The pleasure I had felt slipped off my face and dripped to the floor. Just minutes before I had known the happiness that could guide my path to what I really wanted. But not this. This was not what I wanted.
"Isabella Marie Swan, would you make me the happiest force of being on this Earth and be my wife?" Edward dropped down to one knee. I couldn't move. This was not happening. It was all too much; I didn't want Edward that way, not right now. I wanted to dive into bed with him and never submerge. I did not want my father to walk me down the aisle at 18, or even 19. This wouldn't be my choice. I looked deep into Edwards's eyes. How the glistened, changing color in the night. They almost swerved me into saying yes. Almost.
"Please Bella. I need you, I want you too. I just want to do it right." He pleaded with me, his hands forming a prayer position. I cringed, no wanting to hurt him. He opened his mouth to try one last time to persuade me.
"Bella it was always us. It always will be us and my family. Is that not what you have been begging for over the last two years?" Edward looked confused, as if he was expecting something other than an instantaneous yes. It was true, yes, but the way worded the sentences made it seem that he and his family would always be right there. I love Edward, and his family, but I needed my space too.
Edward has always overstepped his boundaries, I thought to myself. What being married to him makes him stop, his family stop? No. They would probably just continue watching, guarding me because then I would be a newborn. A newborn always need watching, being made sure that she won't attack humans. But I was a grown woman, I don't need to be controlled or watched. I had made my decision.
"No Edward, I will not marry you." His eyes opened, pain flooded through hurting me too. He shook like a werewolf trying not to lose control. Like Jacob. Jacob had always been there for me, helping, repairing, and loving me through everything. Only a true love would help me through what Edward did to me. Jacob wouldn't have left like Edward did and claimed that he didn't have a better option. Edward did have a choice then. He knew I would hurt, but he left anyway. Jacob has always stayed by my side
"Jacob," I whispered, Edward's eyes opened, he knew why then. He knew that when he hurt me, he didn't stitch the wound. Jacob did. Edward just the tore the stitches again when he came back.
"I have to go. I'm sorry Edward." I muttered while I raced for the door. Edward didn't move, just shook, and knew he had just seen the last of me. I jumped into my truck and drove. Drove at 3:00 AM. Drove to a little cottage by the ocean. When I was done driving I ran. Ran where I knew it would matter what I would say to him. Ran straight into him.
"Bella! Did the leaches let you go?" Jacob laughed, lifting my spirit. I laughed too, only my laugh what hysterical with tears and snot.
"Baby what's wrong?" He whispered and clutched me to his warm body. I sniffed and prepared myself to the turning point that resembled a cliff.
"Jacob I...I..." I laughed again and wiped the tears off my face. "I love you. It was always you. Edward isn't all what I thought of him. He doesn't get me like you-" He cut me off and lifted me into his arms. He then proceeded to kiss me. He kissed me until I forgot who Edward was, what vampires were after me, what my name was. I wanted him now. I wanted him to be the man Charlie walked me to at the isle. He was the one.
"Bella," He broke the kiss off "Bella, honey I love you too. I' so glad you finally ditched that-" Now it was my turn to cut him off. Only I did because I didn't want to remember him right then. This was our moment.
"Bella, we have to go, it's time." He whispered into my ear, breathing his warm breath.
"Go where?"
"Victoria. She's coming." I responded by doing the only thing natural. I pushed Jacob into his car and kissed him. I hoped I would for all eternity. This was the forever I wanted now.
