Chapter 1 – Pain

For the first time in 7 years, I envied those who didn't have a heart because this . . . pain, this feeling that's corrupting me now, I would never wish this upon anyone. The thought of never seeing Jacob, my mum, dad and everyone else again, I couldn't bear it. The darkness that was clouding my vision was terrifying, I could only hear the voices of my family but slowly my vision was going. I tried to call out for Jacob but I couldn't even feel the words travel through my throat and out of my mouth. I was so scared, I'd never felt this kind of pain before. I couldn't even remember what had happened clearly, all I remember was seeing Jacob kissing Leah and then something that felt like a bite. The feeling that emerged when I saw them together, kissing and laughing. It practically destroyed me, I'd felt like my heart was painfully splitting into two. I tried to call out for Jacob again and this time I managed a quiet whisper and suddenly I felt something wet across the top of my forehead and I didn't like how it felt. I tried to lift my arms to remove it but I failed, I could hardly breathe, let alone move.

"Renesmee, hold on baby. Were going to make it better, does it hurt?" I heard Jacob say sounding frantic.

I groaned as I struggled to reply, "Yes . . . what happened" was all I could manage.

"I found you lying on the floor, bleeding . . . you had a bite mark near your left shoulder blade" he said still sounding frantic.

My memory of the event slowly started to come back to me until suddenly I gasped for air and managed to sit up right. I looked around still panting and saw everyone looking at me.

"It . . . hurts . . . so . . . much" were the last words I remembered saying before everything went completely dark.

My eyes slowly started to open and I saw the familiar ceiling of Carlisle's study, I sat up and saw that I was lying in a hospital bed with what seemed to be an IV in my arm. I slowly took it out and turned around to see Rosalie slowly pacing back and forth.

"R-r-rose" I stuttered, I hadn't realised how cold I'd been until my feet hit the freezing floor.

"You're awake, thank goodness" she said as she placed her arms around me, "Quickly, we need to pack your things" she said grabbing a hold of my hand.

"Why?" I asked sceptically.

She stopped in the doorway and sighed, "Renesmee, you were bitten by some sort of half vampire, half werewolf thing. You're Carlisle's favourite research subject." She said smiling falsely.

I looked at her confused and she brushed my cheek with the back of her hand, "Well this is how Carlisle put it, you're a human with a heart and blood, a vampire with less sensitive senses than normal vampires and on top of that you now have the attributes of a wolf" she said thinking over her explanation.

"Where did the wolf-vamp come from?" I asked open mouthed.

"This thing that bite you, Carlisle thinks it was somehow turned into a werewolf after being turned by a vampire because vampire venom is fatal to werewolves so there isn't any other logical explanation . . . but if you don't mind we need to pack our things" she said as she begun to tow me by my arm again.

"Why! Where are we going" I demanded.

"We need to leave; Bella and Edward are out hunting with Emmett. They haven't left your side for 2days because . . . The Volturi are coming for you and I doubt there'll be anything that can stop them this time" she said still towing me.

"I was asleep for 2days" I said under my breath and then the shock over took me. "T-the Volturi . . . are coming?" I said in scared shock.

"Don't worry, Edward will explain it all in a minute" she said as we entered my room, there were two bags lying on the bed open.

"Just grab anything and put it in, I'm sure you'll be able to buy whatever you need when you leave" she said putting three pairs of jeans into one of the bags.

I tried to move but my body wouldn't let me, all I could do was stare and then flashes of my memory came back to me. I remembered . . . "Jacob!" I gasped to myself.

"Rose, where's Jacob" I demanded again.

"Ness, he's . . . you don't understand, this is over, everything, us being a family, you and Jacob. This could be the last time I see you for a long time" she said quietly as she zipped up one of the bags.

"What are you talking about Rose?" I asked naively.

She sighed. "When you were asleep . . . Jane and Felix came to visit, they smelt the change in you, the wolf scent mixed with the human and vampire" she turned to look at me again and the look on her face broke my heart all over again. "They'd tried to kill you Ness . . . but we love you too much, we had to stop them" she continued, "We killed them, and now The Volturi will kill us no matter what we offer them" she said coldly.

"You shouldn't . . . I mean, you should have just let them . . ." I said almost whispering.

"Don't be stupid, you're my little niece, as long as I'm here you'll get anything you want from me" she said and she begun to sob tearlessly.

That's when the long day of tears started; I ran over to her and squeezed her as tight as I could.

"I love you so much Rose, I'm sorry I caused this. I promise that I'll make it right somehow" I said crying.

We both knew it was a stupid promise to make but I felt that I needed to reassure her somehow.

"You just need to stay safe and live a happy life" she replied and then pulled away from me, "Come on, I can sense everyone's back now" she said still sobbing.