I love you, and don't ever forget that
Chapter 1
How everything began
New story! I hope you will like. It's a little depressing. Be careful. (:
Disclaimer: I do not own Sonny with a Chance.
Chad's POV
I closed my eyes. Another day has passed. My whole body hurt. I wanted to die. I wanted to not feel pain. The flashbacks were in my all mind.
"You're just a silly boy! Nobody loves you, nobody wants you. You were and you're just a mistake. A big mistake."
It was one week. A week since my life has changed.
"Chaaad, we're home!" My mother cried when her and my dad entered in the house. I descended the stairs, and I wanted to hug them.
"No hugs, honey." Mom said. I sighed. I knew they love me, but why they can't show it?
"Son, we got news. Me and your mother we will go on a business trip for several weeks." My dad said.
"Oh. It seems that I will live a few weeks alone." I said sadly.
"Not this time. Your uncle, Brad, wants to come and stay with you. Isn't that wonderful?" My mom said. I smiled forced. I always thought there was something weird about uncle Brad.
And unfortunately, I was right.
"If you will tell your parents about this, I promise you will die." Brad said, hitting my face.
"Please stop hitting me. You hurt me." I begged, tears running down my cheeks.
"You are not worthless. You're just a whiny boy." Brad spat.
I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My face was still hurt. My eyes were red and swollen because of crying every night. Yes, Chad Dylan Cooper cries. I know that I was almost 19, and I was crying like a baby, but I couldn't take it. I wanted to have someone who say to he loves me, but there was no one. My family hated me. I have no friends. And she hates me.
I took the razor. I put my shirt down, and I made a small cut on my right shoulder. I got down to my chest. I sighed, my eyes were closed. Then I made small cuts on my left wrist. Blood dripping on my chest. I washed my wounds, while tears began to flow on my cheeks. I put my shirt, then I lie in bed. I fell asleep breathing hard, feeling the pain of wounds.
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I felt the sun on my face. I opened my eyes slowly, and walked to the window. Sun was warming my body. I thought about her. Maybe she thinks about me? No. It's impossible. She doesn't like me. I wanted her to be with me now. To come and wrapping her arms around my waist, and whisper to me that she loves me. Then I would kiss her, and I told her that I love her more than anything. But that won't happen. I'm just a loser, nobody loves me.
I sighed, and got dressed. I descended the stairs slowly, Brad was still asleep. I went into the kitchen, I was hungry, I haven't eaten anything yesterday. I opened the fridge, and I heard Brad's room door opening. I froze. I took an apple and the car keys then I ran to the door. But I felt a hand on my shoulder. No, no, no. I turned and saw Brad's green and cold eyes.
"Where you're going?" Brad spat.
"Um..at the s-studio." I stutter. I knew that he would hit me. He took my apple.
"You don't eat until you bring home enough money." He said.
"But I'm hungry! Leave me alone Brad, you can't control my life! "I cried. When then hit me. Hard. In the shoulder that I cut last night. I whine, on my shirt was blood. I put my jacket on, and ran to my car, tears running down my cheek. Lucky, the paparazzi weren't in front of my house. I arrived at the studio, and I wiped my tears with the sleeve shirt. I sighed, and walked out of the car, trying to look more natural.
I went into my dressing room, I changed my shirt and then I went on set.
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At lunch, I tried to eat, but I couldn't. Although I was hungry and I knew I would regret later as I didn't ate, I just couldn't.
Suddenly, she entered in the cafeteria. I felt butterflies in my stomach and my palms began to sweat. She seemed so happy, laughing with her friends. I was jealous of her perfect life. Everybody loved her. I felt tears in her eyes again, but I managed to hide them. She walked past my table.
"Hey Chad, are you okay?" She asked looking at me.
"Yeah, why?" I replied, looking down at my food.
"You seem a little distracted for some time." She asked.
"I'm fine." I answered.
"Okay, see you later."
I looked at her, her black hair, her hips moving so easy, even her little ass drove me crazy. I didn't want her to leave, I wanted to stay with her forever. And, without thinking, I got up.
"Sonny!"
She returned, looking at me with her big brown eyes. I approached her, placing a hand on her cheek. I was so close I could feel her breath on my lips and the smell of her shampoo.
"Y-yeah?" She said slowly.
I looked in her eyes. God, I don't think I met someone more perfect in my whole life. How I wish I could tell her how much I love her, how much I think about her. I looked at her perfect face. Her perfect skin, perfect eyes, perfect lips. She looked at me completely fascinated.
Chad Dylan Cooper please came to the set.
I closed my eyes, sighing.
"See you later." I whispered.
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After I finished shooting, I went to the So Random's set. I had to do something to stop myself from thinking about my horrible life.
I entered in the prop house.
"Hey randoms, what's up?" I said leaning against the wall, trying to sound cheerful.
"Chad. I want your opinion. Sonny and Grady say to wear a scarf, but Nico and Zora say to not wear. What I should do?" Tawni said desperate.
"Wow, that's really important. Well, I say to wear it." I said grinning.
"Thanks." She said wrapping her scarf around her neck.
"Um..Sonny. Can I talk a little with you?" I asked timidly.
"Sure." She put rising from the sofa. I didn't know what I was doing. All I wanted it was to talk to her. I didn't care about what.
"Mmm. It seems that something is happening here." Tawni said grinning.
I ignored her, and I went to the hall.
"So Chad, what's up?" Sonny asked, smiling. I didn't answer.
I wrapped my arms around her waist, I put her close to me, our bodies were pressed now. I closed my eyes and put my head on her head, smelling her shampoo. After a few seconds, she wrapped her arms around my neck, putting her head on my shoulder. I sighed, trying hard to not let the tears flow on my cheeks. I stayed like that a long time, enjoying the feeling of warmth, love and happiness that I felt.
"Um..Chad?" Sonny whispered.
"Sorry." I said squeezing her hard in my arms before I let her go. I felt tears running down my face and I turned quickly, before she could see it. I quickly went to my dressing room, I took the keys, and I drove home.
I entered the house slowly, trying to not make noise, I didn't want Brad to hear that I was home.
The house was dark, I climbed the stairs, and I started looking for my room's key in my pockets. I felt two arms pressing me to the door. I turned, and with eyes full of anger, I took Brad's hands. But he was two times stronger than me. He gave me a hard punch in the face, feeling like my head hit the door. A whimper came from my lips. He hit me in the shoulders, and my chest. I managed to get into my room and I shut the door. I went into the bathroom, I gave the shirt and jacket down, I took the razor, and I started to make deep cuts in my chest. Blood flowed down to my stomach. I made cuts on my wrists. I put the wounds that I had on my hands under the water. I put a pair of pajamas pants and a shirt and I took the clothes that I had today. I felt a familiar perfume. I smelled the jacket. Sonny's perfume. I took my shirt to the bed, and I tight it in her arms. I fall asleep, tears running down my cheek.
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