Okay so I have lately become totally obsessed with F29D. I use to watch it when I was a kid then I watched the 1st EP and fell right back in love with Jackson! Anyways Enjoy and sorry about any errors!
Morning (TAYLOR POV)
The sun rays felt so good on my skin. Relaxing on the beach just what I needed. Lowering my sunglasses and propping myself up on my elbows I watch as Jackson walks by carrying a log for God knows what. But man did he look good doing it. I laugh to myself and go back to lying on my back. Any second now I'll hear planes and the coast guard will be rushing over to save all of us. I sigh and relax more. While there all working their butts off for nothing, they're coming right now! I turn my head and make sure the solar-panel is in the sun. Yep.
"Taylor why don't you help us?" Daley asked all mean.
I roll my eyes beneath my sunglasses.
"I am helping" I say pointing to the batter changer.
"Taylor seriously help!" Daley demanded.
"Ah" I grunt.
Getting up from my perfect spot in the sand I fallow Daley, protesting. Clearly though my protest went unheard, more like uncared about. Reaching the center of camp Daley stops, I wasn't paying much attention though and slammed right on her.
"Whoa" I slip and stumbling backwards.
Daley caught herself and stood there like a rock letting me come crashing down. Right before I landed on my butt someone caught me under my arms and pulled me back up.
"You okay?" Jackson's melatonin voice asks.
He walks around me to face me. Jackson, I do like how much he helps me but I know it is only because nobody else will, so if he didn't put in the extra effort I would be alone, sad inside and have a lot of bruises on my bottom. Nonetheless, nobody's as fast as Jackson, to be noted he is always fast on his feet even when it doesn't count.
"Taylor?" Jackson asks a little confused.
I obviously got stuck in my head for too long but that's okay they'll just contribute it to me being blonde.
"Yeah, a-huh" I nod. "Thanks"
He just does his Jackson nod and walks off a little continuing whatever he was doing before.
"Taylor!" Daley shouts for my all annoyed.
I stomp my foot and screech. "What?!"
"Just hold this, okay?" she says rubbing her ears I guess I got to high-pitched.
I roll my eyes and huff as I hold the pieces of the wood together. Geez I never knew I could dislike Daley more than I already did back at school. After a bit of just standing there as Daley wrapped the makeshift rope around the three wooden logs I was holding, I look around trying to find anything to amuse me. God TV and pizza!
That's all I want! I lick my lips thinking of that greasy pizza with extra cheese, green peppers, spinach and pepperoni. Mmmmm… yummy. No!
Dad's fish and chips with the lemons and limes salt and pepper! Oh yes that sounds so good. I have no clue how fish sounds good right now, well it doesn't but dad's fish does. Weird.
Dad… I tried not to think about him till everyone was asleep, so I can cry my eyes out thinking of the way he looked, the way his hugs felt. I shake my head fast. Quickly I look away from Daley so she won't see my red eyes. As my gaze changed my eyes locked at the same time with Jackson.
He looked like he wanted to ask if I was alright but kept quiet. Both our eyes stayed locked. His blue eyes normally a cold ocean of mystery look more like blue flames of a fire comforting and warm. Maybe there's more to Jackson then I thought.
"Jackson more to the right" Nate says strained by lifting half of the big log him and Jackson were lifting.
It seems thou Jackson was hardy holding up his fair share at the moment. Nate pulled us both out of our warm gazes and Jackson pulls his share of the log up and as Nate asked to the right. I look back to Daley she seem caught in her own bossy world. I sigh and huff and moan, basically anything to show my discomfort.
"I get it Taylor" Daley snapped.
"Geez!" I yelp defensively.
She's in a mood today.
"Ya know I don't have to help!" I try reminding her.
"Taylor just stop, all you're doing is holding three logs still and you're not even doing a good job! It would be funny if it wasn't so sad how useless you are!" Daley yelled at me in my face.
