This is my first fan fiction, I hope it's not too bad but I have to start somewhere right? Anyways, this story takes place in New Moon. PLease review tell me if it's worth continuing or not. Enjoy!
Bombs were falling; bullets fell like rain, the dead lay everywhere.
I am Jasper Whitlock the youngest Major in the Texas Calvary. Having To endure as I did I sure as hell earned my position. The only thing that kept me sane and going through those endless fights was the chain I wore around my neck and the occasional letters I got. The day that changed everything was utterly boring until I met three women on my way to the next check point when I came across them I was stunned by their beauty. But if I had known what they had in store for me then, I would never have stopped or even gone near them.
"Can I help you ladies?" My instinct ordering me to protect.
"The one on the right spoke up, her eyes rolling lethargically in her head. "Maria you do it you know I can't stop once I start."
And that's all I remember the rest is lost.
Normally a newborn will try and forget their human life, making their new life seem more acceptable. But I chose to think, to dwell, I chose to think about her. The way her Blonde hair would become lose at the end of a long day, a smile creeping upon her face when she sees me, throwing her head back in laughter when I make jokes, the long hot Texas summers by the river, all of those stolen kisses, her deep blue eyes that would sparkle at the sight of me, about everything she did…because I adored all of her including her perfect flaws. There wasn't one thing I didn't love about her…not one thing.
I still seem to think of her, yes I have Alice but in truth my heart will always belong to Kathleen. I still wear the silver chain around my neck with my ring around my neck. I still wish I could have seen her one last time. I couldn't bring myself to go back and see her smile knowing that I wasn't the reason for it as selfish as it sounds. But if that was selfish than I'm glad to be selfish, she's the love of my life. I looked up and found that the bell had rang and people had started to clear Alice's hand stuck out for me to grab. I did and walked silently through the hall stuck in a trance of Kathleen.
As the music started to play and bride's maids descended I looked back and up at the stairs. I've seen this play out over and over again all being like the one before and the one before that. I looked at my feet then back up and she started her walk down the stair a slight smile on her pink lips, her blue eyes playful and full of energy. I couldn't take my eyes off of her, her baby blue dress tailored on the waist but flared out at the hips into a full skirt. Her eyes met mine for a brief second and she blushed a rose color on her tan skin. I turned and watched her and even when the bride came I watched only her she kept her eyes on me and gave me a small wave, I tilted my head in her direction and her smile got bigger. The entire ceremony our eyes met each other, I wanted so badly to go ever there and hold her in my arms but that would have to wait until the reception, which couldn't have come sooner. I had this strange feeling where it too hard to breath and I couldn't stay still I searched around for her and spotted her dancing with Ryan Dixon and it was easy to tell by the way he's acting that he liked her as well. I had known Ryan since I was a boy we used to play until we were 15 and I had noticed how different we really were. His father was a very successful business man and had a very privileged upbringing. Where I had worked the fields (and I still do) my father believed that it would teach me to appreciate what I had and it did. We had this relationship now where he would glare and act as if I was worth less than him. My instinct telling me to get her away from him because if his relationship with women, so I walked over and intervened. "Excuse me, can I have this dance?" I asked smiling slightly at her and offering my hand out to her. She smiled and nodded her small hand gently falling into mine and her hand resting on my shoulder. I took her hand and pulled her slender frame to me and began to move in time to the music, all the while our eyes never left each other's. With her in my arms it felt as if something I hadn't realized was missing was now here. I felt complete there. We didn't talk we just danced.
"I'm Kathleen, and you are?" She asked sweetly her head inclined up words to mine. I smirked and looked down at her.
"Jasper."
"Well jasper I would like to see you again, if it possible?" She said blushing her head looking down at the Blue Bonnet flowers that grew wild.
"I'd like nothing more than to see you again, goodnight." I turned to walk away but her hand grabbed mine, a grin irrupting from her face.
