Cybersix

Light

Fire

Noise

Pain

Then sweet, blissful, darkness.

That's all I remember. When you plan to die, you get strangely calm. Like its okay, if you are going to be in control of your own demise. And then it's funny, because the moment you actually are going to die, your mind screams for the chance to live. And when you have that one fleeting chance to survive, you are ready to take it, and do anything to live one more day. Because there's that one moment, that one point in time, when the world stopped. When you forgot you were a monster. When you felt like a woman, even though you dressed as a man. That moment when large, strong hands caressed you tenderly, as if you'd break if they weren't gentle. When cracked lips touched yours, with the softest touch, evoking feelings that you didn't think an abomination like yourself could posses. Those euphoric seconds when everything was okay, when you were happier than you thought possible

Those are the memories that cause you to want to live.

That make you fight.

Yet however hard I fought, all I remember is black.

Lucas

I just couldn't believe it. That this could happen to me. That one, idiotic, self-destructive, know-it-all woman could bring me to my knees. Yet here I was, pleading with myself not to cry as I stared at the large glasses that once belonged to my… I didn't even know what to say our relationship was. Adrian. Cybersix. Best friend. Lover. Either way, she had changed me irrevocably. And the thought of living without her made my soul scream and writhe, in a pain I had not known possible.

Yet here I was. At the Coffee shop. At our usual table. I could envision her sitting there, across from me. Being as oblivious as always, and having to leave early, for what I now know was to fight crime. I just couldn't imagine her gone from my life. The memories were too much. I needed to get away form this place.

I wandered aimlessly, simply letting my feet take me wherever they wished. I had no preference anymore. What did it matter if I didn't see Cybersix? I know these are foolish things to say. People's spouses die all the time. They move on, some of them even love again. I mean, we weren't even really together! Our last moments consisted of a kiss that I'm not even sure she wanted, she just ran away. I don't blame her. I mean I'm just some random biology teacher. She's beautiful, sexy, and special. How could I ever be worth her time?

As I walked I didn't watch where I went. That wasn't something I could bother caring about. But somehow I ended up at Adrian's apartment. Should I now say it was Cybersix's? I knew it would crush me, but I had to look up at the window. See the emptiness. But part of me still prayed that she'd be there. Waiting for me.

And as miracles go, this one was all I could ever hope for. For when I brought my previously dead eyes to the window, I saw a light. The vision was more than I could handle. Was someone playing a joke on me? I gripped the pair of glasses in my pocket for courage, praying that she was in there, safe, alive, waiting for me.

Before I knew what I was doing I was running, shoving anyone who was in my path away, running towards the building, which I hastily entered, jumping up the stairs four at a time, as fast as I could. The halls seemed never ending as I scoured them for Adrian's apartment. 212… 214… finally, 216. I could barely breath as I stood before her door, inspecting every inch of it, making sure it was the right one. It was there. But my spirit quieted. There was no light under the door. Had I been imagining it?

I tried to wrestle with myself logically. This would end badly, if she wasn't there. It would hurt that much more. But… there was that sliver of a chance that she would be in there. And I couldn't let that chance escaped. So I knocked.

I wrapped quickly, counting twenty slow seconds.

No one came.

What if she hadn't heard?

This time I pounded a greeting on the door and again counted twenty seconds.

No one came.

There you go, you idiot. My conscious chided angrily. Self-inflicted pain is just great, isn't it. Now you can go home and resume feeling empty.

I turned to leave, but then something stopped me. A sound escaped the apartment. A noise. A whimper? Quiet. Possibly imagined. But it gave me hope. I couldn't leave now. Not so close to an end, I had to get into her apartment.

It was at that moment that I contemplated doing something I am not entirely proud of.

You see in high school, well I wasn't as big as I am now. I mean I was a lot smaller. To the point of being considered a skinny nerd. After I got into boxing that fixed itself… but I had a lot of pranks pulled on me. And so when you are constantly getting locked into things… lockers… bathroom stalls… porta pottys… well, you get the picture, you learn how to break into or (in my case) out of things. And I was going to use that skill.

Because I had to see what was inside Adrian's. Was it Cybersix? Could it be Cybersix?

My hands shook as I twisted the knob, trying to figure out how to best open it, but was startled as it turned. Wow. So much for my lock-smith skills.

I gently pushed the door open and stepped inside, aware of every sound, every squeak of wood in the apartment. I looked around the room with wide eyes.

The room was dark, a table in the center of it, a fridge to my left and some covers to the north west of me. Nothing. No one was here. To my right was a door to a bathroom, which I could see nothing in. However to my left was the bedroom door. Closed.

I gulped hesitantly as I walked towards the door, if my hands had been shaking before it now looked like I was about to have a seizure. I gently turned the old wooden knob on the door, cringing as it squeaked.

Finally I looked up, to see what was inside the room.

She was there. On the bed, cuts and bruises adorning her body. Either asleep or unconscious. Her long black bangs askew, her lip bleeding and one arm hanging limply off the bed. But her chest moved shallowly, proving she was alive, breathing.

She was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen.


Alright so I hoped you guys liked this story!

I've been really inspired to write it and so I will probably have another chapter up by the end of the week! Please review and give me your thoughts. How do you think my staying in character was? Hope it's good, and please tell me if you think I should continue! I promise to consider any and all reviews! I have a plot line mapped out for this story and I'm expecting some lemon chapters as this story is going to be romance related between Lucas and Cybersix (just a heads up).

Love,

Zurii