My last breath
"Dialogue" 'Thinking' /Talking on the phone\ ~~Lyrics~~
Sakura was in the kitchen. Staring at the knives. Wondering which one of them she would use to end her sad, pathetic, excuse for a life. They were all sharpened from the night before. There was of course; the butcher knife, the bread knife, the smallest and sharpest knife, and, and, her favourite knife was gone. 'Dammit' she thought. 'Well you could always use the small one.' A voice in her head told her.
The phone rang. 'Dammit' she thought. "Now, who the Hell could that be?" she muttered.
/Sakura. Look. It's me. I know you're there. Please pick up. I need to tell you how sorry I am. We didn't want you to find out this way.\ he continued. She picked the phone up. "Look. Forget it. It's your own damn fault. YOU slept with my best friend. Not me YOU. Just, remember that, this is your fault not mine. I didn't go and ask you to go fuck my best friend behind my back im our own home" she said tears forming in her dull emerald eyes. /Sakura. You know it's not like that\ he continued. "Don't you DARE go calling me Sakura. It's Kinomoto to you." She said. "Only friends call me Sakura. And you, you're the farthest thing from a friend right now." /I know you still love me. Just, don't deny it. You'll just be lying to yourself.\ "alright. Look. I do love you, okay. But you hurt me so bad." She said crying. "why did you have to go and do that anyway, huh? Wasn't I good enough for you? Was I ever "worthy of your love"? Have you ever really loved me? How long has this been going on for?" she asked. All in one breath. /Well you see,\ he started /Me And Tomoyo felt so very attracted to each other and well, we just couldn't deny. You know you were always good enough for me. Too good. Of course you were worthy of my love. I've never stopped loving you, but, I sorta love Tomoyo too. It's been going on for the last nine months\ he finished. "Wow. Nine months, and you thought I never suspected a thing. How stupid do you think I am? You think I didn't notice that everything smelt of lavender and vanilla, just like her. And, when we made love you'd moan out her name. At first, I thought nothing of it. But, then again first impressions aren't always right, are they, love?" she asked him menacingly. "Well. You'll never see me again. But, just remember, I love you more than life itself. Goodbye Syaoran, I'll miss you. Remember that you hold a special space inside my hear, forever." /what do yo\ he was cut short because Sakura slammed the phone back into its cradle.
'now where was I up to?' she asked herself. 'ah yes, now I remember' she thought.
Instead of using one of the larger knives she goes to her room and takes out a crimson Swiss army knife. The one that she had used just last night.
She lifts up both her shirtsleeves to reveal bandaged arms. She carefully peels the bandages off and throws them in the rubbish bin.
The next step, she knows is going to be the hardest. She feels her hands getting weak and shaky but she doesn't care. She slashed her right wrist deeply, pit pat, blood falling little by little on the carpet, slash, there goes the other wrist. 'oh well, the carpet can be cleaned, the house sold.' She thought silently to herself, when; the doorbell rang 'fucken hell' she thought. 'Who the hell can this be?'
"Sakura. I know you're there" a voice called. She remembered it as Syaoran's.
He kicked the door open easily.
She could feel darkness coming on. She knew that she only had ten minutes at the most left.
Then, he saw her, sprawled on the floor, blood leaking from both of her wrists. He looked at her. "w-wha-what hap-penn-ed to you?" he asked softly. Tear welling in his eyes.
Then, all of a sudden, the radio turned on. Evenesence's "My last breath" came on. Matching the atmosphere perfectly.
~~ hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and I'm not afraid
can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?~~
"hold me Syaoran" she whispered. He held her close just as she had asked. Her body was limp and light as a feather. Just as he had remembered it.
~~ Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight~~
"I love you Sakura" he said. Crying openly. "and I'm not going to lose you." Not caring whether anyone saw him or not. "you know I love you more than anything Syaoran. Just kiss me." And he did.
~~ I'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears~~
"Tell everyone I love them and not to worry." He acted as if he hadn't heard her. He wasn't going to let her go. He didn't care he just wouldn't.
~~ closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there~~
She closed her eyes lightly. "Open your eyes" he said. She did. "Goodbye Syaoran. Don't be afraid because I'll be in heaven watching over you." With that she kissed him lightly on his soft, sensual lips an closed her eyes. This time permanently.
~~ say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black~~
She got dizzy and her world tilted and slowly turned to black. The last thing she heard was Syaoran calling her name.
No one would ever see those ever so lively emerald green eyes again. No one would see that smile again, the one that could melt stones. And nobody would ever hear that sweet voice again. The one that sounded cheerful and sweet. Like silver bells.
My notes:
Well. I almost cried writing that. I hope that you all like it as well. Please review. I think that was very sad.
