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Song: Howie Day-Collide
Oneshot
Edward POV-Reflection of life with Bella
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
Sunday morning and I'm watching an angel sleep, the last of the darkness is fading and light is gleaming through the windows, the sun-rays shine on Bella's face making her eyes flicker, I know soon she'll wake soon, but I'm so absorbed in her beauty…questioning why she would love a monster like me.
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Everyday I regret my decision of the day I left her. I'm scared I have permanently damaged her, it is rare she will confidently smile to me, not trusting that I will be here when she wakes, but I always wonder why wherever I go she will go, could she really love me and me damned to a cruel eternity and should I let her go once again for her to grow old surrounded by family, am I selfless enough though?
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
She believes I'm perfect, I can do no wrong. I'm a killer can she not see, does she not realise? Things I say are wrong, I tell her to trust me, but can she, what if I slipped, or my family did, what if I left again, can she trust me or can I trust myself. The doubts cloud over my mind even though I would die for you, I'm always at risk of hurting you, I couldn't and wouldn't ever forgive myself if I did. I know were meant to be, our worlds collided together and now I know there's no letting you go.
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
I was the most quite and secluded of my family before you, I would shy away from their affections, worried if they got to close I would lose them, then you, you fly into my world. I will never forget when I first saw you, when we first spoke, kissed, fell in love you imprinted my mind and you will never ever leave it. I'm so scared that you think about me all the time, if I let you down, if you saw me for my real self, the monster I am.
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
The stars have just started to shine in my life now you here and I don't want them to leave, or you, I can't loose you twice it would destroy us both.
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
Were meant to be together, we fit like hand and glove, I will never let you go my beautiful angel…Bella.
This is mostly the ramblings of a mad woman lol, I always thought this song went really well for Bella and Edward so I thought I would put it in a one shot, it's a bit rambly and boring but I like the song lol.
Next chapter of Mystery illness will be up soon also :]
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