The Darkness Within Us
Chapter One
She watched him day after day. She watched him grow further away from everyone, even herself. She wouldn't let him though. She talked to him and made conversation with him. She found the others not wanting to talk to him. They were pulling themselves away from him, though they didn't realize it at first. Once they did everything went down hill. Hermione tried to not talk to Ron all the time even though they were now dating. Remus tried time after time to get Harry to talk about Sirius. Harry just yelled at him and left the room. No one could do anything, she knew she wasn't doing much or was she. She knew they would lose him and when they did, she would still be there for him.
Harry walked down the hall towards the common room. He had just had a conversation with Remus that he did not want to talk about. He hated everyone worrying about him. He was fine he knew he was or maybe he just though he was, he didn't know anymore. He didn't care anymore. He could feel it inside him, but he would not let it win, for if it did everything and everyone once good would fall. He remembered when Hermione and Ron had told him that they were finally going out. He thought it was great he even told them but now he wasn't sure anymore. They were always with each other they didn't care about him, didn't do things with him anymore. The only one he really talked to was Ginny.
Ginny.
What a nice name Harry had thought when he first met her. Her real name was Virginia but no one knew that but the ones close to her. She was always smiling around him, she even mad him smile after he had watched Sirius's casket go into the ground. She was always there; he wondered how long it would be before she left him too, or how long it would be before she realized the truth.
The Truth
He wasn't a Saviour. He couldn't be there for her anymore; he couldn't save her like he did when he was twelve. All he could do was hope she could take care of herself and that he wouldn't have to go running after her. He knew that one day he would lose her to him and that it could be soon or maybe in a couple of years. It all depended on how long he took to destroy the one person that stood in his way of having a good life.
Life
What a wonderful word. Though he didn't have one, he wished for one everyday. He watched others fall in love and knew he would never have that. He had to be become a murderer or be murdered. But life was always on his mind. He wanted to love and to be loved but he was afraid of what would happen if he got close to anyone. Well he knew but he didn't want to think about it.
Harry shook his head and he entered the Great Hall. He walked over to the Gryffindor table and sat down beside Ginny. She smiled up at him and then continued her conversation with Dean. Harry ignored it when she laughed; it made him mad. He wanted to be the one to make people laugh not cry. After he had finished eating he got up and left he Great Hall. He wondered down the hall till he heard someone call his name.
"Harry"
It was just more than a whisper but he knew whom it belonged to. Hermione-Anne Granger. One of his so called best friends. He remembered the first time he had met her, her bushy hair and big teeth. Now she had changed. Her hair had become less bushy and now was now mad more of curls. She didn't have such big teeth anymore either. He could admit he was jealous of Ron. She was beautiful.
"Harry are you alright," Hermione asked walking up to him.
"Fine," Harry lied.
"Are you sure?" Hermione said. " You seem to be distant."
"I'm fine," Harry said.
"Well if you're sure?" Hermione said.
"I am," Harry said.
"Well let's get up to the common room then," Hermione said smiling.
They walked silently to the common room. Once they walked in Ron come over to Hermione and pulled her away leaving Harry standing there. He closed his eyes and sighed. When he reopened his eyes he found himself staring at a red head. She smiled at him and then took his hand and led him out of the common room and down the hall.
"Harry," Ginny said.
"Yes," Harry asked.
"I wanted to ask you something," Ginny started. " But I'm not sure how to ask it yet."
"What is it?" Harry asked.
"Do you think that everyone falls in love?" Ginny asked.
"No," Harry said.
"Why not, I mean doesn't everyone feel for someone?" Ginny asked again. " I fell as though I'm not sure how to love or even know what love is. It's like something I've never wanted to know but still had to understand."
"You can't make it happen," Harry said. " It just does, it's like something you feel, something you've never felt before ever in your life. And when you're around that person you feel as though nothing could go wrong and that everything is perfect."
"Have you ever been in love?" Ginny asked.
"No," Harry said. " I don't think I have."
"I think I might be," Ginny said. " But I'm not sure, its weird. One moment I know that its there but the next it isn't."
"Well maybe it will just fall into place," Harry said.
"Maybe," Ginny said. " I guess we should get back."
They turned back around and walked back into the common room. Ginny tried to get Harry to come and sit with everyone but he said he had to go to bed. He walked silently up to his bed and lay down. He didn't know how long he had lain there before he was dreaming.
"Hello Harry, "Voldemort said. " I'm sure your wondering how I'm talking to you."
"Not really, " Harry said.
"Well Harry," Voldemort said. " I'm giving you a chance at a better life, always from despair, where you will never have to worry about hurting again. Join me Harry."
"I will never join you," Harry said.
"I'm sure you'll realize that your bond to never win and then you'll come crawling to me," Voldemort said.
"You wish," Harry said.
"Crucio," Voldemort yelled.
"Nooooo," Harry screamed through the pain.
Harry sat up in bed sweating. His head was spinning, and his scar and nose were bleeding. He got out of bed and found he could barely walk. He was shaking badly and continued to walk towards the door. As he opened it he found himself facing Ginny, Hermione, and Ron. Hermione let out a squeal as Harry fell into Ron's arms and blacked out.
