Disclaimer: I am a very poor girl. There is no way that I could own this story or any of the characters in it.
Author's note: This is a very short one shot, and it is set in the movieverse. I don't like this one that much, so be nice.
Warning: A homosexual relationship resides in this story.


I never told them the real reason I got into so many fights. Edmund was the only one who ever figured it out. He just listened to what the other boys called me; it was always names that suggested I wasn't what a man was supposed to be. Edmund confronted me about it. I told him the truth. Things were different in Narnia: a man could be with another man without anyone even looking twice. Our life in Narnia had changed us all. Edmund simply gave me a hug and promised to not tell anyone. From then on he always helped in my battles, even when I didn't want help. I always longed to return to Narnia where I knew I would be accepted, but I never thought I would find love so soon after returning.

The moment I met him, if you can call a fight an actual meeting, there was an instant connection. Everything we did, whether it was fighting, or talking, was filled with passion. Others saw it as anger or hatred, but it was far from both.

Then, I found out that Susan cared for him as well. I had always put my siblings' needs and wants in front of my own. I knew he cared about me, yet I still tried to push him towards Susan. I don't know what possessed me to deny my own happiness, but thankfully he noticed what I was doing. Even though he never fully rejected my sister's advances he still tried to win my affections, even though he already had all of me. Susan never noticed what was happening right in front of her, so she still thought Caspian was completely hers. He was hers only in the light, in everyone else's eyes.

I had come from England back to Narnia with the hope that I could finally be myself. I had gone through so much pain and I was so used to it that I started to see it as a stable part of my life. I had to hide in the dark in England; now, at the one place I knew I would be accepted, I was back in the shadows by my own accord. He tried to pull me out, but it had become a safe haven for me. I had all I wanted in the dark; passion, love, comfort. There was no reason for me to bring it all into the light, years of not being in the light had accustomed to a life in the dark.

Too soon after we arrived we had to return to England. We left in the light so Caspian was Susan's, and she made sure that everyone knew. I looked back at him one last time, and the darkness in his wet eyes told me that he would always be mine.