"Alex,
please. Just calm down." Jay Hogart chased after his long-time
girlfriend Alex Nunez. They were fighting, as usual. But this time
Jay knew he was in big trouble. He chased her through the parking lot
of Degrassi Community School. She was still storming away angrily but
he persisted. "Lexxi, please." Just as he had caught up with her
she had turned on her heel to face him. She came threateningly close
to his face.
"How long, Jay?" She said flexing her hands,
ready to punch him.
"Alex, just--"
"How long?" She
demanded from him.
"I don't know." He said meekly looking
around at the other students.
"You don't know?" Alex said
almost laughing. "How can you just plain not know? Do you know
anything? Did you know that tomorrow would be out ten month
anniversary? Exactly how long did you think you could go around
hooking up with dozens of other girls and I wouldn't find out,
jackass!" She started to walk away from him again.
"C'mon
Alex. You're making this too big of a deal." He said
following.
"God, Jay. I honestly thought you had changed, I
thought I could trust you again. Wow am I stupid."
"Alex
wait--" He grabbed her shoulders and spun her around.
"So you
can't tell me how long. Tell me how many. Tell me how many girls
you hooked up with since we've been together?" She came forward
again until her face was barely an inch away from his. "C'mon
Jason. You're a tough guy, just come out and tell me." She
brought her hands to his chest and shoved him. He barely moved. She
went to do it again but he caught her hands against his chest. To
outside onlookers it looked kind of like a rough hug. "Tell me. I
really don't want to guess."
"It's nine, Alex." Her eyes
widened.
"Nine different, girls. Does that even include
me?"
"No." He managed to mumble. She was still trying to
break his grip.
"Wow Jay, ten girls in ten months. You amaze
me." She said mockingly trying to pull her hands from his. "So
was it a new one every month or something?"
"You know what
Alex, just stop." He threw her hands back to her face and started
walking to his car angrily. He turned around and spoke walking
backwards. "Alex, you're making this into a bigger deal than it
really is. Just chill out you can go ahead and come crawling back to
me when you're not so PMS." Jay turned and opened the front door
of his orange car. He did not like being pushed around, especially by
his 5'5'' girlfriend.
"You can't get PMS when you're
pregnant, Jay." She said over the empty parking lot. He froze with
the door open and turned to look at her.
"What?"
"I'm
pregnant, Jay." He stood there with his mouth open and stared. She
turned and left. Jay finally got into his car and drove two hours to
Wasoga beach.
Sean had just moved back to Wasoga a few weeks ago.
He was sitting outside his parents' house, working on a beat up
car. He saw Jay's infamous car and stopped, surprised to see him.
He walked over with a confused look on his face.
"Jay, what the
hell are you doing here?" Jay stepped out of the car and rounded on
Sean.
"Way to keep in touch, Cameron. I called you like fifty
times on my way here. Where were you?" He asked still frantically
fiddling with his cellphone.
"I don't have a phone, Jay. What
the hell is wrong with you?"
"Who the hell did I call then?"
He said staring at his phone.
"Jay, seriously." Sean grabbed
the edges of his leather jacket and made him face him. His face was
worn with anxiety and possibly fear. Sean had never seen him like
that. "What are you drunk, high, insane?"
"No, man. I
just--" He broke away and started pacing.
"What the hell is
going on?"
"Nothing is going on. I'm…fine. I'm
fine."
"Right so you drove all the way down here to tell me
that you're fine. What the fuck is going on right now,
Jay?"
……
Ellie was sitting in her apartment. She was
staring out the window, bored out of her mind. Then Alex came
storming through the front door. She took off her leather jacket and
threw it on the couch. She started pacing by the door. Ellie stood
up, slightly afraid.
"Hey, Alex. Where were you, I thought we
were meeting at the Dot an hour ago?"
"Oh I was with Jay."
She put a particular hard emphasis on Jay's name. Something must've
happened.
"What happened with Jay?"
"Well for starters
he's been cheating on me."
"What?"
"With at least
nine girls in the last ten months we've been
together."
"What?"
"Yes, it's great isn't it. I had
to find this out because apparently he has an STD that he's been
gracious enough to spread around the entire school."
"What?"
"Yeah.
So I went to the doctor to see if I had one." She stopped
pacing.
"And?"
"Even better, I'm
pregnant."
"What?"
"Yes Ellie, pregnant. As in
there is a goddamn child inside of me."
"Well is Jay the
father?"
"Of course he is. Because everything in my life
that's fucked up is because of Jay."
"Alex , calm down.
…….
"Alex
just broke up with me and I can't find her." He said pacing
again.
"And you figured she'd come to Wasoga? Without a car?"
Sean asked sarcastically as he sat down on the bench in front of the
house.
"No. I'm just wigging out. I can't do this."
"Do
what? You guys fight four times a day. Then you break up every week.
It'll blow over."
"We never fight like this."
"So
what did you do?"
"Why do you assume it was me that did
something?" Sean raised his eyebrows. Jay sat down next to him.
"Fine it was me. She found out I've been cheating on her."
"You
cheated on Alex?"
"Where have you been?"
"But why I
thought you loved her. Besides Alex is so awesome--"
"Cameron,
you're on my side!"
"Oh right. So what happened when she
found out?"
"She freaked out on me. I was so scared she was
gonna deck me. Then she started yelling and then she told me
that…."
"Told you that?" He started shaking, his hold body
tense with anxiety.
"That's she's pregnant." Sean's
face fell with sympathy as he looked at his friend. Jay stared at the
floor as if looking for answers. "She found out because a few of
the girls I hooked up with have the same STD that I do."
"Damn,
man. Ever heard of birth control." It was the least funny situation
he had ever heard but it was so funny.
