The Title of this fanfiction is inspired by the song "Lost" by Within Temptation, from the album called 'The Unforgiving'.

The songs on that same album will be involed with this fanfiction.

A quick announcement: Just because I'm writing this, doesn't mean that I'm trying to glorify depression or suicide in any way. I myself am currently struggling with depression, and I have contemplated suicide several times in the past. I do not want anyone to have to feel like suicide is the only way.

There is a way out, you just need to find it. Trust me when I say, please don't give up. Ever.

Disclaimer: I do not own Danny Phantom, I only own my OC.


01: Fire and Ice

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"...And I still wonder

Why heaven has died

The skies are all falling

I'm breathing but why?

In silence I hold on

To you and I..."

-Fire and Ice, Within Temptation


I felt tears well up in my eyes as I tried to exit Casper High. Standing in front of me were my two biggest bullies; a girl named Star, and a girl named Laura. I felt nothing but dread enter my body.

"Where are you off to Rach?" Laura asked as a smirk grew on her face. "I-I...I was going home..." I said, my voice barely a whisper.

Laura laughed and looked at Star. "Well look at that! The freak is trying to go home." she said loudly. I winced and her smirk grew. "Where exactly is your home, Rachel?" Star asked, her hands on her hips.

"Is it with that drunken excuse for a father? Your mother is too busy to even look at you. Why do you even go back there?" Laura asked.

I felt my body start shaking and wetness on my face. "Leave her alone!"

I heard the familiar voice of Sam Manson, the girl that I've known ever since we were in diapers.

Laura snorted and turned. "Have fun with the freak, Manson."

I felt hands on my shoulders gently turn me around. "Rachel, are you okay?" Sam asked softly. I sniffled and looked at her. "I...I'm fine." I whispered. Sam sighed and let go of my shoulders.

"Rach...just promise me that you won't do...you know what." Sam said quietly so only I would hear. I swallowed and nodded. "Come on, I'm walking you home. I don't want those snakes to come after you again."

I folowed Sam out of the school. Just as we were about to turn to go towards my house, Danny Fenton and Tucker Foley walked over to us. "Hey guys. Where are you two headed?" Danny asked.

"I'm walking with Rach on my way to the bookstore." Sam said simply. Ever since she and Danny had broken up, it seemed that it had gotten easier for her to lie to him. At least from my viewpoint.

"Really? We're headed to my place for a video game marathon. We wanted to invite you guys." Tucker said with a sigh.

I smiled faintly. "Sorry. I need to get home."

"We understand. We'll just need to catch up with you later, alright?" Danny said with a smile. "Okay." I whispered.

Sam and I walked away from the boys and when we were a block away from the school, she hugged me. "I'm so sorry Rach. You just need to last until the end of the year and we won't have to worry about those bitches." Sam said, pulling out of the hug.

I nodded. "Right...Thanks Sam." I said, smiling faintly.

As we got closer to my school, I started to get a sinking feeling in my chest. I bit my lip as we stopped in front of my house. "You alright Rach?" Sam asked, eyeing my expression. I smiled. "I'm fine. I'll see you tomorrow morning, alright Sam?"

"Alright..." Sam said. She waved as she walked away and I waved back before walking into my house.

I was met with the hallway light on, and the living room curtains closed. As I walked closer to the couch, I saw my dad passed out drunk. Again, and empty beer cans around him.

I ran a hand through my bangs, moving them out of my face, and let out a long sigh. I walked over to my room and threw my messenger bag on my bed. I tied my mid-back length brown hair into a loose bun before I walked back out of my room. I grabbed a trash bag from the kitchen, walking back to the living room after grabbing it.

I started grabbing beer cans and shoving them into the bag, trying to make as little noise as possible. As I made my wayto the front of the couch, I grabbed a blanket and covered my father with it. I tied the garbage bag up and started towards the front door to take the bag out to the trash bin.


I sat down at my computer desk with my bowl of ramen. My mother had called and told me that she was working late again and wouldn't be home until about 2 in the morning. Again.

So, I opted for making a larg pot of Top Ramen for dinner. Dad won't mind; it's something easy for him to eat with his hangovers anyway.

As I started on the noodles, I checked my email. All that I had were emails from facespace, a social networking website that everyone gets on. The emails were just telling me that I had messages from Star and Laura.

I ignored their messages and logged off of my computer. Having already finished the bowl of noodles I had, I started working on the homework that I had.

"After tonight...I won't have to worry about homework anymore."


I looked at the clock.

12:40 AM.

I stood up after putting my shoes on, and climbed out of my window and onto the fire escape. I climbed up to the roof and was met with the view of Amity Park that I had gotten used to recently. I walked to the edge of the building and sighed. I stared at the ground below the building and stepped into the ledge.


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Danny sighed as he floated around in the skies of Amity Park. Night patrols was when the interesting things happened. Occasionally Skulker would challenge Danny to some sort of duel, or Danny would have to chase the Box Ghost around.

The usual.

as he floated in the sky, he did some thinking to himself. "Rachel seemed kind of off today. It's not like her to turn down a Video Game marathon..."

As Danny floated by a certain building, he stopped. A girl with long brown hair stood on the ledge of the building. "Rachel...?"

Danny heard her mumble something as she lifted her foot from the building and he flew over to her. "W-What are you doing?!"


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I stood on the ledge of the building. I took a deep breath and slowly let it out. "Well...here goes nothing."

"W-What are you doing?!"

I put my foot back on the ledge and looked to my left to see the one and only ghost boy, Danny Phantom.

I let out an annoyed sigh. "What does it look like? I'm trying to kill myself."