"I'll be at the river where that big weeping willow is." I opened my mouth to speak but she shook her head and put a finger to my mouth. "Don't say anything if it's meant to be you'll be there, waiting for me." She ran off and looked back at me to wave but kept running. I shook my head. How could this girl be so full of life and love at her age? I went home thinking about her and I got up thinking about her. I wasn't going to work the fields so I rushed through breakfast and went to wait by the only weeping willow tree by the river. I paced and decided to let my feet rest in the water by noon, when I heard a horse ride up I looked over and saw a white horse getting tied to the tree by Kathleen she ran over and sat by me a smile across her face. "You came!" She said.
"How could I not, I wasn't going to leave until you showed up, it's meant to be now?"
"Good, I couldn't bare it if it wasn't." She said looking at the river water. I reached over and brushed a stray hair from my neck she glanced over and blushed. This is the girl I've been waiting on. It was on impulse I know but it's all I could think about.
"Marry me?" I asked lying back on an elbow casually, she looked over wide eyed but I could tell she was thinking about an answer. She got up and I followed suit. I hope I haven't ruined anything.
"What if I say no?" She asked leaning against the tree. I shook my head and came face to face with her.
"Then I would have to change your mind."
"How would you change my mind if I say no?" She asked smiling. I leaned down and pressed my lips on to hers I felt my arms go around her waist and her arms go around my neck. I pulled back for a second and looked at her in her eyes they were on fire. "Yes." She nodded and our lips met once again. I couldn't have imagined a better moment in my entire life.
I will admit that I feel like a sham whenever I see Alice, I feel as if I'm cheating on her with a ghost from my past. But Alice knows about Kathleen and so does Edward but only because he can read minds and Alice only knows because she knows my heart will always belong to Kathleen, my first love. I sat down at the lunch table and made small conversation with my family. I still have the urge to start drinking the blood of humans, the warm blood going down my dry throat… Edward cleared his throat and gave me a glare. I looked out the window and focused on the rain pouring down it's relaxing to hear the rain to smell it and to just look at it.
Kathleen POV.
I watched as the rain fell onto the cold pavement, the rain started to collect in a puddle before I stood to leave. I fallowed Kane into the crowded streets. I went through the motions but didn't put my mind to use. The soft conversations between us were boring and not very stimulating so I gave little input and fallowed him. It's been years since I've been to Washington so I took in the cloudy weather and rain. After a while we stopped walking and he looked down at me. I gave a small smile in return. "let's eat shall we?" I nodded and looked around at all the people. This is the hardest thing for me, how am I supposed to just pick someone and end their life? But I composed myself and shook my head.
"You pick." He smirked and nodded. I waited for him to make the choice. After a few moments of deliberating he chose two males, I walked over and smiled at them both. "Excuse me I know I'm bothering you but I need some help with my car." I pointed over to a dark alley, this being a shady part of town and me being well me they agreed and fallowed me. Kane blocked the side and took one of the men and started to drain him. I took the other and drank slowly before he went dry. I let go and gently let him go to the ground.
"Kate I'll meet you at the car." I nodded and watched as he left; looking back down at the man I felt my heart drop as it always does after I feed. If Jasper could see me now he'd be horrified and disgusted. How could anyone love a monster? I know I don't love Kane as much as he thinks I do. I put the black sunglasses on and walked over the car. I got in and stayed silent. I don't have anything to say and Kane always likes to talk so I gave nudges in the right direction that keeps him talking. He talked about this coven of vampires in Forks that he wants to meet and maybe even stay a few days to get to know them. I agreed and turned to the window looking out into the woods, letting my mind wander off into my old memories.
Tears fell form my eyes as I walked to the river's edge. It's been 3 months since they told me that Jasper never made it to his check point. They said that he was most likely killed and that his body would never be found. As soon as the words escaped the man's lips I died inside. Now I'm left here by myself with nothing left. Falling next to the willow tree I let myself go. I don't care if I never get found, or if I die alone at the waters age. Actually I welcome it, what am I supposed to do without him? Go on with my life as if nothing ever happened, forget his face, lips and smile? Love another man and have children? No I can't do it, I won't do it. He is the only man that I want the only man I need. This is what I was afraid would happen. I knew that something would go wrong and he'd get hurt or worse…dead. But he was young so was i, I thought he would be a true hero and come home to me safely. He passed through the ranks fast and he soon became a major. That's when I didn't see or hear from him, not that I expected ot I mean he has obligations to the war and the group of men he now leads into the battles.