During her yells my body tightened eyes winded. 'Useless' the word hurt. As she finishes I don't say a word just hold the logs still trying to hold them better. Ouch.
I'm trying, I really am! Why do I suck at everything I do, I wish I could just be who they want me to be, but that's not me. I don't just do the hard thing because it needs to get done; I sit down and wait for someone else to do it. Its how my whole life has been and I don't know how to change.
I again keep my eyes away from Daley. Everyone seemed to have gone quiet, awkward. Again my eyes found Jackson. If anyone knew how I was useful it was him, that's for sure.
Afternoon
Looking around I don't see anyone, I sneak in the tent being as quiet as possible. Daley been on a war path to make sure I help make the new shelter. I just need a rest! Zipping the tent closed I plop down in the middle of the tent.
"Whoa" I yelp
As I plop I landed on something, someone? Knocking me off balances I fall on the girl's side of the tent. Looking over to the back-end of the boy's side I see Jackson spring up from his sleeping bag. Jackson?!
I thought Eric defiantly. I look confused and he looks caught.
"What are you doing?" I ask plainly.
He sighed. "I was trying rest without anyone knowing" he admitted.
I didn't think Jackson ever took naps, he never rests, ever! Maybe he always sneaks away and naps? Smart. I nod my head agreeing with my thoughts.
"So no one calls you lazy or thinks they can rest to huh?" I ask.
"Yeah" he sighs.
"Well go, nap" I tell him. "It's why I'm in here"
He just nods and lies back down. I crawl over to my sleeping bag resting my head down on some makeshift pillows. For a while I laid there trying to sleep but it felt weird to sleep in the tent with only me and Jackson. I lift my head a bit to see Jackson I can't tell if he asleep or not.
"Hey, hey are you awake?" I ask in a whisper.
He didn't reply just rolled a bit on his side.
"Is that a yes?" I ask lowly almost sounded like a hiss.
"Taylor" he grunted.
Wrap in my sleeping bad I stumble my way over to be laying next to Jackson his back facing me. I hear him sigh then he rolls over facing me.
"What Taylor?" he grunted.
"I can't sleep" I still say in a whisper. I don't know why he up now and I wanted him up anyway.
He just sighed and rubs his face roughly. "What's wrong?" he asks.
"Well I don't know" I lie.
I know what wrong I just don't want to say it. First I'm feeling pretty useless after all that stuff Daley said and honestly I am useless. I frown. Second nobody stood up for me which heck I guess I wouldn't it would have been deadly to be in a fight with Daley trust me I know, but nobody came to see if I was alright afterwards, so secondly I'm feeling lonely.
And third I thought about my dad and haven't gotten the chance to cry it out yet. Is that what I came here to do, cry? Basically any time I go to sleep when no one's around that's how I fall asleep. That's sad.
"Taylor where do you go" he asks with wonder in his eyes. His voice still sounded sleepily but also soft.
"Huh?" I ask. What does the question mean?
"Lately you just seem to be up there" he said poking my forehead not meanly, but playfully.
After three taps he lowers his hand a taps the tip of my nose once then lays his head back on his hands. I just shrug.
"Come on tell me"
I don't think he realized he offer for me to unload all my troubles on him. I just shrug again.
"I just-" I stop thinking what to say. "I guess just all that stuff Daley said upset me" I admit.
"Did Daley go off on you before camp?" he asks.
I shake my head. "No"
"What were you thinking about before Daley snapped?"
I caught on right there, he wanted to know why I looked like I was about to cry. And the answer is I was thinking about my dad. I couldn't tell him that though I may start to cry and that's just embracing.
He raised an eyebrow letting me know he waiting. Lie Taylor lie fast.
"Shopping!" I blurt out. "Shopping" I say again getting control of my voice.
