Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi, or any of its characters.
Author's Note: I like to write smut, I won't lie! If you don't enjoy that, then I suggest you don't read any further. However, I hope everyone else enjoys! Reviews are welcome, don't be to mean! :)
It was a Thursday afternoon and Clare, Eli and Adam all sat at the picnic table outside Degrassi, killing time before lunch time had officially ended. Clare, as usual was trying to get a head start on her homework.
"This is so frustrating. I swear if Mrs. Dawes assign's us anymore of these ridiculous English papers im going to explode" Clare said exasperated putting her head in her hands.
Eli laughed and put his arm around her shoulders, kissing her head "Don't worry so much Edwards, we'll get through it!"
"Maybe we could all work on them together tomorrow?" Adam suggested "Otherwise I don't think ill ever get mine done!"
"Sounds like a plan" Eli said gathering his things "But History class is calling me now. Ill see you guys later" He leaned in and kissed Clare before leaving. The kiss was brief but sweet and enough to make Clare feel light headed. Eli broke the kiss and smiled at her before turning to leave.
Clare stared after him, smiling. She found herself doing this more and more lately. They had been going out together now for a few months. The drama had finally ceased and they were happy. Scratch that, Clare was indescribably happy, and often found her mind wandering into the gutter more and more lately.
"Earth to Clare" Adam said waving his hand in front of her face
Clare blinked and looked at Adam and said a little embarrassed "Sorry.'
"You guys are so cute it's almost sick." Adam laughed and continued to read his comic
Indeed, Clare's mind had been wandering into unknown territories. She was constantly fantasizing about herself and Eli in not exactly PG situations. It was very un-Clare of her but she couldn't control it. Eli made her feel things she didn't think were humanly possible. He did more then make her heart flutter, he made her want him. And she wanted him alright, more than anything.
"Adam...can I ask you something kind of...personal" Clare asked
"Ask away!" Adam mumbled, still reading.
"Have you ever…um had…sex?" Clare asked slowly
Adam looked up and stared at her for a minute, and smiled "ha, I wish. Unfortunately thought I haven't. I don't really see that happening any time soon either. And may I ask why you are inquiring about such things Miss Clare?" Adam teased
"Oh um it's...its nothing! Nevermind."
"Clare…come on" Adam said "You can talk to me you know that. What's up?"
"You need to swear to secrecy, okay? I know you and Eli are boys, or whatever but I need this to stay between us. If Eli found out id die" Clare said.
"You have my word" Adam said
Clare sighed "It's just...I've been thinking about it a lot. About sex I mean…sex with, well Eli"
"Ohh, I see" Adam cleared his throat slightly "I'm surprised actually. I mean considering well, your ring and everything."
Clare twisted her purity ring around her finger "Yes I know" she looked down "but…"
"But...what?" Adam asked
Clare looked up at him "Adam, I think that I'm in love with him." She blushed
"Wow." Adam said surprised "That's big"
"I just feel like, well if I love him how bad can having sex be? I'm going insane, I've never felt like this before and im not sure these feelings are going to lessen unless…"Clare trailed off
"But Clare… I mean that's understandable and all. But you know the most important thing is being ready. You don't want to regret it. Something like this is important. I mean its sex. And it's your first time. It's not something to take lightly."
"I've thought about it. Constantly for weeks! He makes me feel, safe you know? He makes me feel like im the most special person in the world. And I don't think I could ever regret being with him. I could look back on this, years from now and be happy that my first time was with him. I want it to be him; I don't want anyone else…"
"Well, my opinion then? Go for it. I mean, if you've thought about it and you're ready then just go for it!" Adam gave her a huge grin and thumbs up
"Typical guy response!" Clare laughed "What do you think Eli will think?"
"I see the way he looks at you. He will probably be taken a back honestly but, I don't doubt that he feels the exact same way you do. Plus, he's a guy so that question kind of answers itself"
"Have you guys ever…talked about it?" Clare asked curiously.
Adam frowned "Are you asking me to break the guy code?"
"Just a little!"
Adam smiled "Let's just say…he wouldn't decline your offer. He's crazy about you Clare!"
Clare felt reassured at Adam's response and feeling a little brave she said "Well, My parents are actually away this weekend on a marriage retreat…its kind of perfect timing"
"So I take our study session may be post-poned?" Adam smiled
Clare smiled "Do you think, I could ask you for another favor?" Adam nodded
"Would you…come to the mall with me maybe? And help me pick something out?"
"Something…?
"Something…" Clare looked down and blushed "sexy. I don't have anything that comes close and I kind of want to surprise him. And since Ali switched schools I don't see her as much. I really don't have anyone else to go with me. Plus, you can give me you guy opinion!"
"You want me, a guy, to come watch you, a girl, try on lingerie? Clare, I would volunteer to do that, no need to even ask!" Adam grinned
"Well I mean we both have free periods now. And I wouldn't mind skipping gym last period. Want to go now?"
"Yeah sure." They began packing up their books "and Clare, I think it's nice, How your trying to make it perfect. I'm kind of jealous" Adam admitted
Clare smiled. That's what she wanted, perfection. This was it, the real thing. She was going to give herself to Eli officially. She felt herself shake a little. Although, she couldn't really tell if it was nervousness or excitement.
Either way, she knew the very idea of trying on lingerie terrified her more then anything else!
Author's Note: I hope you guys enjoyed it! I plan to add more chapters soon!
