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Hurt

Its been 1 year, 5 months, 2 days since Edward went away. I don't care anymore, even though I kept count. That's just how long I've been missing him. Well, I'm out of the woods. All those lonely, hurtful, angry dark days are left behind me. I've moved on. I don't even remember what he looked like…

"Bella, Jacob's here." I heard Charlie shout.

I rushed downstairs and saw a tall figure standing in my living area.

He turned around with a smile and walked towards me. I smiled back as he came over and kissed me on the cheek. I felt his hot lips burn my cheek.

I felt sudden warmth on my hand as he took my hand and led me out of the house.

"Bye Dad!" I yelled as I got pulled out of the house.

"K, cya!" I heard him shout back, and then he got back to his conversation with Billy, Jacob's dad.

As soon as we were out, and the front door had shut, Jacob pulled me towards him and kissed me. I felt his warm, soft lips tangle with mine.

"I love you." He breathed in my ear.

"I love you too." I smiled back.

Love, such a strong word. He loved me. The question was, did I really love him? What a silly question, of course I do. Don't I?

I love him, but never as much as I loved Edward…

Edward…

No forget him. You're with Jacob now.

Jacob put his arm around me and walked me to his. We went to his room, Jake's dad had gone to Charlie's to watch the match. So it was just me and Jake. Jacob and me.

I shut my eyes as he kissed me while we stumbled into his room. He pulled me closer to him as I clung on to him. I could feel all his body heat on mine, making me start to sweat, but I didn't care. I carried on kissing him. He pinned me against the wall as we made out. The kiss became more intense, stronger, more urgent. I could feel his hand sweep from the sides of my face to the side of my body, sweeping across my ribcage, my lower back…

All of a sudden, it wasn't Jacob, it was Edward. Edward was kissing me. Not again…

My eyes opened as I firmly pushed him away. It was hard but I managed. He looked at me, out of breath. I tried to catch my breath as I looked right at Jacob.

This seemed to happen a lot. Whenever me and Jacob were together, making out or generally together, I would see images of Edward or I would feel him, sometimes even both. Was this Edwards way of getting back at me for going out with Jacob?

"Can I ask, what happened?" asked Jacob after he caught his breath.

"Nothing, I just had to stop." What else could I say?

"Don't tell me it's that Edward thing again." Moaned Jacob.

I made the mistake of telling him the first time it happened. I didn't blame him. We had been going out for 5 months now, I should have erased any memory I had left of me and Edward. It was selfish of me, but then, I couldn't help it.

"I'm so sorry," I breathed, "I gotta go."

I turned away and walked towards the door in his room until he took hold of my arm and stopped me from walking out of his room.

"Forget him, it'll only hurt you." He reassured with a sympathetic tone to his voice.

I gave him a feeble smile, and turned back round and walked out of his room, tears welling up in my eyes. As soon as I was out of his room, I ran out of his house. As soon as I got outside, I burst into tears. I felt beads of water stream down my cheeks. They say time is a healer. Well, in this case, they were horribly wrong. I couldn't stand this pain in my chest, every time someone mentioned him or if I saw him in my head or even worse, if I felt him.

I ran and ran, not home, anywhere but home and Jacob's. Until I stopped in front of a huge house. Beautiful. Empty.

It was his house. I reached down and picked up a stone off the hard, muddy ground and threw it at the house in anger. I picked up another and threw it at his house. I reached for my third stone, picked it up, then tried to throw it, only to fall to my knees and cry.

Why was it so hard? I kept thinking it over and over again as the skies rumbled. The rain started to pour on me.

My tears streaked all the way down my cheeks, my head pounded, my throat hurt, my heart ached. Me and him, him and me ran through my head, which only made it worse.

"I miss you." I whispered, as the rain pelt down on me, and the wind blew my hair.

For a moment, I thought I could hear him say "I miss you too", but that was probably just a figment of my imagination.

I sat there for about an hour, until I decided that I should get back home. Charlie would be worried.

I got up and trudged my way home, soaked from the rain. Thinking to myself-like I didn't do enough of that.

Forget him Bella, forget him.

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