Kim looked at her phone. What the hell? Ten missed calls and 5 text messages. She'd only been gone a day. She tossed it into her bag as her sister came in carrying 2 Margarita's. "Keep 'em comin'." Kim took the drink and screwed up her nose a little as the salty rim mixed with the deliciously cold beverage hit her tongue. She licked the salt off her lips, almost enjoying the pain.
"What's up Sis?" Amanda plonked herself down beside her sister and tucked her feet up beneath her.
"Nothing's up. I just missed you. It's been so long since we had a girl's weekend."
"And who's fault is that?"
Kim took another mouthful. "Mine." She nodded. "All mine."
Amanda had been surprised when Kim had called and asked to come up for the weekend. She hadn't seen her since the weekend after her broken engagement. They had talked on the phone a few times but Kim had given away little. She could tell she was miserable but Kim insisted she was doing okay, but Amanda had her doubts. She could read Kim better than most.
The day had been spent with Zoe and Amanda could sense that it was just what Kim needed as her mood lightened throughout the day. They had shopped, grabbed a late lunch and finished off with a manicure and pedicure. The perfect girl's day.
As they polished off the first of the Margaritas Amanda just let her talk about her recent court case. It had shaken Kim to the core, rattled every belief she had in her choice of job and in herself. But that wasn't what really had Amanda on edge right now. That wasn't what was making her head throb.
"So, spill." She handed her the second glass and Kim took a long swig.
"I'm worried about Adam."
"Adam? What about Adam? I thought you were seeing Steve or Sean or whatever his name is?" Truthfully Amanda hadn't even bothered to learn his name. What was the point? When Kim started talking about this guy something had settled uneasily over her. Was this the guy that was arguing with his ex while she was shot? Was this the guy that kept telling her that marrying Adam was a mistake? The same guy who hooked up with that grieving mother after her kid died and he shot her ex-husband? No, she wasn't going to even learn his name.
"I am." She ran her finger around the rim of the glass and then licked it. She really did like the pain.
"So why do you care about Adam?"
"He's so self destructive at the moment. I think I know why, he was angry when I started seeing Sean. That's his name by the way. Sean."
Amanda shrugged. Really she didn't care. She didn't like who her sister had become lately. This wasn't Kim. She didn't jump from guy to guy within weeks. She stewed over it for months, grieved and wallowed. This was not her sister. "Didn't answer my question. Why do you care what Adam thinks?" Amanda sipped her drink slowly.
"I didn't break off the engagement because I didn't care about him." Kim felt a little like she was under attack lately. She felt she had been pushed aside a little back at the District and it hurt. Sean told her not to be so sensitive and that they would get over it. He didn't seem to care that she had worked hard to earn everyone's respect and that all seemed to have evaporated. Even Atwater seemed to be a little uncomfortable around her. She felt isolated. "He didn't want to marry me."
"You know that for a fact? You've asked him?" Amanda narrowed her eyes at Kim. "What did he say?"
The bottom of her glass mocked her. It was empty and she desperately wished it wasn't so. She held out her glass to her sister but Amanda just looked straight back at her, waiting for her answer. "I told you what he said. He wanted to push back the wedding date."
Amanda rolled her eyes and pushed herself up off the couch. "So you haven't talked to him yet?"
"He didn't fight for me. Sean…" she bit her lip when she noticed the pained expression on Amanda's face. "What? I get you don't like him, but you don't know him."
"No I don't." Amanda handed her a glass of water along with her cocktail. "But I know you. You don't jump from relationship to relationship in the blink of an eye. You wallow…..for months."
"I had to move on. Sean…."
Amanda held up her hand. "I am sick of hearing about fucking Sean." Kim was taken aback by her sudden outburst but Amanda continued. "When did you become so cold hearted? When did you become such a clueless bitch?" There was only one person in the world that could get away with talking to her like this. "Of course Adam is angry. You dumped him without good reason as far as I can tell and now you are flouncing about the District with another man, a colleague no less and what? Did you expect him to buy you a fucking card?"
"You don't understand." Kim gripped her drink tightly and didn't even bother to try and hide her tears. "He broke my heart."
"And you, my dear sister broke his and now you are dancing on his grave."
"I'm not."
Amanda cocked her head to the side. "No?"
"No. Sean has been a good friend, that's all it was and then lately…."
"You were lonely and hurt and Sean was there. Did I get that right? I mean he gave you all that wonderful advice, that Push test for one. Yep, he's been such a good friend." Sarcasm dripped from Amanda's lips. "And let me guess…."
Kim suddenly threw the empty glass onto the table. It shattered into a hundred pieces and Amanda jumped in her seat. "I loved Adam but he didn't want to marry me. What was I supposed to do? Wait forever?"
Slowly Amanda got up from the couch and headed into the kitchen. She came back with a towel, dustpan and brush and quietly cleaned up the broken glass. "You could have talked to him." She eventually said quietly. Without another word she disappeared back into the kitchen and disposed of the remnants.
Kim sat stone like on the couch. She hands gripped the edge fearing if she let go she would fall. Amanda slipped back onto the couch and tugged on her sister's arm until she fell sobbing against her chest. She leant back against the cushions and pulled Kim with her and let her cry it out. It had been a long time coming. "Is that your phone buzzing?"
"Yep." Slowly Kim pushed herself up and grabbed the phone from her bag. She showed it to Amanda. "Oh Kim, what have you done?"
A/N: I am so not happy with the path this show it taking at the moment. Ruzek has copped a lot of heat about the break-up, quite unfairly. Burgess has a lot to answer for & I hope she realises it before it's too late...anyway...end rant/
