Who Needs to Be Shown how to Love?

Disclaimer-I OWN NOTHING EVERYTHING IS STEPHANIE MEYER OR ASHLEY TISDALES

I was never a pretty girl. I was never perfect. Only one boyfriend and even he walked out on me. My parents aren't even together anymore. I'm 16 years old and I don't talk to anyone and im definitely not close to being compare to the great Rosalie Hale.

Why did I Constantly compare my self to people I would never want to become? Never will I get it right so why try to now? This is the perfect time for a song,. My secret way of unwinding. So I pick up my old abandoned acoustic and began to sing and strum a song I wrote after…the divorce.

Momma never told me how to love, Daddy never told me how to feel, Momma never told me how to touch,
Daddy never showed me how to heal
Momma never set a good example,
Daddy never held mommas hand
Momma found everything hard to handle,
Daddy never stood up like a man

I missed my mom. I missed our family! What the hell did Phil have for my mom that Charlie didn't?! I know deep down things will never be the same but why cant I?!

I've walked alone, broken,
emotionally frozen,
Getting it on,
getting it wrong

Everyday felt like the world was just gonna suffocate me. Each and every day I walked alone in the hell we call a high school. Trying so damn hard to please, but never coming close.

How do you love someone, without getting hurt,
How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, How do you love someone
How do you love, How do you love someone

I loved you. Edward fucking Cullen! You took my everything, my love, my tears, my courage, my strength, hell you even took my damn innocence, my virginity. You told me I was special, and then leave me for the two cent whore of the school.

I was always a chosen child,
The biggest scandal I became,
They told me I'd never survive,
But survive was my middle name

"Survive?" I thought. Ha! I'm barely going. I want to end it all so badly. Hell I might just do that. I picked myself up slowly off the bed and walked to my bathroom still singing my song.

I've walked alone,
hoping, just barely coping,
Getting it on,
getting it wrong

I can't hold on. I cant move on. I will not live through this day after day again and again. I cant. Then that's when I made the first cut.

How do you love someone, without getting hurt,
How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, How do you love someone
How do you love, How do you love someone

3 more cuts and the song was coming out louder and harder being pushed by my gasps of air. I want to end this. I can't do this everyone I love. Everyone I fucking love walks out on me.

It's hard to talk, see whats deep inside,
it's hard to tell the truth,
when youve always lied

I was so damn close. Then everything just seemed to snap and I fell to my knees on the tiled floor. Sob after sob chorused through my hurt body. I was ashamed and now I couldn't just quit with my task at hand.

How do you love someone,without getting hurt,
How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, How do you love someone

4. My lucky number. 4 cuts killing me with searing pain, but burning my every desire. I was there. Good bye my loves. Life was just to fucked up for Isabella Swan.

How do you love someone, and make it last
, How do you love someone, without shrinking on the past
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love, How do you love someone
How do you love, How do you love someone
Someone....

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