This fanficiton will be told from Sora's point of view. I am also adding Sora's personal thoughts, which will be marked in Italics, and whenever Sora has a flashback, it will be in Italics, and will refer to Sora in the third person.
I will also be using different kinds of fonts for: text messages, voice messages, chat or im's, letters, songs on the radio, ect.
When I want to indicate, or stress a scene change, without all the writing, I will mark it by (new place)
This fanficiton will be GuyxGuy, GirlxGirl, and GirlxGuy. Don't expect any descriptions. Laughs
As for the Disclaimer, Pretty much everything in here belongs to square soft, and if I add something that is mine, I will post it within the disclaim above that chapter.
I also do not own the song "Life is like a boat, or Niki FM, or Warning. The owners are as following:
Life is like a boat- Rie Fu
Niki FM-Hawthorne heights
Warning-Incubus
If I put something perosnal into the story i will specify it as (IFAB: insert something here) IFAB Intresting Fact About Brandon.
(IFAB: Rie Fu is a very good Japanese Female singer who sings some songs in part English/Japanese. I completely adore her music.)
I do, however own one special character. My friend Jess inspires her. Jess, you have always been there for me, thank you! You will find her personality in this story very similar to hers in real life, well for those of us who are lucky enough to actually know her. I also own Riku's Cell Number! HA! Throws all my stuff in little box. Tightens chains over box. Screams MINE! Rubs box "My precious."
If you would like to read some of Jess' stories search for princessOFdarknes !
Also if I add anything based upon my personality in the story I will show that by placing it in within (IFAB: Insert interesting fact here!) (IFAB Interesting Facts About Brandon)
Thank you. Please R&R!
I ran through the darkness of my subconscious. "Kairi!" I screamed. Over and over again, I repeated myself. "Kairi." I fell to my knees, exhausted from running around.
Kairi. Where are you? My head fell towards the ground. I must have called your name a million times. My eyes begin to get wet as I begin to cry. "Kairi!" I scream out, answered by only my echo. The tears ran down my cheek. "K-ai-ai-ri," I stuttered. I sat up, and whipped the tears from my eyes. "Who am I kidding?" I begin to cry once again. "I never wanted to find you. And if I didn't it would be much easier to tell everyone that-"
"Tell everyone what, Sora?" A familiar voice from within the darkness called.
"R-r-ik-ku?" I was glad to be around someone else. "Why didn't you answer? I was calling for Kairi, but you could have answered." I was angered, enraged, but yet I was still happy he was here.
"Well Sora, why were you calling for Kairi?" I strained to see him, but I still couldn't.
As he asked this question, I turned my head. "I love her."
"Is she here for you, Sora?" He asked, chuckling afterwards.
"No." My reply echoed in my ears. Riku chuckled once again.
"Then go ahead and admit it Sora. C'mon it's really obvious." His voice, it sounded so - official. Like he was there for one thing and one thing only.
What could he possibly be talking about? I do I love Kairi. Now, I'll just scream it at him. I opened my mouth to yell. Nothing, no sound at all came out.
"You're going to lie to me, aren't you Sora?" Riku asked.
"No," I paused and began to reassess my thoughts. "At least I don't think so."
No. I don't want to tell him. Not yet. But...Everything fell silent including my thoughts. "It's the only way." I mumbled under my breath.
"What was that?" Riku asks sounding more excited as if this - my personal torture excited him.
Just do it. DO IT! I gave myself a pep talk through my thoughts. "Riku," I gulped. "I love-" I paused.
"Yes?" he asked, egging me on.
"You." as I said it, I blushed.
"There now was that so hard?" I hear him say, followed by the ruffling of fabric.
That sounds familiar. Yea, it's clothing. Just as I thought that Riku stepped out of the darkness. There in front of me stood a shirtless Riku. His defined abs, smooth purplish hair, muscular arms, and pale completion were enough to make me melt on the inside. He made his way over to me extended a hand downwards. I looked up, my eyes still watery from the crying. I grasp his hand. I pull myself into his arms. He holds me for a couple of minutes. He slightly pushes me back. "Sora," he paused. "Why did you take so long to tell me?"
