rita.
I don't remember even leaving the hospital and the next few days were a blur. The only thing that I could keep my focus on was making the funeral arrangements, which I could not have done without Harry and Frannie. I wanted my one true friend and the love of my life to have the best funeral possible. It was the least I could do for him. Other than that all I could really do was cry.
The nightmares were constant, I knew I would never forget seeing Chris shot down in front of me. He died trying to protect me after Montoya released me back to Chris.
One night in the midst of the nightmares the dream turned into one of peace and love when Chris came to me speaking to me.
I marvelled at how serene he felt and how much love there was in his eyes and face. I still can hear his voice as he spoke to me in the dream.
"Hey, Sam, I meant what I told you in the hospital. You and me forever, I will always be with you, I love you eternally. I want you to try to go on Sam, our baby needs you to be there for him or her. Please do that for me, live life the very best you can and know I am always watching over you I will never ever leave you." Chris' voice resonated through my dream.
When I awakened I had this peaceful feeling I had not felt since Chris was murdered and I knew what I needed to do. I would leave Palm Beach to make a life for me and our baby. He would be brought up knowing all about his dad for I already felt our baby would be a boy. I just had to find the words to tell Harry my decision. Wherever I ended up I knew that my guardian angel would always be right with me no matter what life might try to throw at me. Chris Lorenzo would be there for me in death just as he always had been in life.