But he wouldn't lead them anymore or ever come home to me. He would never kiss my lips or any of the things he did before. For the first time in my life I feel truly alone. Getting to my fee I looked down at eh water, the moon's reflection shining bright. What would happen if I just jump? If I let the rivers carry me off and just let the water consume me? I was about to take that step into the water when I heard a deep voice. "I wouldn't do that if I were you." I jerked my head towards him and backed up to the tree. I've never seen this man and I don't have a good feeling about him. Jasper never snuck up on me like that…he'd never get the chance either.
"Why? Who are you?" I asked my voice giving out; I haven't talked to anyone since I was told about Jasper. So I'm sure that I sound horrible. He smiled and took a step forward. His dark hair was long and tied back but a few hairs managing to escape. I must say he is extremely attractive. But he has nothing on Jasper. But fear struck me as I looked in to his red eyes.
"Kane, that's who I am, and I know for a fact that as soon as you take that step you will regret it. There is so much you don't understand." He gave a laugh and took yet another step closer.
"You don't know anything about me." I defended myself and pressed myself harder against the tree. He just smiled and shook his head; something about this action unnerved me.
"I know more than you think I do. I've watched you and studied you as I do all of my companions, and might I say you are by far the most interesting. Hmmm, and your scent is quite intoxicating. Now what I if I told you I could save you from this pathetic excuse or a life, there would be no more waiting or asking for anything. You can just take it with no remorse what so ever." He smirked and leaned up against the tree beside me.
"Why would I want to live after he is dead? How could I go on by myself?" I asked him not really want an answer but just wanting to get it all out. "I don't want a life I want to be with him, it's all I ever wanted so just leave and find someone else, someone who would jump at your offer but just leave me be." I felt the tears running down my face his eyes got serious as he wiped them away. I felt the compassion of the action but felt no comfort. His touch disgusted me, everyone's touch made me sick. The only person I want right now is dead.
"I hate to say this but you have no choice, I will do as I want and right now I want you. So please don't fight this. It will only make it harder on you." I shook my head and tried to make a run for it. I failed and was pulled back as soon as I took a step. His cold touch made me shiver and his hard eyes scared me.
"Please just kill me." I whispered as his teeth grazed my neck. He let a growl escape as he bit me. He muffled a scream and let me drop to the ground. I let myself fall into the black and take the pain in stride. If this is death I must me in hell because Jasper isn't here and my heaven is Jasper and only him. The last thing I remember hearing from Kane was just a whisper.
"Join me."
It was a command not a question if it was a question I would have gladly said no and went my own way, found a way to survive without killing humans. But with Kane it was the thrill of hunting them, the screams and cries of them before they die. But it just sickens me, makes me like a monster. But that's what I am; I'm a monster and nothing else. We passed a sign that said Welcome to Forks. I can tell Kane is excited so I just grew quiet and closed my eyes. I know I can't sleep but for me it helps with my mind helps me relax it and just shut it off in a way. After a few more minutes and speeding we pulled up to a big house with trees surrounding it. A man and a woman stood smiling at us or actually at Kane. They looked nice enough they are vampires I know but their eyes aren't red they are golden.
"We're here darling." I smile and got out after him. He led the way to them and hugged the blonde man, next he hugged the small woman. "Carlisle Esme this is Kathleen, Kathleen this is Carlisle and Esme Cullen." I smiled and shook their hands.
"It's nice to meet you both." I said quietly not wanting to break the calm. They both smiled before they talked together.
"It's wonderful to finally meet you." I smiled as Kane put his arm around me. They led us into the house and we took a seat. I could hear a car pulling up into the driveway and some voices. I don't like to trespass in other minds so I just pulled back and waited for the new strangers to come inside. I blocked out the conversation between the men.
"Please excuse me." I stood up and walked out into the back yard in the field. I can hear a faint sound of a river running and I darted towards it. I don't know why but I feel a pull towards it. I stopped when I saw a figure sitting by the edge. He's a vampire that's for sure I'm just not sure if he's a threat or not. If he's anything like Kane he's a definite threat. He slowly turned and I froze. "Jasper?"