"I don't know. Maybe I was scared." I turned my head away from him. He places a hand on my cheek. Pulling my face, making me look at him.
"Scared of what?" He asked staring deeply into my eyes. It was hard not to look at his absolutely georgeus emerald green eyes that no one else I knew had.
"Losing you." I quietly replied.
"You'll never lose me." He leaned forward. Guessing we were about to kiss, I leaned forward also. Before I knew it, our mouths were mashed together. Open, our tongues exploring each other's mouths we stood there kissing. Nothing but silence, and an occasional smack of our lips.
Suddenly the silence was penetrated by a loud, echoing BEEP. Everything became fuzzy.
I sprang forward, realizing I was still in bed. I sat up for a couple minutes, and then whipped the sweat off of my forehead before I reached up and smacked my alarm clock. I lay there staring at my white ceiling hoping - no, wishing - that one-day my dream would come true. I was immediately snapped back to reality when I heard knocking on my door.
"Sora! You better get up. I am not driving you to school today." said a soft female voice.
"Alright Jess, duly noted." I replied to my sister.
"Come on! Get up, you." I heard her go stomping down the hall. That's my sister for you. Sometimes annoying, but most of the time sweet and kind. You know she's not like most sisters. She the kind that will be there for you no matter what... unless there is a REALLY good reason she can't be.
I jumped up and ran to my closet door, grabbed a dark blue shirt, and some baggy jeans off their hangers, ran to my dresser and grabbed some socks, and my maroon boxers. Running to my bedroom door I opened it and ran down the hall into the kitchen, placed my cloths on the table and got into the fridge. Jess who was cooking on the stove turned around. "Oh." she said as she put her hand up over her eyes. "Put some clothes on." I pulled a juice box out of the fridge closed the door and looked down.
"I have boxers on." I laughed.
"I don't care." She said as she turned back around facing the stove. She picked up the spatula and started messing with the eggs. "Hurry up and get ready." she said.
"Alright." I replied as I chugged my juice box and threw it away. I grabbed my clothes and headed down the hall to the bathroom closing the door behind me and locking it turning on the water trying to make it that perfect relaxing temperature, that perfect mixture of hot and cold. I slipped off my plain white boxers. Grabbing onto the wall, I stepped into the large glass square shower and closed the door. I reached for the soap. There were suddenly knocks on the door. I was so startled I dropped the soap.
"Sora! You little punk!" It was Jess - and boy was she angry. I laughed loudly making sure it was loud enough for her to hear. "You better hurry up!" She stormed down the hall. I lathered my washcloth, and began to lather my body.
Should I tell Riku? I think he has a right to know. I started thinking about the first class I had with Riku. First period P.E. Oh great! I thought. For some time now, the thought Riku in his boxers has made me a little excited, if you know what I mean. I washed the soap off my body. I'll worry about it later. I reached for the shampoo and began to lather my hair. As I moved my hands back and fourth, I began to sing.
" Bat your eyes girl, be otherworldly Count your blessings, seduce a stranger what's so wrong with being happy? Kudos to those who see through sickness yeah... " I began rinsing my hair under the running water. "Over and over and over and over" I closed my mouth when I felt the water and shampoo combination run down my cheek. After it was all out of my hair, I turned off the water and slightly opened the door. I grabbed a towel off the rack and wrapped it around my waist. I grabbed my clothes, and peaked out the bathroom door. Seeing Jess was not in view, I ran down the hall to my room. When I was standing in my room, before closing the door I yelled "Bathroom's open!"
"Finally" she screamed as she charged down the hall. I closed my door and locked it. I removed my towel, and threw it on my bed. I walked to my dresser and took a look at myself in the mirror. How should I tell him? I placed a hand in the air, pretending I had placed it on Riku's shoulder.
"Riku," I paused, searching for the words that should come out of my mouth next. "I-" I was interrupted by the ringing of my cell phone. I ran to my nightstand and picked it up. The caller ID read: Riku's Cell 165-4135
I quickly flipped it open and answered it. "Hello?"
"Hey, what are you doing?" He asked his voice cool and calm as ever.