"Shopping" he laughed. "Really, now why don't I believe that?" he kept chuckling. "I mean don't get me wrong it's almost believable, almost"
I look down everyone else would have accepted that. Shopping how could I be so stupid? Walking around in clothes I brought the day before wearing designer holding a Kate Spade purse and holding lots of bags from Juicy Couture, Candies and nostrums, with a smile on my face every time I swiped that plastic card that said James Hagan. Oh God the thought of shopping is gonna make me cry.
"Taylor?" he sounded concerned.
"Ha!" I try to laugh it off but my laugh just sounded sad. "Okay so truthful when you first asked I lie when I said shopping" I started to play with my fingers slowly I lifted my eyes to him. "But then I did start thinking about shopping and it made me sad" I admitted.
"Okay" he nodded.
He didn't laugh or call me stupid he just understood. That confused me.
"Thanks" I say.
"For what?" he asks.
"For- for not laughing after I just told you that"
He laughed a bit and shook his head. "Taylor why would I laugh?" he seemed like what I say was unbelievable.
"Well ya know" I huffed and pulled at my hair. "I'm Taylor the stupid blonde who's gonna cry over shopping"
"So!" he laughs and said loudly. "So! Who cares everyone here misses their hobbies" he smirked. "So what if yours was shopping"
This seemed so out of his creator but I guess he finally stopping being so quiet. Anyways loud gestures make me feel more comfortable and I guess he knew that. I just smile and laugh with him quietly though, what he said made my tummy feel warm and finally happy. Yeah who cares! I'm me and I don't care who has an issue with that!
"Thanks" I tell him again this time trying to hold back how big my smile was and how good he made me feel.
"You feel better" he gives me a warming smile.
"Yeah" I nod my head smiling big.
"Good" he looked at me a moment longer then continues. "Why don't we take that much-needed nap now?"
"Yeah, okay" still I'm smiling.
I stayed on my side facing Jackson and he side on his side facing me. We're so close almost touching I thought about moving but I didn't want to, so I didn't. Just like every time before when Jackson and I talked I didn't feel so alone anymore. I closed my eyes my heart didn't feel so broken laying next to him.
Sure my hearts broken and missing my dad but having Jackson next to me masked the pain and gave me some happiness. He's no daddy but maybe a hubby? What no, where did that thought come from its Jackson that's too weird anyways Melissa likes him, like, like, likes him. That's just mean.
"Night Taylor" his voice was like my warm gigantic Juicy Couture pale cheetah comforter that I always cuddle in at the end of the day.
I know that sounds weird I know but understand nothing sounds better, feels better than that bed and that soft blanket I can hide in, that my dad would bundle me in when I got sick. Jackson reminds me of that warmth of being in a place where nothing can hurt you as long as you hide you head on those covers. Am I saying Jackson's my blankly? I think I am.
Weird. I shake my head till no more thoughts are thinking around in my brain. Then what I thought would annoy me to no ends Jackson started to snore. I was about to yell his name in annoyance but then a realized something.
I'm not annoyed! Using the fact he's asleep I move closer till we were barely an inch apart I can feel his body heat and feel his hot breath on my skin. I didn't know Jackson snored, how did I not know? I was always the last one asleep.
Because this is the first time in what I guess to be a long time he fell in too deep sleep the kind that you really get the needed rest. I smile knowing I'm not the only one being comforted by not feeling alone, next to me he finally felt comfortable enough to really sleep. With that knowledge I let myself go, let go of my thoughts, let all my sense get all fuzzy till I drifted in to sleep.
Night
"Taylor" A voice called for me. "Taylor come on wake up" Jackson said.
"Huh?" I ask groggy. "What?" I rub my eyes.
"Come on its dinner time" he told me patting my shoulders.
"Okay coming" I tell him.
He leaves the tent. I can hear everyone talking and see the glow of the fire. How long was I asleep? I get up pulling my jacket on. I walk out of the tent seeing the fruit and fish laid out.
Daley seemed upset so did Melissa, wonder why? I sit down next to Jackson and Lex the only to that don't look mad and don't make me want to pull my hair out.
