Just so you know, this is my first story so I'm sorry if its no good. I am really excited to be writing a story. This is only the first chapter, but I will be posting more chapters when the are finished. Enjoy!
Marinette's POV:
I jumped through the window to my bedroom landing on my bed as I detransformed. I let out a sigh and Tikki appears in front of my face, with a stern look on her face. I turned my head to the side in confusion as she looked sternly at me.
"What is it Tikki?" I felt my stomach get in knots, because I knew this was about the 'gonna give up my miraculous' thing.
"You were gonna give Volpina your miraculous." She crossed her arms and sighed. I look away from her, feeling guilty.
"I know, I know." I kept my eyes on the floor. "But she was gonna drop Adrien, or so I thought." I turned a little red feeling stupid. I should have known it was an illusion. Tikki patted my back, and I lifted my eyes to look into Tikki's as she gave me a warm smile.
"I know, but you shouldn't let your heart get in the way of your head." She frowned a little, but didn't get upset. I however, widened my eyes in confusion.
"Tikki I wasn't gonna give her my miraculous, because I like Adrien. I did it beca-" Tikki shook her head a little impatient with my stupidity.
"That's not what I mean Mari. I'm talking about when you got jealous of Lila with Adrien." I look down a little, out of embarrassment. I turned my face back to her a little confused still.
"What did that have to do with anything?" She looks at me a little wide eyed as I saw realization sink in.
"You didn't realize?" I shake my head not understanding what my kwami was trying to tell me.
"She got akumatized because of what you did at the park Mari." I felt all the blood drain from my face, and the tears start falling down my cheeks.
"I did what?" I started to cry. "I'm a terrible person Tikki." Tikki tried to reassure me, but I was too distraught to listen. "First Max, then Santa, now Lila……..Tikki the first two were not meant rudely but with Lila….." I start choking on my words as I blubbered on. " I wasn't trying to be rude to Max and Santa but with Lila, I was rude and I knew it." I wrapped my arms around my legs and I brought them to my face, covering my eyes from the world so that all I saw was black.
"Marinette, it's ok, you didn't mean it." I could tell even without looking she was using her 'It's gonna be ok' look. I shake my head/body at her words.
"That's not the point Tikki…….Paris needs a Ladybug who doesn't get people akumatized, like- like….Chloe." I lifted my head as I felt more tears rush to my eyes and I let them flow down. "I'm just as bad as Chloe."
"No you're not Mari. You need to cheer up a little, we don't want you to get akumatized." I gasped and nodded.
"You're right." I stretch and look to my clock. "Looks like we need to get to sleep, if I don't want to be late." I walked into the bathroom getting in the shower, then getting ready for bed. I finally finished and I grabbed my history book and I finished my homework and studied a little. I knew that I should be listening to Tikki, but I couldn't help but feel as if Paris, Chat, everyone would be better off without me. I closed my book and smiled at Tikki, not wanting to worry her. "Let's get to bed." She nodded and layed in her little bed practically falling asleep as her head touched the pillow.
I turned my light off and got into bed knowing already it was gonna be a restless night for me.