I turned white and I looked I my mirror. OH GOD! I quickly thought. I have to lie. I can't tell him that I am standing here naked practicing how i am going to tell him i am gay!
"Finishing up my French homework." I quickly lied.
"I was just wanting to make sure you didn't forget our science project. We need to store it in the classroom today." He laughed.
"Alrighty, I won't."
"Alright, bye." He hung up, and I heard a click before I could form a bye of my own.
I lay my cell back down on my bed, and resume the position I was standing in before Riku called. "Riku," I began, once again finding myself to search for the words. "I'm not going to beat around the bush. I'm going to come out and say it." I gulped. I was nervous, like Riku was actually standing here. "Riku, I'm gay." I pretended that Riku was fine with it. Knowing that he might now be, I chose this option. Being the optimist that I am. "This may be the worst part for you. I like you."
I stood there for a couple moments. Being brought back to reality when I heard the noise of my school bus motoring down the road. Realizing I was still naked, I knew there was no way I was going to catch the bus. I grabbed my cell. I dialed Kairi's number. I knew it so well, I didn't even have to look at the place where my fingers grazed across the buttons.
"Hello Sora." she answered. She has been so cheerful lately like a little girl who just got a new kitten or something.
"Hey, I need a favor." I asked, as I clenched the phone between my cheek, and shoulder so I could pull on my boxers.
"What do you need?" She asked quickly. I head her radio in the background.
I pulled on my shorts. "I need a ride." I said.
"Alright be there in five. Bye." Just as Riku did, she hung up the phone, before I could say goodbye. What is it with people these days? Do they not want someone to say goodbye to them? Well for now on I won't!
I slid my phone into my pocket and slid my shirt on. I ran to my door, opened it and ran into the kitchen right passed Jess. She turned wearing an apron and holding a spatula. "Sora! What about breakfast?" She stood just starring at me.
"No time." Boy, if looks could kill. I would have died at least ten times right there. I grabbed my book bag and ran out the door. I walked to end of my driveway and waited about 2 minutes for Kairi to pull up in her pink convertible sports car.
I opened the door. "Hey Sora." She gave me a kiss on the cheek. I sat down, not wanting to talk. Only able to rub my cheek. She turned the radio station. "Here we go." she smiled and put the car in drive.
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who is going to comfort me,
and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake
inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can see the shore
Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu
inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can see the shore
Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne
(Life Is Like A Boat, Rie Fu)
As the song finished Kairi was pulling into the school.
Should I tell her? We have been friends for a while. I think she'd understand.
"Kairi-" I began.
"Yeah?" She replied. Parking the car, she turned it off and faced me. I opened my mouth. No sound came out. She giggled as I struggled to form my next sentence in my head.
"I um... Oh man it sure is hard to tell you this!" I turned my head away from her feeling embarrased.
"Well go ahead and tell me. I will be ok with whatever you say. Even if you were telling me you were gay." She smiled. This comment, made me feel better. I didn't feel as afraid to tell her.
How does she know i am going to tell her? Is it that obvious. I always thought I was a little flamboyaunt, but i thought it was in a cool kind of way, not a girly gay kind of way. Well, if it's that obvious, then it shouldn't be hard to tell anyone. But I was hoping i didn't have to tell anyone.
"Kairi," I began. "I, I'm g-gay." I felt the tears swell up in my eyes. To keep them from rolling down my cheeks, I closed my eyes.
Oh no. She was wrong. She is going to hate me. I can't even look at her. Will it be this bad when I tell Riku? Naturally reacting, I grabbed my book bag, and reached for the car door handle.
"Sora. Wait." She said in that happy voice she has had recently. I was confused. She just found out that her best friend was gay. And yet she was still happy? "Don't be ashamed to be gay." I turned back and looked at her. "It's not something to be ashamed of. I mean once you find someone you get happy. Happy, happy like I''ve been." She tightened up after she said it.
Does that mean, Kairi's a - I thought. Cut off by Kairi.
"Well, the cat's out of the bag." She giggled. "For about the past month, I have been sneaking around with Yuffie." She smiled.
