New Story about Eli and Clare after "Love Roulette" showdown. hope you enjoy, read, love it, hate it review it do it all :}
Eli's POV
"We are never getting back together!"
Those words replayed over and over again in my head. I've been absent from school for about 3 days now and I still can't get those words out of my head. I 9admit hearing Clare say those words really hurt me but I had a feeling she didn't mean them. And of course my thought is to think that's the lack of pills talking but I've been back on my medication for 3 days now and I'm still thinking the same thing.
I have 2 more days of mental vacation and then I'm back to school. But before I head back to school I think I need to pay a visit to Clare's.
I had therapy today at noon and then I had to go to the pharmacy. So after bullfrog took me to do my errands I asked him I could go to the bookstore. He agreed and told me he would meet me back her in about 2 hours, plenty of time for me to visit Clare.
Clare only lived a block away from the store, so I arrived pretty quickly. I didn't see a car. Damn she must not be home. Should I knock? I mean she doesn't drive, so maybe her mom left her at home. Fuck it, I'll just knock.
I walked up the steps I use to know so well, to the door I knocked on plenty of times, how did something so familiar seem so distance and strange.
"Just a sec." she was home great, now what the hell do I say? Should I leave? Really Eli ding-dong ditch? Come quick decision, too late, the door opened.
"Eli?" Clare said with a surprised face. I was surprised I actually followed through with the plan. I've been thinking about it but didn't think I would actually follow through.
"Hey." Really hey? That's the best thing you come up with, wow smooth.
"What are you doing here?" she wasn't rude about it more confused.
"uhm, well, never mind I should go." I started to walk down the step.
"Wait!" she cried out. And I turned back around.
"Do you want to, uhm come inside?" she said scratching her head.
I smirked and nodded in response. Once we stepped inside her house, I noticed her kitchen was being remolded.
"New kitchen?"
"Yeah my mom wants to, wait let's talk about why you're here." She signaled for me to sit on the couch, she sat on the coffee table in front of me, last time me and Clare were like this, is when she was so understanding about my hoarding, hopefully she would be the same in this situation.
"Oh right well I just I don't know I felt I needed to talk to you before I returned back to school on Monday."
"Why? I mean I don't want to be rude but, id like to know."
Why? Why? I really didn't know why, maybe just to get rid of this awkward feeling.
"Uhm, now that I'm back on my medication, well and in a better state of mind, I feel I should apologize properly and….. hopefully we can get back to a more, civil relationship." I looked at her with hope in my eyes, waiting for a response.
Clare's POV
I knew what I had said that day of the plays premier hurt Eli to core, and truth be told I regret had saying it. The truth is, I am still in love with Eli. I just can't be with him, his issues are just too much for me to handle, I have my own and I can barely handle those.
The night of the play I had to attend of course due to Katie Matlin assigning the entire course of the play to me. The play I must say was amazingly good, but I'm not surprised Eli was always a great writer and the fact that he had changed it so I, I mean Clara was the hero maybe me a little bit happier inside. then I noticed Imogen was no longer playing Clara which was a bad thing and Eli started to get frustrated on stage. Then he broke off into a monologue.
The monologue was dark, scary and completely truthful. When he said "You all want a happy ending but the truth is you can't have it." I knew right then and there that wasn't Ari talking it was Eli, I had to literally hold back my tears.
The day after, Eli and bullfrog had went to the office to discuss his absences for the next 3 school days, I saw Eli walking towards the door. I couldn't help but feel saddened by his performance last night, I felt I, his parents and Fiona were the only ones who really knew it wasn't fake.
The days he was absence I tried to keep myself busy, with Jake and the paper, though in the back of my mind I couldn't help but wonder what Eli was doing. And if he was getting help and if I should call him. But now he is at my house sitting right in front of me and all I can do is put my guard up in reality I just want to hug him and hold him. I miss him, I miss us.
"I miss you" You know that akward moment when you are thinking something you don't want anyone to know and you accidently say it out loud, yeah that just happened.
Eli smirked. "I miss you too, Clare"
I couldn't help but smile back.
"So look maybe we can be friends, you know me Jake, you, Fi..what you think?" he smiled at me.
I wanted Eli back in my life. But was I sure I wanted to be friends. How the hell is Jake going to react? What the hell do I look like being friends with my ex when he tried to break me and Jake up?
"Clare" I snapped back to reality. "So what you think?"
What the hell did I think?
SO WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK CLARE THINKS!
