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I Won't
I can't be human. I keep having this nightmare that we saved Stefan and I'm human again. It's just not possible. Can a vampire change back to human? It was unheard of, absurd and whatever the hell else there was to compare it to. Being human is not what I want! Humans need food and water to survive. I was human a mere hundred years ago, I know these things. I will starve myself to death. I'll take my own life. I'll get someone to change me back to a vampire, I'll do anything but become human!
I do not see how Elena does it. It is impossible. It is stupid. It is...I have no more words to describe it. Elena said that being human wouldn't be bad, but I think differently. It is a living hell. I cannot stay this way. I just cannot.
I looked up at Elena, who was sitting on the bed, watching me, before looking back at the human food, which was still not appealing to me. Did she think staring at it would make me eat it? Hardly.
"I'm not eating it," I said stubbornly.
"And why not?" Elena asked, coming to sit on the floor next to me. I shrugged, feeling like a five year old with his mother telling me to eat my veggies.
"Because I'm not," I said simply.
"Fine, I understand that you choose that, but think of it this way, starving yourself to death won't change the fact that Katherine's dead. Just thought you'd like to know that," she said before leaving. I sighed and looked back to unappealing food before tentatively tasting it.
