A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in ages but I haven't really been in a mood for writing, school pretty much wiped me out. I decided to change this fic up a little bit.
Changes: Miyuki arrives in time to be able to watch Kise go up against Haizaki in the Kaijo vs. Fukuda Sogo match. That's the main thing the previous readers need to know. New readers are more than welcome.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot and my OCs.
Prologue
The girl tucked her long black hair behind her ears following the fresh spring breeze. She sat on the bricks that made up the plant box in their school courtyard, waiting for her boyfriend. She had made arrangements to talk to him after their graduation, although it seems his captain had decided to call a quick meeting of the so called Generation of Miracles. She was curious about what the meeting pertained, but she felt that it was not her place to pry despite being the assistant manager for the team. Looking at the clear blue sky, the same color as her own eyes, the girl couldn't help but feel that the weather was the exact opposite of how she felt. Today was the day she ended everything, despite how much she loved him or perhaps it was because of how much she loved him. She wouldn't (couldn't) allow his life and career to be ruined because of a single slip. She would bear this burden on her own.
Only seconds after those thoughts crossed her mind, she heard her blonde boyfriend's unmistakably cheery voice. She stood up to greet him just as he stopped in front of her.
"I'm sorry for being late, Miyu. Akashi-chi wanted to talk to us," he said after greeting her with a quick peck on the lips.
"It's fine Ryota. I've been enjoying the beautiful day," the girl, Miyuki, responded.
"It's a great day, isn't it? It's a perfect day for a graduation. It's been kinda bittersweet since I won't be able to see you very often, especially since you'll be studying abroad in London. I'm gonna miss you so much, but we'll be able to email and video chat with each other. What did you want to talk about?" Ryota said.
"I actually wanted to talk to you about my studying abroad and how that affects our relationship," Miyuki said.
"What about it? We won't be able to go on dates, but we can still talk. It will be a little hard not being able to meet each other in person for 9 close to 10 months, but I'm sure we'll make it through," her boyfriend said optimistically.
"I want to give it a try, but I feel it would be best that we break up," Miyuki said.
"Why? You don't think we'll get through this?" he asked.
"I want to believe that we can, but I don't want to tie you down to me while I'm halfway across the world for nearly a year. We'll be in high school. We'll meet new people and we never know if our feelings will change during those 9 months. If we end up finding new people or get tired of trying to maintain our long distance relationship, I don't want us to have to break up over email or video chat. You know how I feel about confessions and break ups. I prefer being told in person with the person right in front of me, that's why I want to do this. I don't want to have to continue forcing a relationship, because I don't like online breakups. If we still feel the same after the nine months that I will be gone, then maybe we can give us another try. But for now, I feel that it's best to break up. Besides didn't you say that you liked girls that didn't tie you down?" Miyuki explained tears streaming down her face by the end of it.
"You're just making an excuse. We can try this out; we keep our relationship going despite the length and distance. I said that before but if it's Miyu then I'm fine with being tied down. The reason you want to break up with me is because you don't love me anymore," Kise said.
"I do love you. I love you very much and that's why I'm doing this. 'If you love someone let them go. If they return, they were always yours, if they don't they never were.' You've heard of that saying right? I'm letting you go, so that I can see if you were truly mine and you can try the same thing," the girl said, tears streaming down her face, her hands gently cupped around her lover's cheek, tears running down his own. He didn't answer for several minutes before finally he broke the silence.
"Fine. I'll let you go, but before that can I ask for one last thing?" he asked.
"Sure," she replied a small slightly pained smile on her face.
"Can you give me one last kiss?" he said.
As an answer her smile widened very slightly and she raised herself up as he leaned down, their lips meeting for their goodbye kiss. Ryota surprised Miyuki by placing one of his hands at the back of her head and the one remaining on her back tightened bringing her closer to him and deepening the kiss. This kiss contained all the pain and love that they felt at this moment. They ended the kiss, when the need for air surfaced and they stayed there staring at each other's eyes for several seconds before Miyuki pulled away from his arms.
"Goodbye, Ryouta," she said drying her tears and smiling as best as she could.
"Goodbye, Miyu," he replied a sad tone in his voice.
Miyuki gave her now ex-boyfriend one last hug and kiss on the cheek, before turning around and walking away, taking with her the secret that she held. Once she turned to the side of the building and out of the view of Ryouta's eyes, she allowed her tears to slip down her cheeks and ran until she reached a small park a short distance away from the school.
As she approached the swings, the lone, almost invisible, figure sitting on the swings stood up and approached her. Seeing him, Miyuki broke down into sobs. The figure merely placed his arms around her and led her to sit on the swings, allowing her to cry into his shoulders as he kneeled in front of her.
"Everything will be alright, Miyuki," the blue-haired boy told her, rubbing her back.
"It hurts so much. When he talked about making our relationship last, I was so tempted to tell him everything," she responded, her voice muffled by her sobs and the shoulder on which she cried on.
"Then, why didn't you?" Kuroko asked his cousin.
"You know the reason why I had to do this. I don't want to be the one who will ruin his future. I'll bear this burden alone," Miyuki said, facing her cousin with tears streaming down her face. However, in her eyes Kuroko saw her resolve and he knew that his cousin would never waver, no matter how much he would try to persuade her otherwise, she would stand her ground. Knowing that any of his efforts would be futile, he merely hugged her and allowed her to continue crying into his shoulders.
A/N: Here's the rewrite for the prologue of Secrets and Reasons. It's actually different from the original one. I tried to keep the dialogue to minimum, but this chapter kind of needed a lot of it. I do apologize to any of my readers who were expecting a new chapter but rewatching KnB I felt that it would be better to have Miyuki arrive back sooner than in the original and it also has to do with the writer's block I was having. I'm sorry but I'll try my best to move on with this story. Also, I apologize it my updates are slow, school has been getting to me. Three AP classes as well as Anatomy and Physiology are really getting to me. I also have a lot of things to do outside of school. But I promise to try my best to update at least once a month. I thank you guys for your patience ahead of time.
I kinda feel like I made Kise OoC in this chapter. I'll try my best to keep him in character in the later chapters, but I kinda wanted to show the strength of Miyuki and Kise's relationship.
Also Miyuki's belief that confessions and break ups should be done in person and not over the phone reflects my own thoughts about those sort of things. Asking someone out on a date via text or chat is fine but I feel like when you actually tell them your feelings it should be in person and the same with breaking up.
Hope you like it. I'll try to get the rewrite of the first chapter out as soon as possible.
Please leave a review telling me what you thought of this chapter. Constructive criticism is always welcome.
