Hello there people owo. I am Koneko-chan and I am giving you a Jinx fanfic, possible Shaco x Jinx or Braum x Jinx depending on how I feel. Annyywhoo enjoy~
-Koneko-chan~
Existance was futile- My mad mad world...
It's all so fun... right? It's supposed to be FUN! Not sad. It's supposed to be a game! Not some...serious lame stupid stuff right? I'm just so lost... no one understands me... and I guess that's why I always feel so lonely... I mask it with this...chaotic self... but what is the real me? I feel as if...everyone will never get me. Who I am. I sit in my room, on my bed, in this place. An institute. Where we all fight and fight and be minions. That's whn I hear it, that knock at the door. I stand, grabbing pow-pow and fishbones, and I get the door.
"You have a game, Jinx. Get onto the blue team summoning platform." A summoner says plainly, I only answer with a giggle and a nod, running off. This became my game. My new game. To shoot and fight forever and ever 'till I die. But what kind of existance is that? I hear the announcer, that monotone voice that says: "Welcome to Summoner's rift!". I'm laning with that guy with the big shield thingy again. Whatever. Walking to lane, I listen to my summoner.
'We're going against a really good lane'. The voice says to me, in my head.
'Yeah yeah yeah. I just wanna shoot everything!'. I simply think back. The tiny little minions spawn, and thats when farming starts. The big shield guy wards up, and I see Hat lady and her stupid other little friend with her. I see them in this lane very rarely. A taunt.
"Welcome to snoresville Hat lady! Population- YOU!"I laugh. Laughing off the pain. The angst. She looks mad, and fires at me, and I fire back, swapping to fishbones. I live in this Mad mad world... Does no one understand it? I do the things I do... so someone can stop me.. so someone can understand and save me from this abyss. No ONE GETS IT! I let my thoughts run over me. My summoner can only hear what I will them to.
'Go in on them.'He wills. I nod, and I hit off a perfect ZAP! and go for Hat Lady, Fat Handz can't keep up! She's soooooooo slow! But like I care as I kill Hat lady, and the announcer proclaims:
First Blood!
This is easy, right? This is fun, right? This is normal, RIGHT?! After the game, I trudge back to my room, another victory, whoopie doo. I feel a hand on my shoulder as I continue down, and I look to see Braum there, a gentle smile on his face.
"You know, I can tell there is a problem. Need to talk about it?" He asks, his accent is so thick. I carefully contemplate my answer. He's the only person ever, to get that something's wrong. To understand the problem I have, that gnaws away at me, slowly everyday. I shake my head slowly 'no'. He frowns a bit.
"It's not good to keep things to yourself little one." He says, he makes sure no one is around. He becons I follow... and I do. Maybe... he is right. I've been running and keeping everything inside for so long, that it's going to kill me one day. I won't die a crook, I'll die a mad mad girl who killed and stole and destroyed. We find a quiet place in the Institute's gardens. We sit, no one is here... and then it all spills out. How I always felt alone, and as a kid how I was always tormented for not being normal, and I wasn't! I knew I wasn't normal and I didn't pretend so. I was chaotic, and evil. I still let it rule me. I told him how I was absued as a child, and how I ahd run away, and raised myself in the streets. How I left my home for a new one. How I fled from everything, and masked all my pain in chaos, how I found my guns and made them my own. How I had never had a friend, or anyone to be there for me, and by the time I finish, I'm crying. Because past wounds that I never noticed, are all still open, infected and rotten. Because I let the pain in. Because I finally cracked. Because I never talked to anyone. He gives me a moment to collect myself... Fishbones... he was and is my logic and reason. The part of me that's suppsed to be dead. Non-existant.
"You had to take that all.. alone?" He asks slowly. I nod, whiping away tears.
"You should have never bottled that all up... if you have problem, you can come to me. I am willing to lend a hand." He says, and in the tone of his voice... I know he isn't lieng. But... my Mad Mad world, still exists. After making myself that chaotic girl again, and after Braum left, I dash off, and bump into Shaco, a friend of mine. Both fond of chaos.
"Hey Shanko~~~~~~" I chime laughing.
"Good game Jinx, you did well." He laughs, and I grin.
"I gotta kill Hat Lady and Fat handz So I'm happy!" I laugh... I glare at them and make faces at them, Shanko just laughing with me, Hat Lady and Fat Handz both glare. I giggle. We walk to my room.
"You always are a riot(almost put rito wut owo), Jinx!" Shaco laughs, I laugh to.
"Well, it's who I am!" I laugh and wave a farewell as I head in my room. I flop on my bed, and glare out the window, and cry softly... I cry myself to sleep... for the first time ever.
