I knew what I was getting into when I took the Kira case

I knew what I was getting into when I took the Kira case. I just knew that I was going to offer up my life or my soul by doing this. That's actually part of the reason I took the case. I was bored. And I was tired of life because it always bored me or hurt me. So I took it and waited, until I found Kira, lured him in, and waited until he would kill me. I totally expected he would. And then I found something in him, Kira, my enemy, Light. I found friendship. I saw brilliance. A brain to rival my own.

'So this is how fate plays' I thought to myself on many an occasion. It wants to give everything then steal it from you when you're finally content. For once in my life I had friends, I had support from multiple people who knew who I was, and I was getting closer to solve an interesting and almost impossible case. And as soon I saw some of those categories over lap, and I wished Light would hurry up and find out my name to quit prolonging the misery I knew must come. I even considered just yelling it at him at some points.

Then one week, I heard the bells. Those loud, tolling church bells ringing in my ears. I was so happy that I would finally go soon. But leaving all those people who I loved, who depended on me, I soon realized, I didn't ever want to give up. They had given life meaning. But my time was coming. I lived out my possibilities as soon as I realized the bells got louder with each passing day, daring to give a little more of myself.

The bells became too much to bear on day, so I walked outside planning to bask in the sunlight, letting it relieve me of the pain. I ended up walking into rain. But the rain had such a calming effect. They seemed to cry for me. It was like seeing the funeral I knew I could never had. So I stayed there in respect for those non-existent people. Then Yagami-kun came out and talked to me. I gave much more of myself to him that day than I have to anyone else at a time. Hoping, perhaps, his intelligence could save me, even though I knew it was his fault I would be leaving soon. After we went back into the building, I spilled out everything. I poured out my heart on the matter. It seemed that he truly sympathized with me (besides the him killing me part) … and he let me cry, cry for myself. He was there to comfort me.

That afternoon, when I saw everything had been deleted, I saw my life go past my eyes. I wanted to see it though. I now wanted it all. Then I felt a tear rip through my body. The pain was incredible. Almost immediately, I no longer had strength to sit on the chair so I fell over expecting fate to let me die on that cold, stone floor. But she had sympathy on me, if only just this once. I didn't find myself on floor, but on Light's lap, staring at me disbelieving in his eyes that this was really happening. 'Stop lying to me in my death Light.' I said to myself. 'Own up to your title'. Then he smiled his Kira smile and I knew, I knew we were in a moment of understanding. He understood my eyes when they said 'Thank you for giving me hope, Light. And thank you for giving me want I asked for. I know I asked for it and you searched until you could fulfill it. And finally, thanks for giving me answers and comfort in death.'

But our famous L wasn't right about everything. There was one thing he didn't predict. Light's tears over his dead love.