Seattle-Sized Void

Summary: Cat is jealous about Sam's new friendship with Jade. What's going on in Sam's mind when Cat calls in Freddie for revenge?

Rating: T

Genre: Romance

Status: Complete

Pairing: Seddie

Excerpt: There he was standing there all cute and chiz with his thumbs in his front jean pockets, a stupid boyish, bashful look on his face, his signature Freddie Benson half smile.

A/N: I'm so excited about the Sam & Cat special with Freddie! I would love to write a whole fic on how I predict the episode is going to go but I don't know enough about the Victorious side of things. Anyway this is a short one-shot about the special. Enjoy!

1…2…3…4…5…6…7…8…9…10. Sam slowly counted to herself; her eyes closed trying to calm herself down. Today was a crappy day. Her and Cat were fighting about Sam's new friendship with Jade. They argued about it all day yesterday. Today she tried to apologize but Cat was freezing her out, she just kept shoving her chin in the air and making a show of leaving whatever room Sam was in.

She sighed. She really hated fighting with Cat but she just didn't understand what the big deal was. They could all be friends. Sam chalked it up to being was one of those "girl" things that she would never understood. She and Jade hit it off immediately it was nice for once to have a conversation with another street smart, funny girl who appreciated her sarcasm and snarkiness without having to always explain herself. While she loved Cat and they were becoming best friends, she missed the witty back and forth banter she used to have … with Carly and Freddie. Talking to Jade helped fill that Seattle-sized void inside her.

She let out a deep breath and grabbed a root beer from the fridge and a package of fatcakes from the cabinet. She leaned against the counter and opened the package.

The sound of the doorbell rang throughout the apartment but she didn't move to get it. She wasn't really in the mood for visitors today but was curious as to who was on the other side of the door.

"Ding-dong!" She heard Cat say in a sing-song voice. For some reason to her it seemed more obnoxious than usual. Her roommate frolicked from the bedroom towards the door. Sam thought she saw Cat throw her a smug look as she approached which made her roll her eyes.

It must be someone good, Sam thought as she put the bottle of root beer to her lips.

Cat threw opened the door and announced loudly, "OH HELLO THERE FREDDIE BENSON! COME ON IN!"

Sam spit her drink across the small kitchen. Did she just say Freddie Benson? She looked up at the door, using her sleeve to wipe her mouth, and sure enough there he was. Cat was giggling and dancing idiotically next to him, hopping from foot to foot like the hardwood floor was covered in hot coals. She felt a scowl form on her face, the anger she was trying hard to subdue rise within her body. There he was standing there all cute and chiz with his thumbs in his front jean pockets, a stupid boyish, bashful look on his face, his signature Freddie Benson half smile. She wanted to stomp up towards him and punch him right in the face … using her left hand. She thought she was over all the stuff with the kiss between him and Carly but seeing Freddie in person reminded her of why she left Seattle in the first place. The pain came back in full force, causing her heart to feel heavy in her chest.

She took a gulp from the bottle of root beer, sat it down on the counter and rubbed her left hand in preparation of it coming in contact with Freddie's face. She looked up and her blue eyes met his brown ones. Her heart skipped a beat, a sudden rush of feelings and thoughts flooded through her. Whatishe doing here? A highlight reel of their kisses, the times they flirted, the look in his eyes when she made him laugh and when he told her he loved her all flashed before her eyes. She wanted to leap over the counter, run to him and pull his face towards hers. She wanted their lips to meet in a slow, familiar rhythm, press her body against his, feel his arms wrapped around her. She wanted to tell him how much she missed him and that she was sorry for leaving him in Seattle alone.

"Thank you so much for coming… you remember Sam don't you?" Cat said in her flirtiest manner as she bat her eyelashes.

Cat's words pulled Sam caused her to break eye contact with Freddie.

This is exactly why I left…

I hate feeling like I am always going to be your consolation prize…

You make me feel too many emotions that I am not prepared to deal with…

Whatever this is between us is too confusing…

I can't handle loving you and hating you at the same time …

"Hey Sam," Freddie said giving her a small awkward wave.

She swallowed the lump in her throat and walked out from behind the counter. When she figured out what she wanted to say she opened her mouth to speak…