"Thanks for your fucking
support, Sean." He started pacing again.
"Jay, what do you
want me to say? You got your girlfriend pregnant while cheating on
her and giving other girls STDs. You're a fucking idiot. Think
condoms, genius."
"I know, I know. But me and Alex…I can't
believe I messed up this bad."
"Do you even know if
you're the father or whatever?"
"No, she walked away from
me. I don't even know where she went."
"So what the hell are
you doing talking to me. You gotta talk to her."
"No
kidding."
…..
Ellie sat on the couch next to Alex trying to
be her support.
"So what are you gonna do, Alex?"
"I
don't know, Ellie."
"Does your Mom know?"
"Well yeah
she took me to the clinic. Stupid ass doctor told her."
"Did
you even talk to her about it?"
"No, she's crazy. She hates
Jay. I can't talk to her."
"So what happened with Jay?"
"I
found out. I yelled, he yelled and as he was leaving I sort of
screamed it at him."
"And then?"
"And then nothing, I
came here."
"Well what did Jay say when you told him?"
"He
didn't say anything, he just stood there with a stupid look on his
face. I left."
"Wow, Alex. Do you know where he is now?"
"No.
And I don't really give a damn."
"Alex I know you're
pissed off. But you really love him, you have to go talk to him and
sort this out."
"I fucking hate him."
"Alex, wake up.
Grow up. You're having a baby, don't you realize how serious this
is?"
"Of course I do, Ellie! But I'm sixteen years-old, my
boyfriend is an asshole, and I may as well be an orphan. I don't
know what the hell I'm doing."
After two more hours at
Ellie's Alex went home in the pouring rain. By the time she got
back to her house she was completely soaked. The back door to her
house lead into her room. And there Jay was sitting, in front of the
door. Alex rolled her eyes and came forward. Jay stood up when he saw
Alex there.
"What are you doing here?" She asked
harshly.
"Lexxi, c'mon. Stop acting like this. You know we
have to talk."
"Don't call me Lexxi." She said even more
harshly.
"C'mon can't we just go inside and talk?"
"No.
We can talk right here."
"It's pouring rain."
"Jay, I
can't be alone with you in my bedroom."
"What? Why?"
"Isn't
obvious?" She looked into his eyes. He really had no idea and he
didn't even care. "Fine, forget it." She stepped around him,
opened the door and went inside. Alex immediately went to her
dresser and pulled out the hoops from her ears. Jay followed and
closed the door behind him. She used a face towel and wiped all the
makeup from her eyes. Then she pulled off her soaked jeans and shirt.
She turned around and saw Jay watching her.
"What like you've
never watched me undress before? You know you can change if you
want." Alex had a hoard of Jay's clothes in their own drawer from
when he slept over.
"No." He said still watching her intently.
She rolled her eyes at him and pulled on a dry pair of jeans and one
if his shirts. Jay kept staring and decided that Alex was the most
beautiful girl he had ever seen. He took into account what Sean had
said, he definitely did love her. Why was he such an idiot? And why
did she put up with it so long? He couldn't let her go. So suddenly
he crossed the small room and pulled her into a long deep kiss. Out
of habit Alex didn't resist or even pull back. She let him kiss her
and she enjoyed it.
After a minute or two Alex pulled away
from him, realizing what was happening.
"What the hell was
that?" She said with her arms still around Jay's neck. He still
had his eyes closed, his hands on her back.
"I don't know."
She took her hands away and removed his.
"So why did you do
it?"
"I don't know." He said numbly.
"Damnit, Jay!"
Alex backed away and sat down on her bed. "This was exactly why I
didn't want to be alone with you. You're here to talk so let's
talk."
"Why the hell are you being so ridged?"
"Because
one little kiss doesn't make it all better, Jay. When it's over
you still cheated on me, I'd still be pregnant, and you'd still
be the father."
"So I'm definitely the father?"
"Yes,
Jay." Jay sat down on her dresser and looked at Alex. He
sighed.
"What are going to do?"
"I have no idea."
"Do
you want to keep it?"
"Do you?"
"Shit, Alex! I don't
know. I'm still trying to wrap my head around this. Damn. How far
along are you?" He stood up.
"I don't know, they didn't
tell me. I have an appointment at seven tonight though. I think it's
around a month and a half."
"This sucks." He said sitting
on the bed next to her.
There was a very long pause in which they
both stared at each other.
"Why did you do it, Jay?"
"What
cheat on you?" He sighed. "I don't know."
"You know
what 'I don't know' is getting a little old with you Jason."
She got off the bed and went to the window. "I think if you're
old enough to get someone pregnant then you're old enough for a real
answer to my questions. Because this isn't a damn game anymore
Jay."
Jay didn't look her in the eye and just hung his
head.
"So what is it? What I don't satisfy you enough or
something? Its not like you did it once. But all the time, over and
over. Am I just some girl to fill the space? You never even gave it a
second thought. Why?"
"I dunno. Sex…I guess."
"That's
bullshit and we both know it. It's not like I denied you or
something. Besides that's incredibly disgusting. Look how far sex
gets you in life. An STD, Jay? What the hell is wrong with you, don't
you realize how serious this is?"
"I said I was sorry, all
right?"
"No, Jay. It isn't 'all right'. Get
out."
"What?"
"What are you surprised? Get out. Leave,
go, goodbye. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way
out."
…
((Okay that's enough for a rewrite. Another
chapter of rewrite before I update with newness. By the way, I wrote
this like a year ago, before degrassi was completely insane before
the episode where Alex really did find out and they broke up and now
apparently Alex is a lesbian. Whatever. This fic uses the characters
and locations and themes but fuck where the show is really doing.
Please review.))
