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Song: Howie Day-Collide

Oneshot

Edward POV-Reflection of life with Bella

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah

Sunday morning and I'm watching an angel sleep, the last of the darkness is fading and light is gleaming through the windows, the sun-rays shine on Bella's face making her eyes flicker, I know soon she'll wake soon, but I'm so absorbed in her beauty…questioning why she would love a monster like me.

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Everyday I regret my decision of the day I left her. I'm scared I have permanently damaged her, it is rare she will confidently smile to me, not trusting that I will be here when she wakes, but I always wonder why wherever I go she will go, could she really love me and me damned to a cruel eternity and should I let her go once again for her to grow old surrounded by family, am I selfless enough though?

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find

You and I collide

She believes I'm perfect, I can do no wrong. I'm a killer can she not see, does she not realise? Things I say are wrong, I tell her to trust me, but can she, what if I slipped, or my family did, what if I left again, can she trust me or can I trust myself. The doubts cloud over my mind even though I would die for you, I'm always at risk of hurting you, I couldn't and wouldn't ever forgive myself if I did. I know were meant to be, our worlds collided together and now I know there's no letting you go.

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

I was the most quite and secluded of my family before you, I would shy away from their affections, worried if they got to close I would lose them, then you, you fly into my world. I will never forget when I first saw you, when we first spoke, kissed, fell in love you imprinted my mind and you will never ever leave it. I'm so scared that you think about me all the time, if I let you down, if you saw me for my real self, the monster I am.

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find

You and I collide

The stars have just started to shine in my life now you here and I don't want them to leave, or you, I can't loose you twice it would destroy us both.

You finally find

You and I collide

You finally find

You and I collide

You finally find

You and I collide

Were meant to be together, we fit like hand and glove, I will never let you go my beautiful angel…Bella.

This is mostly the ramblings of a mad woman lol, I always thought this song went really well for Bella and Edward so I thought I would put it in a one shot, it's a bit rambly and boring but I like the song lol.

Next chapter of Mystery illness will be up soon also :]

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