"Here ya go" Jackson hands me some dinner then a bottle of water.
"Thanks" I smile at him.
Seems like I've said that a lot to him today, he just smiles and nods. It seems like I've missed a bit of dinner everyone started but no one near done. Everyone was talking be small talk or bigger issues I didn't put my two cents in thou, I still kind of foggy from sleeping. I could tell Daley was making her smart butt comments complaining about me without using my name.
I just roll my eyes. Jackson just bumped me a bit swaying for a second he just looks down to me smiling at me obviously holding back laughter because how obvious Daley making her rant of 'team work' and everyone doing their 'fair share' was all about me. I just smile up to him and bump him back. We both just quietly chuckle.
I take a sip of water and out of the corner of my eye look at Jackson. It's comforting the way his body towers over mine, even thou I feel small next to him I don't feel overpowered just protected.
"So where did you go today Taylor?" Daley asks mad.
Why does she always have to bully me? It's getting old bully Melissa for a change. I wanted to say but before I got the chance to lie or whatever Jackson spoke.
"She was with me" he said melatonin. "Helping" he added.
I just scrunch my nose and nod. "Yep" I say popping the P in the word.
"Oh," Daley seemed shocked. "Okay" she just nodded and backed off.
Ha-ha yes! I lean in to him again about to bump him and sway a bit the way he did before but before I continued that I whisper. "Thanks"
Then I bump him and sway. He just laughs quietly and sways back bumping me to. "You're welcome" he whispers back.
We both nod and eat our dinner. After dinner I sneaked off to the tent a changed in to my taking my sweet time not wanting to help clean up around the campfire. Once I heard them all sit down I exited the tent. I see Jackson shake his head at me but thanks to the fires light I see a sideways smile on his face.
"There you are" Melissa said mad.
Wow Melissa's never mad, not unless she put in the middle of some argue. I just shrug; unfortunately the only empty seat was next to Melissa and Daley. Ew! Normally I wouldn't mind sitting next to Melissa but she seems in a mood.
Melissa gave me another dirty look.
"I was changing!" I explain.
She just shakes her head and looks away from me. Geez, am I only the girl who's not in a mood? Whatever. I just enjoy the warmth of the fire stretching my arms out loving the warm flames.
"Go get changed Lex" Daley tells her little brother. "We're going to bed afterwards okay"
He just nods and runs off.
"That kid is a good kid" I say pointing to Lex who's running to the tent. "He just listens and willing goes to bed, I was awfully about bed when I was a kid" I raise my eyebrows and nod. "Weird kid" I add.
"I wouldn't have thought anything else Taylor" Daley said.
I just roll my eyes and huff. Lex runs out in his . and then the boys got up Jackson as he normal does grab his and walked behind the tent and changed as Nate and Eric took turns changing in the tent. Then Daley and Melissa got up and went to change. I took my opportunity to change seats and sat again next to Jackson and Lex.
I just smile at Jackson then at Lex. He's so little poor guy I played with his hair for a second.
"Okay guys you can come in" Daley says from inside the tent.
Eric and Nate race each other in and then Lex fallows. I was about to open the tent but then Jackson reaches over me easy enough and holds it open. He just nods for me to go in.
"Thanks" I say.
Word of the day for me, I laugh a bit. Then Jackson crouches in. I tiptoe around everyone going to my spot in the back of the tent Jackson fallows my steps then go to his spot facing me. I look around for my sleeping bag then see Eric using it mostly for a pillow.
"Give that to me" I screech.
Grabbing my sleeping bag from him I lay it down in my tight corner I call my bed. I sigh annoyed.
"Sorry" Eric said holding his hands over his head.
After everyone got comfortable Daley turned off the light. Thank God for once Lex went to sleep without needing to read for an hour, annoying me with his flashlight. Even thou I slept most the day away sleep came easy again.
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