Chapter One
Their favorite thing to say is that there's nothing you could have done. That it wasn't your fault and that everything will be okay. They look you in the eye and they lie to you, but at least you get a reassuring pat on the shoulder. Your whole life you're taught to be honest and nothing but honest. And I'm good at that, at being honest. It's one of the only people things I'm good at you know what I mean? So when they tell me it's not my fault and that there is nothing more I could have done, I know better. I know better than to lie to myself. Because it's pretty hard to say it's not your fault when you had the gun in your hand. When you could have done something, but you didn't. Because it's never actually going to be okay. In fact, it never really has been. I know better, I always have.
I should have stayed away. But you have to understand how hard it was! It wasn't fair, it's never fair. I just wish I could change it, even though I know better.
I wish I didn't know better.
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-Three Weeks Earlier-
"Jane, I hardly think that's going to work." Maura smiled fondly up at her friend who was balancing dangerously on an office chair attempting to get a gallon of chemicals off the top of a storage cabinet just for her.
"You're going to fall and hurt yourself!" She yelped, clinging to Jane as she stumbled around on the seat of thee chair.
"If I could just get a little higher… MAURA," The person in question jumped, startled by the sudden outburst, "Stop hugging me and give me your heels." Maura stepped back, her face widened in innocent shock. I wasn't hugging her...Then, hearing what Jane had said about the heels, looked up at her in a frown.
"And tell me just why I should do that." Jane rolled her entire head along with her eyes as she smirked down at her friend's offended form.
"Because Maur, I need to get higher and those things could reach the Empire State building if they needed to. so, hand them over." She replied making a 'gimme gimme' motion with her hands as she crouched down awkwardly to remove her own shoes. When she came up she found Maura was still looking up at her, unmoving, arms crossed and brows furrowed together.
"Look, do you want this crap down or not?" After a little deliberation, Maura sighed and removed her heels to give to Jane. She hesitantly pulled them back before Jane snatched them out of her hand, and shoved them on her feet.
"Just be careful," She nearly shouted, "Those are my new Jimmy Choo's!" She pleaded, trailing off.
"Oh gee thanks, not 'be careful Jane you could fall' or even 'Jane, those will cause an imbalance in the equilibrium of all the wheely chairs in the universe and you will break your spinal vertebrae number 42!" Jane scoffed in playful exasperation.
"That doesn't even make sense." Came the mumbled reply from beneath the frown that could scare anyone of Jane's bad guys into submission. Even if it was just because it was so damn cute.
Wait what? Cute she's not cute.. Can she be cute? Friends call other friends cute and adorable and all of that right? Stop making that 'I'm in deep important panicked thought do not disturb' face because then she will disturb and ugh just get the Annometahdkf down and get back to work.
"There got it!" Jane hopped down from the chair only to fall flat on her butt. The heel on the right shoe had broken off, and went flying up into the air, slamming back down and hitting Jane on the head. Her hand collided with her mouth in utter shock.
"Ow.. Maur, I'm so sorry I…I wasn't thinking. Maura?" She questioned, listening in terrified silence as the honey blonde laughed her head right off.
"Your—ahahahah haha your face hahahaah the heel hit you-haha right on your head—and andhahahaaha I can- I can't breathe ahahaha" Jane couldn't help but start laughing at the sight before her.
'I love her. She's so cute. I really lo-'She stopped her train of thought before it could reach its station. ABORT, ABORT. Her mouth stamped shut, she slipped off the priceless heels, pushed the bottle of chemicals into her friend's arms, and Maura incredibly confused and in need of a new pair of shoes.