Oh wow. I thought
"Kairi," I began. "I never would have guessed." She nodded. "But I gotta go. Can we talk later?" she nodded and we both got out of the car. "Bye." I called. Yes, I finally said bye to someone before they could say it to me. I ran to the large doors of the front building. I pulled it open and ran in. Running down the hall, I slipped. Yes, do not mock my carelessness to notice the wet floor sign. I got back up, and continued running. As you can tell I don't learn from my mistakes. What person in their right mind, would slip on a wet floor, and then run on it again? Well appearently I would.
I ran through the gym, down the hall to the locker room. I barely nudged the door open. There stood Riku. In nothing but his boxers. His defined abs, and muscular arms, his muscles moving and flexing with every move he made. Riku slipped his shorts on as I decided to walk in. I pushed the door open so it hit the wall letting all the others know I have arrived. No one noticed. They just kept on talking. I dropped my bookbag and began to undress. I slipped off my shirt. Just then Riku's head popped up and he looked at me still tieing his shoe.
"Hey Sora." He smiled.
"Hey Riku." I replied. He picked up his shirt. Las chance to sneek a peek, I thoughtAs he put on his shirt I scanned him up and down. When I reached his emerald green eyes I noticed he had been scanning me too. We both smiled and laughed. I quickly threw on my clothes and followed him out the door.
"Riku, Wait up." I called down the hall way. He stoped walking, and turned around.
"Yeah?" He asked as he smiled. I placed my hand on his shoulder, just as I had practiced. "Riku, I need to get this off my chest." I searched for the right words.
"Yeah?" Riku asked, sounding very intreged.
I opened my mouth, and no sound came out. I tried again. "Riku, I'm gay. And I like you." Riku pushed my hand off his sholder an ran down the hall.
"Don't talk to me!" I heard him say as he ran away.
Sora's House
I walked in my room, threw my stuff down on the floor, and threw myself on my bed. I was so exhausted. I have never felt so tired before. And I didn't know if it was from school or having to deal with Riku's screwed up attitude with me being gay. He had avoided me all day. Not looking at me one time whenever I passed him in the halls. He just kept his head down and went right on walking. Each time I passed him I felt like punching him. He's supposed to be my friend! He was supposed to understand! I laid there thinking, thinking about the only other time Riku and I had fought.
A much younger Riku, and a younger Sora, sit on a bench in the park. "Riku" Sora began. "I'm Sorry." Scooted closer to Riku.
"It's ok." Riku said. "It was stupid of us to fight over Kairi, even though we both knew she would pick Leon." Riku's head dropped.
"Yea, I know." Sora added. "Let's promise to never fight again."
"Deal."Riku said as they both stood up. They took each other in a large embrace, only standing there, both smiling.
I felt myself fall asleep.
I was awoken by the ringing of my cell phone. "Who the hell would call at this time?" I looked at the caller ID: Riku's Cell 165-4135. I flipped my phone open.
"Hello?" Riku asked quietly. His voice sounded shaky like he'd been crying.
He's really upset, I thought.
"Hey." I replied trying to sound angry with him. Knowing he was upset I couldn't truely be angry with him.
"Sora, I'm sorry about today." He paused. "Do you want an explination? I think I owe you that much."
"Sure, that would be nice." I snapped back.
"Well Sora, I am gay too." He said.
"Then what the hell gave you the right to react like that when I told you I was gay?" I asked. Now I was truely angry. Enraged, if you will.
"Well I like you Sora, and by like I mean more than a friend."
"Well I like you too R-" he interupted me.
"Let me finish." He cleared his throat. "I just didn't want to admit it to myself before you admited something to me. You know, ignor it and it goes away."
"Yeah." I said. We both laughed.
"Well I was wanting to know if you would meet me at the park tomorrow after school. So we can talk."
"Riku," I began. "Tomorrow is Saturday." we both laughed. "Be there at noon." I finally said.
"Alright, goodnight." Riku said, this time not hanging up so quick.
"Nite." I replied as I hit the end call button on my phone.
Tomorrow ,will be great. I yawned. I fell asleep, dreaming of tomorrow at that park.
