Disclaimer: Just in case the owners wander around fanfiction sites looking for stories without this statement, I don't own Star Trek or any of its characters or devices... [Sadly]...
Prologue
He could barely see, and completely helpless to the piercing and intense commotion transpiring around his body. Helpless.
…So many people…all the colors…blue, yellow, red… those are the primary colors… the colors of the people on the Enterprise… I never noticed how beautiful they look… Not that I could ever notice… My job wouldn't allow me to notice… No… I never allowed myself to notice…to simply enjoy something so obivious… I was always that way…and I was proud of it too…funny, it doesn't seem anything to be proud of now…what do I have to be proud of now?
He saw a familiar face hover over him, it was almost like staring into a mirror. Almost.
Those eyes…they make me feel…warm…my reflection was never that amorous…the eyes that stared back at me were always…cold…dead…but that was easy to ignore…especially when there was nothing to compare them to…this…abomination…had been a nuisance since the day he showed up…
He observed the face that looked over his motionless body, incomprehensible concern shined clearly in his eyes. Incomprehensible.
I am almost embarrassed for you…its like you aren't even bothering to hide it…you have been hiding it…no…you have been fighting it all your life…fighting…all this war…pain and suffering…this war seems pointless now…in the beginning, I had such high hopes…a tingling pleasurable feeling…happiness? Perhaps it was determined by some high power that I should not be exposed to that feeling for too long…happiness…even now…it eases the pain…fascinating…how simple feelings…
He then watched the world go silent, but he could hear the ceaseless movement flowing around him. Ceaseless.
Everything is so…blurred…it feels like a blink of my eyes will bring everything back into focus… but I cant even blink my eyes now…I am so pathetic…what would my subordinates think? … I know what I would think…I would laugh at myself…saying that 'he had it coming'…which I did… I deserve this…no…I don't… is this really what I get for trying to make a difference? …that is all I wanted…peace…happiness for all…what happened to that?
He felt an overpowering surge of emotion take him, but his physical body couldn't muster up the energy to act on them. Overpowering.
…Things have changed… I wondered what would have happened if he didn't show up that one day…maybe I would be still working…doing my job… work…ha…people didn't know the meaning of the word… not until…that one day…it was my fault…millions…no…billions of lives lost…planets consumed…families torn apart…so much pain…suffering…death…so much…death…pointless…death…all my…fault…blame…my fault…why? …death…pointless…me
He started to lose vision, he managed to see the face stare at him dead in the eyes with that incomprehensible concern. Dead.
A/N: Okay anybody want to guess who these two are? Special prizes if you get it correct! Haha, not really but I am interested if it's clear or…not so clear…Anyway, this tidbit is just a part from an idea I have floating around in my head. Not sure if I should pursue this idea or not, but I figure I will anyway since I need to write more and TOS is just so addictive. Anyway, I am sure everything will make more sense and whatnot after the first chapters…then good ole fashion sci-fi drama and action! Comments and criticism is always welcomed since I enjoy people's opinions and still have buckets to learn.
