To Late To Love Him

Laying on my bed again

Hiding from the world

That wants nothing to do with me

I shut my eyes

For the days have left me nothing,

To night I'm alone once more,

To let my tears fall down my face…

My thoughts go to the day

He really does not understand

The pain I hold inside,

That is killing me hopelessly…

Did he really pretend?

Or was it really just him?

I never could understand,

This hurt and comfort,

I feel within his presents.

Why did it have to be him?

As he is always with her

So tonight I lay alone,

No one to comfort me,

Or say it will be okay

The darkness I hold,

Shows no light to him

Why should I care?

If he is with me or her,

But I do.

How can this happen to me?

I am no light,

So I do not deserve his.

Yet, I can not help but want selfishly,

His arms to be around me:

To hold and comfort me tonight,

To be here for me,

It's to late now though.

For he will never see,

And I will always be me.

It would never work,

Only to end in more pain and hurt

So then I stay where I lay,

Trying to soothe away,

The pain my heart put itself in.

Hoping it will all just disappear,

Everything,

The pain and want.

Just to make it all go away.

Hoped you liked. I finally got the main computer back thanks to my big brother (had to use Mom's laptop). Yeah! I can update this with my stuff back and do whatever and... oh um Im rambling sorry please Review.