"Dialogue" 'Thinking' /Talking on the phone\ ~~Lyrics~~
Sakura was in the kitchen. Staring at the knives. Wondering which one of them she would use to end her sad, pathetic, excuse for a life. They were all sharpened from the night before. There was of course; the butcher knife, the bread knife, the smallest and sharpest knife, and, and, her favourite knife was gone. 'Dammit' she thought. 'Well you could always use the small one.' A voice in her head told her.
The phone rang. 'Dammit' she thought. "Now, who the Hell could that be?" she muttered.
/Sakura. Look. It's me. I know you're there. Please pick up. I need to tell you how sorry I am. We didn't want you to find out this way.\ he continued. She picked the phone up. "Look. Forget it. It's your own damn fault. YOU slept with my best friend. Not me YOU. Just, remember that, this is your fault not mine. I didn't go and ask you to go fuck my best friend behind my back im our own home" she said tears forming in her dull emerald eyes. /Sakura. You know it's not like that\ he continued. "Don't you DARE go calling me Sakura. It's Kinomoto to you." She said. "Only friends call me Sakura. And you, you're the farthest thing from a friend right now." /I know you still love me. Just, don't deny it. You'll just be lying to yourself.\ "alright. Look. I do love you, okay. But you hurt me so bad." She said crying. "why did you have to go and do that anyway, huh? Wasn't I good enough for you? Was I ever "worthy of your love"? Have you ever really loved me? How long has this been going on for?" she asked. All in one breath. /Well you see,\ he started /Me And Tomoyo felt so very attracted to each other and well, we just couldn't deny. You know you were always good enough for me. Too good. Of course you were worthy of my love. I've never stopped loving you, but, I sorta love Tomoyo too. It's been going on for the last nine months\ he finished. "Wow. Nine months, and you thought I never suspected a thing. How stupid do you think I am? You think I didn't notice that everything smelt of lavender and vanilla, just like her. And, when we made love you'd moan out her name. At first, I thought nothing of it. But, then again first impressions aren't always right, are they, love?" she asked him menacingly. "Well. You'll never see me again. But, just remember, I love you more than life itself. Goodbye Syaoran, I'll miss you. Remember that you hold a special space inside my hear, forever." /what do yo\ he was cut short because Sakura slammed the phone back into its cradle.
'now where was I up to?' she asked herself. 'ah yes, now I remember' she thought.
Instead of using one of the larger knives she goes to her room and takes out a crimson Swiss army knife. The one that she had used just last night.
She lifts up both her shirtsleeves to reveal bandaged arms. She carefully peels the bandages off and throws them in the rubbish bin.
The next step, she knows is going to be the hardest. She feels her hands getting weak and shaky but she doesn't care. She slashed her right wrist deeply, pit pat, blood falling little by little on the carpet, slash, there goes the other wrist. 'oh well, the carpet can be cleaned, the house sold.' She thought silently to herself, when; the doorbell rang 'fucken hell' she thought. 'Who the hell can this be?'
"Sakura. I know you're there" a voice called. She remembered it as Syaoran's.
He kicked the door open easily.
She could feel darkness coming on. She knew that she only had ten minutes at the most left.
Then, he saw her, sprawled on the floor, blood leaking from both of her wrists. He looked at her. "w-wha-what hap-penn-ed to you?" he asked softly. Tear welling in his eyes.
Then, all of a sudden, the radio turned on. Evenesence's "My last breath" came on. Matching the atmosphere perfectly.
~~ hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and I'm not afraid
can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?~~
"hold me Syaoran" she whispered. He held her close just as she had asked. Her body was limp and light as a feather. Just as he had remembered it.
~~ Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight~~
"I love you Sakura" he said. Crying openly. "and I'm not going to lose you." Not caring whether anyone saw him or not. "you know I love you more than anything Syaoran. Just kiss me." And he did.
~~ I'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears~~
"Tell everyone I love them and not to worry." He acted as if he hadn't heard her. He wasn't going to let her go. He didn't care he just wouldn't.
~~ closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there~~
She closed her eyes lightly. "Open your eyes" he said. She did. "Goodbye Syaoran. Don't be afraid because I'll be in heaven watching over you." With that she kissed him lightly on his soft, sensual lips an closed her eyes. This time permanently.
~~ say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black~~
She got dizzy and her world tilted and slowly turned to black. The last thing she heard was Syaoran calling her name.
No one would ever see those ever so lively emerald green eyes again. No one would see that smile again, the one that could melt stones. And nobody would ever hear that sweet voice again. The one that sounded cheerful and sweet. Like silver bells.
My notes:
Well. I almost cried writing that. I hope that you all like it as well. Please review. I think that was very sad.
