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To my wonderful husband,

I know you'll never understand why I had to do this.

I know you'll shake you head and say never when I say this next part but you know it's true. I know you'll hate me for this.

I know I was never enough for you but you put up with me and for that I thank you.

I know deep down you probably did love me. Really love me. Deep down. But it was too deep. After time we grew apart but I will always love you. Never forget that.

I know you'll probably think there was something you could have done. You'll think you could have stopped me but it wasn't who drove me to this. I hope after this letter you'll finally understand.

I suppose now I should tell you why I overdosed. Because as everyone probably knows it was on purpose.

I wanted to end the pain.

I know you'll think "What pain?" you always thought everything was perfect but it wasn't. I didn't tell you I was pregnant. I found out too late. I didn't know until I miscarried.

You may say we could have worked through it but then it happened again. It was as if history had repeated itself. It was a curse. I knew I would never be able to have a child of my own. Then you started talking about maybe having a baby together and I got afraid that you would leave me once you knew I couldn't have a baby. I thought of telling you but any time I tried we ended up talking about something else. Things started getting worse when I lost my job and we were in debt but then we had that argument and I ran off. That is where I am now as I write this. I know it may be weeks before you see this but I needed you to know that this was not your fault.

I love you with my whole heart and I always will (even though it has stopped beating).

I will be with you forever.

Lots of Love

Your wife

Hermionexxx

Blaise wiped the tear that had escaped his eye. Hermione had been dead for two weeks and Blaise had thought he was finally getting past it but now all the pain, the grief, tore him apart as much as the moment he found out. As he reread the letter he felt the tears he had been holding back for the last two weeks, pouring down his cheeks.

I know you'll shake you head and say never when I say this next part but you know it's true. I know you'll hate me for this.

She was right. He had thought never as soon as he read it. But now he knew she was right. He hated her for making him feel this pain. The grief.

I know you'll probably think there was something you could have done. You'll think you could have stopped me but it wasn't who drove me to this.

She was right again. Of course there was something Blaise could have done. He shouldn't have spent so long at work all the time. He should have noticed she was upset. He shouldn't have pushed her so hard to try for a baby.

I know you'll never understand why I had to do this.

Again she was right. He didn't understand. He tried. He really tried. But he couldn't understand why she couldn't just tell him. They could have worked through it if they had wanted to.

And although she was right about pretty much everything on the letter she was wrong about one thing.

I know deep down you probably did love me. Really love me. Deep down. But it was too deep. After time we grew apart.

True they had stopped talking as much and in a way he supposed they did drift apart. But he always loved her with his whole heart and nothing less. It wasn't too deep. Blaise had always known it was there. But obviously, she didn't.

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